Life Of A Teenage Girl

I recently started this blog so here’s some quick things about me.

Pronouns🤍 she/her

Age🤍 15 turning 16 soon

Things I like🤍 scrapbooking, reading, arguing, movies, singing, Billie eilish, Lana del ray, sports (17u club vb setter), the gym.

DNI❌ creeps, sh, racists, homophobes, transphobes, zionists. This is not a safe space for you babes.

About this blog🤍 I like yapping, that’s pretty much it. I don’t know when to shut my mouth and won’t. Maybe some fit checks, ranting, complaining, hot takes. Online school content. Here to find community and have fun.

Extras: agnostic, support Palestine, if these bother you please scroll away and don’t spread negativity.

Three things i want to accomplish this week are getting my percentage in school work even, going to the gym 4 days, and working on my scrap book. 3 ways i can improve from last week is being more structured in my days, using my time wisely, and taking my self care seriously. This week i can let go of getting 🍃 every day. This week i can hangout with friends to make myself happy. 3 things I’m grateful for are my parents, my ability to move, and my privilege to do what i want.

April feels like locking in for school while counting down the seconds to the end of the day. April feels like anticipating a summer of swimming and heat, good makeup, wind blowing through your hair at nights and bad decisions. April feels like a month where you start to learn how to live again, and remember how good it feels to just LIVE.

Where my time goes:

— tiktok

— volleyball

— family time

— sleeping

— working out

Where i wish my time would go:

— school work

— studying

— working out more

— friends

— going out

Im starting a catch up plan for my school work this week, goal of getting 12 assignments done a day with 5 assignments on the weekend. I think the consistency is going to be where the problem lies but hopefully in 2 weeks ill be caught up and maybe even be ahead?

— lighting candles

— window shopping/online shopping

— runs outside

— walks

— listening to music

— watching big mouth

— watching twighlight

— working on my scrap book

— blogging

— reading a book

— putting outfits together

— playing with slime

— crying

— clipping my nails

— watching anime

I have a huge volleyball tournament in Vegas this weekend and i cant fall asleep. Im sharing a hotel room with my friend and i am super excited. Lately I’ve been losing the love for my sport and honestly interest in everything i used to love no matter how hard i try to pull it together. I think i am truly beginning to burn out and im pouring from an empty cup. I just want to have fun and compete and my coach has made it so insufferable and i constantly feel like im letting my team down, especially being the youngest on the team and the only setter sometimes i feel like they don’t like how they’re “stuck” with me. I feel like i could be doing so much better and effort isn’t enough for anybody. I don’t know i’ve come so far in volleyball and quitting now would be such a disappointment especially to my parents who have paid hella money and given a an arm and leg for me to play volleyball and compete doing what i love and i just don’t want to let them down.

March feels like new beginnings. Like re-learning how to take care of yourself and love yourself. March feels like opening a book you used to love. March feels like laying down in a warm bed with the sunset shining through the window complimented with a warm cup of tea. March feels like the nostalgia of hearing the birds chirping early in the morning. This March, be kind to yourself, allow yourself to re-learn what you once used to love, but forgotten as life overshadows your time.

— going outside

— going to the gym

— listening to music

— ranting

— eating sweets

— reading

— watching lifetime movies

— working on my scrapbook

— making a smoothie bowl

— complimenting people online

Fixing my sleep schedule

Putting more effort into school

Getting back into reading

Lessen my screen-time

Drinking more water

Being kinder to myself

Eating cleaner

Meeting my protein goals

Falling back in love with my sport

Studying more often

Is so weird because what do you mean im supposed to be more responsible and mature than guys, im not allowed to show skin but if i dont they lose interest, i should “live my life” and “be a kid” but i should also be “dating to marry” when i get in a relationship as if i dont even know what i want to do in life, all while on my period.

Im struggling with motivation so badly. Im behind like 40 assignments total between my classes and i cant find the motivation to just log in and do it and its sooo stupid like girl just do your school work but i cant. Then i go to the gym thinking it’ll make me motivated, i made myself a smoothie bowl and read a book and still im just staring at my computer unable to do shiz. Like girl just do your school work omg. Its so frustrating, if anybody has any tips please help cuz i feel like a chud.