but your history calls you back to it again

blog thesis: making you care about a rarepair you couldn't have cared less about 10 minutes ago

the point of fanfiction is to write something so self indulgent that nobody else has thought of it before or cares

Repping a particular niche in a fandom is a weird experience. Yes, I'm here and yes I'm part of things but the majority creates mainly for the popular fandom darling who I like but who doesn't live within my brain in any substantial capacity, which naturally distances me from most of my fandom peers and most common fandom-specific tropes. I'm running a roadside stand outside of the main discourse peddling my favorite side characters like they're the main ones. I am a scholar with only one school of literary criticism at my disposal and it's the one I made up. I am going to analyze and reinterpret this work of fiction from an angle exclusively focused on characters and a relationship no one else, least of all the original narrative itself, cares about. Who even knows what I'm talking about anymore, I've got 300 AUs about them. I'm sitting in a sandbox with my action figures. Enlightenment is often confused with madness