Funkin & Fightin

As much as I hate to admit it, I miss Instagram. I have had an Instagram account since I was at least a freshman in high school. That's a long ass time!!! A long habit to have. A crutch? A waste of time. Many things.

On.... Tuesday, I was sitting in a coffee shop having lunch. I had been tossing around the idea of deleting my Instagram. For the past month and a half, I have had a two-hour limit on my social media usage. I deleted Twitter and Facebook easily but IG and TikTok held strong. SO. I am sitting at lunch thinking, "Today is the day I should delete it. Right? Or no? Maybe I can wait...". But wait for what? Wait until I felt ready?

I WOULD NEVER FEEL READY!!!

I opened Instagram, swiped over, and looked through my gallery for the perfect picture to post and let everyone know I would not be on IG for an undetermined amount of time. And as I searched it really hit me that that was another sign that I needed to just DELETE IT. A post to let everyone know I wouldn't be on IG? A soft goodbye to my closest friends and acquaintances??? WHO AM I THAT ANYONE WOULD GIVE A SHIT? AND WHAT DO I GET OUT OF SHARING? I was deleting for myself, not everyone else. SO just quietly delete it and move on.

I wrapped up my lunch feeling a bit.... giddy? Rebellious? Nervous? Yes yes yes, as silly as it sounds. I got into my car and began driving to the library to return a book I had just finished. As I drove, I began crafting my next "I finished this book!" Instagram story post. I quickly realized... can't do that lol. But I did love sharing the books I read on Instagram. I liked sharing my quick opinion and rating of a book even if no one engaged. I have found some great books to read that were shared by posts and people I follow. And I liked to think that maybe I could do the same for someone else! Before I dropped my book in the return box I snapped a nice picture of me holding the book. I decided I would create a blog to share the books I read, my thoughts on them, and honestly whatever other things I want to post.

It feels funny to be back on Tumblr. The past year I have been finding myself returning to many things that meant a lot to me during my childhood/teen years. And boy was Tumblr up there. Shit, I guess I can throw in my late teens, and early 20s into that time period. I think those ideas can be a post all their own.  

Thank you for your time. And again... I miss Instagram but I feel badass not being on it!!!