dearly occult'd:

Mr. Meaner

Dempsey's Public House

Fargo, ND, USA

13 August 2022

Is í an Ghealach mo Mháistreás agus mo Mhúsaem.

ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏᴏɴ ɪꜱ ᴍʏ ᴍɪꜱᴛʀᴇꜱꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ᴍʏ ᴍᴜꜱᴇ.

🌑 🌒 🌓 🌔 🌕 🌖 🌗 🌘 🌑

Is í mo sholas diaga agus mo chaomhnóir ciúin san oíche.

ꜱʜᴇ ɪꜱ ᴍʏ ᴅɪᴠɪɴᴇ ʟɪɢʜᴛ ᴀɴᴅ ᴍʏ ꜱɪʟᴇɴᴛ ɢᴜᴀʀᴅɪᴀɴ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ɴɪɢʜᴛ.

H a p p y

F o u r t h

o f

J u l y

2 0 2 2

🌔 • 🌓 • 🌒 • 🌑 • 🌘 • 🌗 • 🌖

l u n a r 🌙 e c l i p s e

¹ ⁶ ' ⁵ ' ² ⁰ ² ²

n a t u r e w a l k

Photos: SELF

"Every man who has in his soul a secret feeling of revolt against any act of the State, of life, or of destiny, is on the verge of riot; and so soon as it appears, he begins to quiver, and to feel himself borne away by the whirlwind."

- Victor Hugo, Les Miserables

In Flames

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Trivium

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Lamb of God

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Megadeth

Photos: SELF

cries of hunger too often

deafen the purrs of glee

they whine & they spat

complain, scream, moan,

shout, grumble & pout

but they do know better

it's what shuts them up for

only a single, painstaking moment

but then i wait, as it's only momentary

at least for until it's time for dinner

smile, my boys, daddy has food.

"cheesy cattos"

ft. ßutterz + Sasha

Photo credit: SELF

"hungry cats are begging rats"

Poem: SELF

"Vernal Nox"

ft. Miss Kitty • Nyxx • Alandra Matthews • Jessika From The Volleyball Team • Asher Alexander

Rick's Bar

Fargo, N. D.

2 6 • 3 • 2 0 2 2

Photo credit: SELF

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Miss Kitty

Nyxx

Alandra Matthews

Jessika From The Volleyball Team

"Golden Girl Gala Drag Show"

ft. Jessika From The Volleyball Team • Koi Fawkes • Mimi • DEFY • Mika Supreme • Mr. Q • Asher Alexander • Floof • Fluff

Comstock Memorial Student Union

Concordia College, Moorhead, MN

Photo credits: SELF

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Jessika From The Volleyball Team

Koi Fawkes

Mimi

DEFY

Mika Supreme

Mr. Q

Asher Alexander

Floof

i am become waste

refuse of the forgetful

& neglectful of the fallen

i don't know where to stay

tumbling

&

trembling

here,, there,, somewhere

anywhere but never found.

i am that simplest toss away

but never a keep around

maybe I'm best left unknown

a colourful stain on the world

a tasteless scar on the floor

wrapped by filth,, listened by mute lips

& sealed in words left in the bin.

i am become rubbish

unknown to the world around me

but i'm ok...

i am doing just fine by myself

& i'll be blessed by the wind

soon enough.

"Wasted Away"

Photo: SELF

Model: SELF

"Neglect"

Poem: SELF

"silver lake"

Photo: SELF

whispers in the alley

hushed heartbeats

gentle footsteps

echo soundly in the rain

the Moon lay her head still

& in the dawn,,

we are forever free!

"alleyway ambience"

Poem/Photo: SELF

Model: M. Wagle

we are the urban crawlers

the streetwalkers & pioneers

we are the explorers into the Void

& seekers from within the dark

along the roads we pave our mark

bloodtrails, cookie crumbs & fag hash

our treasures are in the bottles we grab

we carry out our strength in the glass

to the alleys we find our way

& shadows you will never find

we are the living amongst the night

& dreamercatchers under the Moon

we are the jaded rats of the City

& we are here to stay

"Jaded Rats"

Poem:SELF

Models: R. Northern, K. Brower

Photos: SELF

i am the Master of my Aesthetic

a key keeper to my own Craft

i can create, grow, kill & destroy

all and none, bounded by my mind

my dreams are created by my demise

i am forever building what wasn't healed

in the darkness of my imagination

i crave inspiration to make my gallows

Poem/Photo: SELF

fingerprints on the table

like footsteps in the sand

trample and stamp

stomple and trot

up & down the bar table

begging, feasting, thriving

needing, kneading, yearning

grasping for another sip

just to feel, forever to deal

anything for one last drink.

"Dehydrated Depravity"

Poem: SELF

Photo: SELF