the bipolar architect

The 1st Quarter sure is tough, and my Faith really is shaken.

Praying for a breakthrough, wherever and whatever it may be. Lord, I surrender. Ayoko na ulit nang ganto, stuck ako ulit.

I rest my mind. There's too much on my plate, spoiled things even. I pray for deliverance to turn things around. Di ko pala talaga kaya.

Manifesting for my Visa to come this year, I rest that it may be God willing.

Lord, I am tired. I am back again to square one. But to You, I rest again, and I find refuge. I ask again for forgiveness for my shortcomings, redirection if needed be, wisdom to discern things, courage to say and do the things needed to be done, guidance and help wherever they may come from, and breakthrough which form it may be.

January

Celebrated New Year's Eve with the whole family in Cavite

Went to City of Dreams Manila

Went Batangas City

Tatay was admitted to MCI because of Pneumonia

Project Manalo Contract Signing

Leo and I parted ways

February

Bleached my hair again

Mucho’s 1st Birthday

March

Applied to UP SURP, got in, but didn't enroll

April

Attended National Convention for Architects 49

Demolition Works Started for Manalo Project

May

I rekindled my friendship with JD

I got my Building Permit for the Manalo Project

June

Moved back to Olongapo because of the Manalo Project

Formed new friendship with Rachel

July

Inducted as a Committee Chairperson for Membership of our Chapter--UAP MCC, and received an award

I lost Nevada (+) and LA (+)

August

I was able to meet new discord friends (thank you alek)--marion, van, ekko, rosch, wosho, bine, paulo, et al

My former team left me and was saved by Kuya Jimmy and his team

September

Started to lose myself in the process of committing to the project.

October

Breakdown: Nearly lost it, and pleaded to God for a new start by 2025

Breakthrough: Singapore 2024

November

Went out to check out the gay bar in olongapo--Adonis

December

Breakdown: JD used my situation to scam people; I lost Oreo (+)

Breakthrough: US Petition Approved, US VISA Case Creation

This is the plot twist I wasn't expecting for my 2024, but all thanks to my godmother, I was able to go to Singapore and enjoy and heal my inner child while at Universal Studios Singapore.

The travel there is as efficient as I could have hoped for (considering that it's Singapore), but the Transit System is such a chef's kiss (and my nerdy ass on transportation couldn't STRESS ENOUGH HOW EFFICIENT their transit system is!).

I stay at Sembawang (North of Singapore) while USS is at Vivo City (South of Singapore). If it weren't for their public transport system, the inclusivity in the designs, I would be lost, BUT NO! I got to USS as smooth as I can think of. Come to think of it, they have a number of train systems, which you could transfer from one system to another--efficient!

All of that to move people from one point to another as efficient as possible, GOD! IT'S SO EFFICIENT.

Since we're talking about our inner child, going to USS, I didn't have any expectations--at all! Why? Because really, I don't know what to expect and see, not until I got there--KUNG FU PANDAAA!!

Growing up watching Kung Fu Panda and seeing Po and Master Tigress in real life, unexpectedly, on a year you thought couldn't get any better, felt like a full circle moment--inner child healed.

It felt as though I was a child again seeing them perform their skit, and when the staff asked me to take a picture, of course I said yes!

Kung Fu Panda was definitely one of the highlights of the USS escapade, and I did enjoy the whole day.

Some of the places I went through were the Lights, Camera, Action Studio, the Sesame Street, Transformers, Human Roller Coaster, the Mummy, Jurassic Park, Puss and Boots, and Shrek.

It was really really fun. Traveling alone unlocked, and what a liberating feeling it was. I really did enjoy the trip.

I went to SG for a more personal trip, but God, THE FOOD!! I miss The Hainan Story's Chicken Rice--the love of my life! I promise myself I'll go back and eat that again.

We also went to a buffet--OF COURSE WE WON'T PUT THE ROAST BEEF TO WASTE!! Cooked at medium rare, it melts on your mouth. (God please take me back!)

And the hawkers?! God, I love it so much!

AND THE COFFEE? WITH BUTTER? SIGN ME THE FCK UP!!

AND THE IRVIN'S NOODLES! I want more!!!

Even the wok stir fried rice doesn't disappoint!

The Chicken Satay (chef's kiss!!)

Xiumai? and Airport food? I love it there! I miss it already

Ninang asked me if I could go visit her because she had a scheduled operation and she needed someone to tend over her, I said "wait, lemme check".

I had qualms over whether I'll be able to travel overseas anytime soon, because of my emotional baggage from last year, and also the overflowing work I had for myself. So, I had to double check with (myself) everything that's going on with my life... then later on said, fuck it. I'm going.

Lo and behold, I said yes. I had 1 month to prepare for work and a lot of things, but God be good, the travel pushed through.

There are so many things that happened and a lot of introspection. I missed writing, so I'm giving this back to myself and document how the trip went.

PS.

#Manifesting what the video said, "an overseas work". #Manifesting for SG