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Scar makes them pause so Grian can take care of himself. He tries to confirm that the kid knows how to do that, but narrows his eyes as Grian shakes his head. He's sure that he's lying, but Scar tells him some verbal pointers. Grian pouts, but settles on the bed while Scar is quick to leave and give him some privacy.

Luckily, he doesn't see Jimmy in the hallway. He doesn't know how he'd explain why he left Grian's room.

While waiting for Grian to finish, he can't help but wonder if Grian is thinking about him. His thoughts are answered a moment later as a quiet moan of his name leaks through the door. He swallows and shifts a little, aware of his own growing bulge. He glances back at Grian's door before ducking into the bathroom to jerk off.

He wonders how Grian would sound without the door in their way, what he looks like, what he's thinking about…

After, when he's finished and Grian's given the confirmation that he is too, Scar can't stop thinking about it. Things feel a little awkward now, so he ends up giving Grian a quick kiss before saying he has to go and fleeing.

Scar tries to avoid Grian, but a couple weeks later, Jimmy goes on a cruise with his parents who ask if Scar can come over to check on Grian during the days they're gone. Scar says he can, feeling both apprehensive and, admittedly, excited at the prospect of having days alone with the boy.

The first couple of days are fine. They spend a lot of time together. Mostly gaming or watching TV. On the second night, he sleeps over.

That night, Grian sneaks into the room Scar is sleeping in. He watches him for a moment before getting closer, carefully settling onto the bed without waking Scar. He hardly waits a moment before pulling the blanket down and reaching out to feel him up.

He starts clumsily pawing at Scar's dick over his boxers. Once he starts he doesn't wanna stop, so he slowly and carefully pulls his boxers off.

It's the first time he's seen Scar's dick. It's dark and he may not be able to see it very well, but he still finds himself drooling at knowing just how close it is.

Grian's got plenty of experience with his own dick, but it's different being so close to someone else's. To Scar's.

He reaches out to touch him, but then Scar shifts and makes some noises in his sleep and Grian freezes. Once Scar settles again though he goes back to what he's doing.

He strokes his cock, watching as it gets harder. A bead of pre-cum drips from the tip and he thinks to himself that he really wants to lick it.

So he leans down and licks it up and hums at the taste. He decides he wants more, so he starts trying to get his mouth around it. He struggles, though, the cock being bigger than he expected, and as Scar gets harder, it only seems to get bigger.

He's worried about Scar waking up, but the whole thing is just sooooo hot to him. He's wanted to get his hands and mouth on Scar's cock for so long so he's really taking advantage of this opportunity, not knowing when he'll get the chance to again.

Scar does end up waking a little bit, but not enough to really process anything around him. He's in that half-awake state. The only thing he's really aware of is how good his cock feels, surrounded by a wet warmth. He groans, shifting a little, thinking he must be dreaming.

In his dream, Grian is sucking him off. Movement had stopped but slowly it starts up again and he's moaning in his sleep when, without warning, suddenly he's coming.

Grian startles, but he keeps his mouth sealed around the tip and swallows each shot of cum as it's pumped down his throat. He doesn't want to leave any evidence of what he did. When Scar finishes coming and settles back to being fully asleep, Grian tucks Scar back into his boxers before going back to his room to jerk off.

In the morning, Scar remembers his dream and worries that he can't control his own thoughts around the kid anymore. He ends up telling Grian he has to leave and quickly rushes out. In his haste to get out, he doesn't realize he left a sweater behind until he looks for it upon reaching home and can't find it.

He comes back the next day, letting himself in with the key he'd been giving, and calls out for Grian only to get no response.

He goes over to Grian's door and that's when he hears the noises coming from the other side. And he knows he really, really shouldn't, but it's just too tempting. And surely if he's quiet enough then Grian will never know.

He silently cracks the door open to watch and sees Grian wearing only the hoodie he'd given him months ago with the sweater he just left behind clutched against his face. He's facing away from the door so he doesn't immediately notice Scar, giving him plenty of time to watch. It's obvious what he's doing, though, with one hand holding the sweater and the other used as leverage as he grinds against a pillow.

He wasn't quite expecting to see this, he thinks as he silently slips into the room and shuts the door behind him. He walks closer and doesn't speak until he gets close enough that he can wrap his fingers around the sweater. "Hey kid, I think that belongs to me."

Grian looks up at him wide-eyed, face incredibly red and flustered. From here, Scar can see how long the hoodie is on him, the way his little dick is just barely poking out. He can feel how hard he is at the sight.

Grian starts begging for Scar to please not be mad, but all Scar can think is how fucking hot this is. He knew Grian wanted him, that was obvious, but to see him in only his hoodie and sniffing his sweater…his scent…

He still lets Grian squirm a bit. He's clearly sooo embarrassed but his dick is still leaking pre-cum, staining the pillow and Scar's hoodie as he's squirming where he's sitting, scrambling to come up with excuses about how it wasnt what it looks like Scar I promise!! -

It's an entirely impulsive move but he leans down and kisses Grian.

Immediately heated and with tongue. Grian moans and quickly kisses him back, holding onto his shirt and trying to press himself as close as possible.

Scar is a lot more assertive than normal because he's fed up and pent up and he's like to hell with it all. He knocks Grian back onto the bed while they're making out and starts feeling up his cute little ass. While they'd made out plenty in the past, he'd always try to keep his hands to himself. But now he lets himself touch the way he's always wanted to.

They don't fuck then. Grian begs for Scar to fuck him, but they don't have any lube, so he refuses to. He tells Grian there's still other things they can do, though. He strokes Grian, still hard, then moves so he can suck him off.

He teaches Grian how to touch him, how to give someone a blowjob. Asks if that was him the other night, and Grian looks at him guiltily. Scar runs his fingers through Grian's hair and is like "thought so." Grian tells him that he just wanted him so bad he didn't know what to do.

After Scar comes from Grian's mouth again, they end up cuddling. Scar stays that night. The next day, Scar buys some lube and finally gives in to Grian's insistent begging for Scar to fuck him. He's slow and careful about it as he stretches him and as he finally sinks into him and starts to fuck him. Grian's whining for him to go faster until he's actually in him and realizes just how deep Scar reaches in him.

After, they cuddle again and do some gaming. That night, Grian is able to convince Scar to sleep in his bed. He wakes to Grian trying to work himself down his dick, insatiable. Grian made a lot of progress stretching himself out and he couldn't wait until morning to get Scar to fuck him again, and he'd had a convenient boner already.

Scar wants to be upset about it but Grian is just so goddamn cute and apologetic and he gasps so prettily when Scar grabs his hips and starts thrusting into him, he just can't be mad at him. The next day Grian's so sore but so proud of himself.

Throughout the week, the two end up having sex a lot. They'll start out gaming and then Grian will start playing one-handed so his free hand can wander and he'll start feeling Scar's dick up. Or Grian will cockwarm Scar while they're gaming.

Scar also teaches Grian how to top. The kid's eager to learn and always gets super excited when he makes Scar feel good.

Scar also tries to take him out on some unofficial dates. He doesn't want Grian to think he's just using him for sex. He really does care for the boy and wants to make this as pleasant an experience as possible.

When the parents and Jimmy get back home, the parents ask how it was, did Grian behave, what did they get up to?

Scar tells them they mostly played a lot of Mario Kart. Jimmy looks at them kinda suspiciously, but he doesn't say anything.

Scar does have to have a talk with Grian about how they Are Not officially dating, so Grian can't go back to school and tell all his friends about his cool older boyfriend. Grian cries about it and Scar has to stay so strong in the face of tearful big brown eyes, but he manages. Grian, at almost 16, starts counting down the days until he turns 18.

Scar starts his first year of college. He's excited for the new opportunities, to be studying something he actually wants to study, and - well...

Lately, he's been having what he can only describe as intrusive thoughts. They pop up at inconvenient times and leave him feeling awful, especially the next time he sees the person they're directed toward.

Whenever he sees Grian, he can't always look him in the eye. Especially as he starts thinking about how cute he is, and in not just a kiddish way. It's clear how obsessed with Scar the kid is, too, always excited to see him and pouting heavily whenever Scar mentions that he's going to college.

The two have exchanged phone numbers, so Grian texts Scar relentlessly, even at times when he knows the kid is in class. But he indulges him and texts back, even when he should be paying attention to his own classes.

Still, he tries not to let his thoughts stray too far. To not let himself think about how trusting Grian is of him, and if he were a worse person, he could probably get away with -

He always stops his train of thought there, refusing to even think about it for a second.

So instead, he starts seeking out other people. Someone to spend the night with, or even just a passon-filled moment before leaving.

He hooks up with many people, maybe has one relationship that lasts a month or so. All the while, he's determined Not to think about his best friend's kid brother and how he likes to lean against his shoulder when they play Mario Kart together.

But at some point, he realizes that everyone he's hooked up with reminds him of Grian. Whether it's the way they look or the way they act, it all reminds him of the very kid he's trying to stop thinking about so much.

So he decides he's not gonna hook up with anyone for a bit. He can take care of himself with his own hands, surely. So he jerks off, but his thoughts always stray to Grian. He ends up imagining what he'd look like under him, the sounds he'd make as Scar's fucking him, the way he'd look up at him with those big eyes of his...

He ends up coming before he can force the thoughts away.

He feels soooo guilty, but decides that surely it's okay so long as nobody finds out about it. So he lets himself indulge a little in the privacy of his own company.

Come Christmas break, he's decided it doesn't matter what feelings he has so long as he doesn't act on them. He still tries to avoid Grian at first, though he struggles to come up with an excuse of why to Jimmy. Eventually he decides he's being silly and goes over. He gives himself permission to enjoy being around Grian so long as he's not actively fantasizing.

Scar had worked out a lot over the semester, so when he returns, he's gotten significantly more stronger and buff. Grian is sooooo shy suddenly, but they end up breaking the ice and hanging out like normal.

Grian is a bit clingier than he was before Scar had left, but he chalks that up to the kid having missed him. Admittedly, he'd missed him too, though he'd never admit it to anyone else.

Occasionally, one of Grian's hands will stray a little. He seems to like touching his chest, or sometimes even his inner thighs to get his attention to ask him a question while they're gaming. Scar just subtly repositions himself when that happens and doesn't bring it up, and similarly Grian never says anything about it.

Since he started working out, not all of his old hoodies fit him anymore, so he ends up giving one of them to Grian. Grian is absolutely thrilled, and Scar tries not to let it get to his head how good the kid looks wearing his clothes.

When he returns to college, he goes back to hooking up with others to get his mind off of Grian with limited success.

That summer after he returns from his first year is when things start to really ramp up. He'd been aware that Grian clearly has a crush on him, but he'd hoped the kid would grow out of it, realize he's not interested. Or at least, that he pretends not to be.

And maybe it's that which makes the kid keep trying. As if he knows it's performative. As if he can sense the way Scar's gaze or his hands linger a little longer than he knows he should let them.

Jimmy and Grian's parents take them to a pool and Scar ends up tagging along. He and Jimmy had gone to separate colleges, so he's glad to spend some time with his best friend. It's…just a little bonus that Grian is there also. And that he's shirtless.

Grian tries to talk Scar into giving him swimming lessons, pretending that he can't swim all that well so he clings to Scar. He ends up touching Scar's crotch a few times during this, sometimes with his knee, sometimes with his hand. Scar just tries to ignore it, to help Grian reposition, and wills himself not to get hard now.

Even out of the pool, Grian is practically glued to Scar's side. He tries to sit on Scar's lap, and Scar keeps glancing worriedly at Jimmy, wondering if he knows anything about Scar's thoughts. If he can tell.

He whispers to Grian that his brother might see, which just makes the kid more smug at an acknowledgment that there's something there.

A week or two later and Scar is hanging out with him in his room after Grian had dragged him in to get him to help with a game.

It's not long though before he turns to Scar and begs for him to help him practice kissing. He doesn't want anyone to make fun of him because he doesn't know how to! Surely Scar can help him, right?

He tries soooo hard to resist, but he's gotten so weak. Constantly fantasizing about Grian, who's only gotten more and more touchy, and admittedly he really wants to…

He gives in. He kisses him and tries not to think too hard about how that was surely his first kiss. He's 15, but from the way he begged for Scar to teach him…he doesn't have anyone else to do this with. He may not want to do this with anyone else.

The kisses start out chaste, and he tries to turn this into a lesson and give some pointers and leave it at that. But Grian's so insistent and says he'll only get better with practice, and Scar is so weak for this boy with his big pleading brown eyes.

The more they do it, most times that Scar visits, the more heated they get until they're full on making out. Grian will sit in his lap, tongue fully in Scar's mouth, and Scar eagerly reciprocates. He doesn't let things escalate further than that, though, much as he can tell Grian really wants to.

In early June, Scar gets a text from Grian. It's a selfie of him, one that makes Scar's mouth go dry. He's clearly dressed up, and in far more revealing clothes than he would normally wear.

With it is the text that says he's going out to a party, but Scar can come with if he likes, complete with a winking emoji.

Scar swallows. He hadn't planned on going out tonight, but there's no way he's letting Grian go to a party by himself. Who knows what he'd get up to? And with an outfit like that, nobody would know the kid's only 15.

He allows himself a glance at it again before he replies.

He tries to dress himself up a little too and heads over to Grian's. He asks if Jimmy knows he's going out, and Grian happily tells him that no, he's sleeping. Scar frowns, but doesn't say anything as they head to the party.

As soon as they get there, Grian is happily bounding in and flirting with anyone who talks to him, flaunting his outfit. Scar watches him, hands clenched at his sides, glaring at anyone who dares to talk to the kid.

Upon noticing he doesn't have one, people try to hand Grian a drink and Scar snatches it away so fast with a terse "he's not drinking." He's told to let him live a little, and it takes everything within him to not snap out that he's 15. He doesn't drink either, wanting to keep his wits about him so he can keep an eye on Grian.

But then someone strikes up a conversation with Scar at one point and his gaze strays from Grian for just a second. In that moment, Grian goes to the kitchen and gets himself a drink that he immediately downs.

Once Scar realizes he's gone he panics and wildly looks around. His heart drops to his stomach as the person he was talking to points to the kitchen and he looks in to see Grian already pouring his second drink and starting to down that.

He rushes over and takes away the nearly empty cup. He's soooo pissed and Grian is just smiling smugly at him, proud of himself. The drink hasn't fully hit yet, but Scar knows it will soon.

He wants to drag Grian home then and there but he's worried about Grian being visibly drunk when they get back so he gets him some water to try and prevent him from being too drunk.

Scar makes sure to keep a closer eye on him, even as he goes back to flirting with others and being flirted with in turn. People think he's hot, and he gets plenty of compliments on his outfit that only piss off Scar further.

He hates that they're right, that he can see it. Grian does look hot, and also much older than he really is.

One person wraps a hand around his waist, grinning at Grian who smiles back, the stranger's hand wandering a little, and Scar sees red. He moves Grian away from them, glaring, and they hold their hands up in a placating gesture. Scar starts to take them outside of the house, deciding they are going home Right Now.

He makes it to the outside before Grian pulls him closer until he can pin him to the wall. Scar stares wide-eyed down at Grian as he grins up at him, hands wandering over his chest then up to loop around his neck.

"Don't want anyone else touching me, hm?" His hands play with the little hairs at the back of Scar's neck. His gaze drips down to his lips in a look that Scar has come to recognize. He knows Grian is gonna kiss him, so he's quick to push him away before that can happen. There are far too many people around them and Grian is drunk.

He pouts at Scar but Scar does his best to ignore him and takes him home.

Getting him inside silently is a useless affair. He ends up having to get him in a fireman carry (too nervous about holding him in any other way) as he brings him inside. Grian's kicking his feet and singing some song, even though Scar had told him to be quiet.

He makes eye contact with Jimmy in the hallway, who has an unreadable expression on his face.

Scar tells him that he doesn't know how he got into the drinks - he took his eyes off of him for two seconds. But he can tell from the way his face doesn't change that Jimmy isn't really sure whether or not to believe him.

He'd figured Jimmy knew there was Something between them. If he'd sensed that Grian and Scar had become just a little too close. Scar was glad he had never said anything, but now with his friend's gaze on him, he suddenly wishes maybe he had. Maybe if he'd said something before, things wouldn't have gotten as bad.

He's hit with a lot of guilt from the look Jimmy gives him. He knows nothing happened between him and Grian at the party. He didn't let it. But then, things have happened in the past, and Jimmy's surely picked up on it.

He comes over and helps get Grian into bed. Scar tries to leave, but Grian tries to cling to him, upset at him leaving. He tries to tell Grian he needs to go, but Grian whines that he'd promised he'd stay. Scar is caught between wanting to reassure Grian and also the increasingly suspicious vibes radiating off of Jimmy. He's also sooo worried that he's gonna try to kiss him in front of his brother.

Eventually, Grian falls asleep and Scar prepares to leave. He hesitates at the door, looking at the both of them. Grian is sleeping so peacefully, turned onto his side, and Jimmy is watching him with the expression of someone who doesn't know what to think about his best friend coming home with his drunk 15 year old brother.

Scar is quick to leave.