. . .

don’t even bother trying to message me on skype

i wont follow everyone back for a lil while, and probably won’t try to socialize for a little while, but ill make a post on the new blog in a lil bit just to get that out of the way

i just wanna start everything over and be somewhat alone for a while, i promise, its just me and my dumb anxiety and depression

a a a thats really sweet but… honestly im getting too exhuasted to keep trying to convince myself that any of those things a true? I feel like I’m just some weirdo who sits in the corner of the tag, forces my way into meet ups and chats and that sort, and makes everything worse when something comes around, everyone’s desire to be around me is expiring, and i shouldn’t bother trying to change that.

And, I’m tired of always having to lie to myself that I actually am liked or deserve to be liked, and im too stressed and i hardly feel happy being around anything or anyone anymore?

I’m just rambling now, but I think about before I even came to the internet, and like, I was a nobody and a nothing but it felt better than always worrying that people like you when duh obviously they shouldn’t like you you brat lol

I think the best thing for myself and everyone else is if i just deleted everything and got it over with pff and that’s probably what i’ll do

im just rlly tired, depressed, and anxious, nothing is gonna improve, and i just don’t feel like i wanna be around anymore, not like that’s even much of a problem

3/9 - Charlotte