Queer Ramblings

maomao’s dedication to ignoring jinshi’s real identity is truly inspiring. the woman who has solved multiple murders based on minor clues in the environment keeps looking at every sign pointing to jinshi being royalty and going “damn, this could add up to something. good thing I can’t do math!”

maomao is my favorite "not like other girls" style protagonist bc for one shes a girls girl through and through. to the bone. and two she's just a weird little freak. absolute lunatic. they have the whole "omg she's actually beautiful and everyone falls for her when she's all made up" trope but the punchline is that she does not fucking want to look like that. she actively puts dirt on her face every day bc she does not want to be perceived as attractive (mostly out of fear of being used for sex work though at the same time she has the utmost respect for women who do sex work like she grew up in a brothel those are her sisters). she's Sherlock level smart and solves every mystery so fast but goes "well thats none of my business. anyway back to testing poisons on myself" she has the 2nd most powerful guy in the nation head over heels in love with her and is like "man this guy is weird around me what's his deal. I guess he's fine though because he gives me rare medicines and has no dick" fucking ICON i love her. also she once slapped someone so hard they fell on the floor. 10/10

my best tip for anyone trying to get back into reading is to remember that you can read books to avoid other responsibilities in ur life and it can become a vice if you play your cards right

one thing about me is I’m going to make weird noises about it

I think Jens Lyndelle would call me a fag as an insult. He can reclaim it and some might even argue that in his world it was invented for him. He is calling me it as a slur. Brian Murphy has created the most homophobic gay man I have ever seen and I think it is art. He's not even gay he just reads as gay he's attracted to money. Canonically. Professional hater twink is a genre but Jens Lyndelle just wins it he wins the genre. He wins at being a mean pathetic twink I don't care that nobody knows who he is. I am obsessed with him.

you can never zone out when listening to a naddpod short rest bc you go "ah i wonder what theyre going to discuss abt skaldova in this episode (theyre not going to discuss anything) wait why are they talking about the movie franchise now you see me"