The Karmic Judge of the Universe
: SHANI DEV
The kindness beneath the steel
My thoughts on Shani Dev ..
In the pages of many scriptures of Indian Vedas and through storytelling of many, Shani dev is often painted as the God who punishes, brings pain and delay. He’s portrayed as
someone who will get angry at someone even if they inhaled air in the wrong direction.
People fear his Dashas and Mahadashas, as if they are sentenced to a punishment worse than death. Many worship him out of pure fear or after being told to do so by some astrologer.
His name means “slow moving”. He is known to bring delays and tests in one’s life. His sade saati has become a term people use to describe someone’s hard time in life. But they miss one important detail.
These seven and a half years are definitely filled with tests, but even
more, they are filled with opportunities for growth and enlightenment.
Shani dev is often seen holding a mirror, symbolising that he is not there to hurt you, simply to reflect back the truth in you.
Then may it be demons or angles inside your heart, you will see it. He makes you face your worst not to shame you but rather to show you where you can improve. He puts you in such situations, where not only actions are tested but also the intent behind them. He is extremely fair in his ways and will always guide you, you just have to keep your eyes open to see it
I, myself have experienced his love through his tests. My 12th grade was during his sade saati. He made the environment such, that I was forced to work hard and face myself. I was forced to break and rebuild. He made me go from an aimless unorganized person to
someone who’s confident and ambitious.
He taught me grit, but the world around me taught me to see results as the only defining factor of success. Which made even resting feel like a breach on my own path to success
Sure, that year was filled with big set backs and delays, moments where I laid down wondering if it was all even worth it, since my results rarely reflected my efforts, but I never stopped going. The day I let go of the need of results to validate me, the day when I started
to rest and study with balance, he rewarded me by making me get a 99/100 in the one exam where it mattered the most.
It was then that I realized that even if it seems like the world does not see the sacrifices and honesty of your intent, he always remembers. Those, who work hard without praise, impatience and greed are the ones who get his highest blessings.
Success granted by him is slower and more painful in process, but when you do get it, no one else can take it awayfrom you. This was clear from the fact that I was the only one who got a 99 and no one even scored near this.
On the brink of losing myself to overwork and burn out, the endless loop of exams came to a halt. I had always respected what he represented; discipline, ethics and hard work.
But as I started to pray to him, I started to see just how truly kind he was. He had pushed me enough to evolve but stepped in when it got destructive.
Only three days of his bhakti seemed to
cured a year of burn out in me.
People describe him as a strict punisher, someone who makes people isolate and face problems. But they forget to mention that he is in fact very kind and forgiving.
He never punishes out of anger or arrogance, he punishes wrong deeds like a strict but kind teacher
who would rather be seen as strict than compromise his student’s growth.
He is the only one who will make you see the cold hard truth, because coddling does not result in true evolution. The moment you look into the mirror he upholds, as a test result, rather than a personal attack, is when his tests get easier. He is the one who sees the
potential of creating a ‘diamond’ from ‘carbon’, but as we all are aware, diamonds require extremely high pressure and heat to be formed.
Along with the job of delivering justice and upholding karma, his lesser known job is also to guide souls to the right path. He is someone who loves authenticity, and even if you ever go to him and pray “I feel stuck, please help me understand how to solve this” without any
rituals, he always responds. I know this because in the middle of his tests I would often pray to him for guidance and I would somehow always receive it in one way or the other. So if you
ever feel like you are stuck, feel free to ask him the same.
Trust me when I say this, you will never find a guide better than the karmic judge of this universe.
His presence and gaze are said to bring bad luck and problems, but people forget WHY they occur in the first place;
They occur to destroy what’s false and install what’s true.
One of my biggest examples of the same is that, when I was gifted an idol of him, a lot of unrest got generated in my relationships with those who I was the closest to. But the same unrest lead to clarity among us all and made our relationships bullet proof, which were originally on the
path of breaking.
I will forever have gratitude towards him, for he, answers my each call. Where ever I would go, I would see a crow, which are considered to be his vehicle. Whenever I would feel lonely and say I wish to see him, crows start cawing or I get to go to his temple later in the day.
His love is the most quiet and the most dedicated love of them all. He will never leave your side, hold you close when his tests break your heart and make sure that you always walk on the right path.
Remember this, he only breaks enough to rebuild better, not till the point of destruction.