Light's shadow

1. We would miss you. 2. It’s not worth the regret. Either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you. 3. It does get better. Believe it or not it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow. 4. There’s so much you would miss out on doing. 5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there. 6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself. 7. You ARE worth it. Don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise. 8. You are amazing. 9. A time will come, once you’ve battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won’t regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better. 10. What about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? What about the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? You can’t do them when you’re dead. 11. I love you. Even if only one person loves you, that’s still a reason to stay alive. 12. You won’t be able to listen to music if you die. 13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You’ll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about. 14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me. 15. You’re preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born. 16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died? 17. You’re gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect. 18. Think about your favourite music artist, you’ll never hear their voice again… 19. You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day 20. Listening to incredibly loud music 21. Being alive is just really good. 22. Not being alive is really bad. 23. Finding your soulmate. 24. Red pandas 25. Going to diners at three in the morning. 26. Really soft pillows. 27. Eating pizza in New York City. 28. Proving people wrong with your success. 29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life. 30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can. 31. Being able to help other people. 32. Bonfires. 33. Sitting on rooftops. 34. Seeing every single country in the world. 35. Going on roadtrips. 36. You might win the lottery someday. 37. Listening to music on a record player. 38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower. 39. Taking really cool pictures. 40. Literally meeting thousands of new people. 41. Hearing crazy stories. 42. Telling crazy stories. 43. Eating ice cream on a hot day. 44. More Harry Potter books could come out, you never know. 45. Travelling to another planet someday. 46. Having an underwater house. 47. Randomly running into your hero on the street. 48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel. 49. Trampolines. 50. Think about your favourite movie, you’ll never watch it again. 51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke, 52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it’s for just one person or 20 or 100 or more. 53. People do care. 54. Treehouses 55. Hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse 55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees 56. I don’t even know you and I love you. 57. I don’t even know you and I care about you. 58. Because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness! 59. You won’t be here to experience the first cat world emperor. 60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU’LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS! 61. Starbucks. 62. Hugs. 63. Stargazing. 64. You have a purpose, and it’s up to you to find out what it is. 65. You’ve changed somebody’s life. 66. Now you could change the world. 67. You will meet the person that’s perfect for you. 68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you. 69. You have the chance to save somebody’s life. 70. If you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things. 71. Making snow angels. 72. Making snowmen. 73. Snowball fights. 74. Life is what you make of it. 75. Everybody has a talent. 76. Laughing until you cry. 77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy. 78. The world would not be the same if you didn’t exist. 79. Its possible to turn frowns, upside down 80. Be yourself, don’t take anyone’s shit, and never let them take you alive. 81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero. 82. Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means that you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections. 83. One day your smile will be real. 84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day. 85. Lying on grass and laughing at the clouds. 86. Getting completely smashed with your best friends. 87. Eating crazy food. 88. Staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one. 89. Sleeping in all day. 90. Creating something you’re proud of. 91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn’t commit 92. Being able to meet your Internet friends. 93. Tea / Coffee / Hot Chocolate 94. Sherlock season three. 95. Cuddling under the stars. 96. Being stupid in public because you just can. 97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile? 98. being able to hug that one person you havent seen in years 99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this. 100. But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, literally anything could happen

IF that isn’t enough:

clap your hands

“All that is gold does not glitter. Not all those who wander are lost.”

“All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.”

“If more of us valued food and cheer and song above hoarded gold, it would be a merrier world.”

“There is some good in this world, and it’s worth fighting for.”

“Faithless is he that says farewell when the road darkens.”

“The world is indeed full of peril, and in it there are many dark places; but still there is much that is fair, and though in all lands love is now mingled with grief, it grows perhaps the greater.”

“Deserves it! I daresay he does. Many that live deserve death. And some that die deserve life. Can you give it to them? Then do not be too eager to deal out death in judgement. For even the very wise cannot see all ends.”

“I will not say: do not weep; for not all tears are an evil.”

“Do you wish me a good morning, or mean that it is a good morning whether I want it or not; or that you feel good this morning; or that it is a morning to be good on?”

“I am glad you are here with me. Here at the end of all things.”

“Courage is found in unlikely places.”

“It’s the job that’s never started as takes longest to finish.”

“May it be a light to you in dark places, when all other lights go out.”

“Moonlight drowns out all but the brightest stars.”

“A man that flies from his fear may find that he has only taken a shortcut to meet it.”

“I warn you, if you bore me, I shall take my revenge.”

“In this hour, I do not believe that any darkness will endure.”

“It is not the strength of the body that counts, but the strength of the spirit.”

“The world is full enough of hurts and mischances without wars to multiply them.”

“If by my life or death I can protect you, I will. ”

“I feel thin, sort of stretched, like butter scraped over too much bread.”

“It is not despair, for despair is only for those who see the end beyond all doubt. We do not.”

“You have nice manners for a thief and a liar.“

“It is useless to meet revenge with revenge; it will heal nothing.”

“Yes, I am here. And you are lucky to be here too after all the absurd things you’ve done since you left home.”

“Pay heed to the tales of old wives. It may well be that they alone keep in memory what it was once needful for the wise to know.”

“It is perilous to study too deeply the arts of the Enemy, for good or for ill.”

“I wished to be loved by another, but I desire no man’s pity.”

“The whole thing is quite hopeless, so it’s no good worrying about tomorrow. It probably won’t come.”

“Sorry! I don’t want any adventures, thank you. Not Today. Good morning! But please come to tea -any time you like! Why not tomorrow? Good bye!”

“How do you move on? You move on when your heart finally understands that there is no turning back.”

“A red sun rises. Blood has been spilled this night.”

“Don’t go where I can’t follow.”

“I may be a burglar…but I’m an honest one, I hope, more or less.”

“For victory is victory, however small, nor is its worth only from what follows from it.”

“I have passed through fire and deep water, since we parted. I have forgotten much that I thought I knew, and learned again much that I had forgotten.”

“Why must you speak your thoughts? Silence, if fair words stick in your throat, would serve all our ends better.”

“If you sit on the doorstep long enough, I daresay you will think of something”

“There’s some good in this world, and it’s worth fighting for.”

735,306

Homestuck ships possible (don’t forget, four romances, one tri-relational) = (840 * 839 * 3) + (840 * 839 * 838) =

592,703,160

594,820,800

This is of course assuming that each character is only capable of having 4 types of ships.  If we factor in charms (which is the Leprechaun romance system) there are 9 types of relationships. However, it is clearly stated that Leprechauns can be in more than 1 charm with another Leprechaun. That means that the total number of combinations of relationships that a Leprechaun can have is :

 = 

511

There are 14 known Leprechauns in Homestuck meaning that the total number of possible “Leprechaun Only” relationships in Homestuck is (14*14*511) = 

100,156

So we add that number to the previous total for 594,820,800 + 100,156 = 

594,920,956

However, this is assuming that only Leprechauns can be in these types of relationships. If we assume that all characters can additionally be in these types of relationships (which I understand is a big assumption, but the fandom will probably ship everything possible anyway) then we need to add a few more numbers.

(840 * 840 * 511) =

360,561,600

I am going to add this to the first total I came up with so as not to include the Leprechauns twice. So the grand total number of ships possible in Homestuck assuming that every character can be in both Troll and Leprechaun relationships (but not both at the same time) is:

594,820,800 + 360,561,600 = 

955,382,400

So remember how way back when I said G1 has 538 Autobots and 452 Decepticons? Remember that? And how I got that nifty calculation that said, hey the Transformers Fandom has nearly 3 billion ships in the G1 Continuity on its own? 

Well, I went back onto the TF Wiki and decided to calculate the total number of characters from every continuity that could be considered Cybertonian in origin.

TOTAL NUMBER OF AUTOBOTS = 3071

TOTAL NUMBER OF DECEPTICONS = 2469

TOTAL NUMBER OF MAXIMALS = 264

TOTAL NUMBER OF PREDACONS = 310

TOTAL NUMBER OF NEUTRALS = 40

TOTAL NUMBER OF MINICONS = 610

That is a grand spanking total of 6764 Cybertronian characters. If we were simply to address one specific method of pairing characters, say Full Spark Bonding between two individuals, this would lead to exactly 91,503,392 possible ships.

However, there are five widely observed types of relationships between Cybertronians. These are Full Spark Bond (2 Individuals), Partial Spark Bond (2 Individuals), Trine Bond (3 Individuals), Full Multiple Spark Bond (3 to 5 Individuals), Partial Multiple Spark Bond (3 to 5 Individuals).

Ahem.

Following my revised calculations, the total number of possible ships with JUST Cybertronian Characters is anywhere between 2,785,363,252,480 and 929,033,938,976.

Between 2 Trillion and 900 Trillion. 

In conclusion…

ROBOTS!!

Let’s, for the sake of fairness, keep the calculation of Homestuck’s total ships at 594,820,800 (disregarding leprechauns, including selfcest.)

And instead add this:

No, it’s not canon. No, this probably wouldn’t apply to any form of Alternia that “exists” or ever will “exist”. But for now, forget that.

We’ve already calculated data for the main four ships, so for now those are going to be skipped. Going down this list in order disregarding the main ships, we have (840^3) + (840^2) + (840^4) + (840^3) + (840^2) + (840^2) + (840^2) + (840^2).

Simplified? 499,060,296,000 ships. Adding the original ship count gives us 499,655,116,800 - which, for those of you whom don’t want to look at such a big number, is a burning half trillion potential ships.

Not enough to scratch your total. Let’s just try not to succumb to futility, here: predictably, I’m going to go deeper.

Time for lots of math.

(840^5)+(840^5)+(840^7)+(840^4)+(840^4)+(840^4)+(840^3)+(840^3)+(840^7)+(840^5)+(840^4)+(840^3)+(840^5)+(840^4)+((9*10)+(5^2))+(840^4)+(840^4)+840+(7*840)+(840^2)+840+(840^2)+(840^2)+(840^2)+(840^2)+(840^8)+(840^4)+(840^4)+(840^2)+(840^3)+(840^2)+(840^2)+(840^2)+(840^2)+(840^2)+(840^4)+(840^2)+(840^5)+(840^2)+(840^3)+(840^2)+(840^2)+(840^3)+(840^2)+(840^2)+(840^2)+(840^3)+(840^2)+(840^2)+(840^2)+(840^2)+(840^2)+(840^2)+840+(840^2)+(840^2)+840+(840^2)+840+(840^2)+840+(840^2)+(840^2)

Flagism (i.e. inside-your-caste only) required me getting a list of every canon troll. Yes, Meirfa and Nektan as well as their potential ancestors/decendants (one or the other) are counted. In cases in which it asks for a “group”, or uses “many”, I used 4 and 8 respectively, in reference to the kids. This is because things like Laytherithm, which could repeat infinitely, would probably essentially be cheating this list.

There are now at least 6766 documented individual named Cybertronian Characters (I’m way too lazy to go back to the TF Wiki a third time to verify it, but there’s probably more. They pop up like daisies). As of my writings at this time we have Full Spark Bonds (2 Individuals), Partial Spark Bonds (2 Individuals), Trine Bonds (3 Individuals), Full Multiple Spark Bonds (3 to 5 Individuals), Partial Multiple Spark Bonds (3 to 5 Individuals, and the Official Conjunx Endura (which appears to be your basic marriage synonym, assumed 2 individuals).

So Full and Partial Spark Bonds plus Conjunx Endura = 3(6766^2)

Add In Trine Bonds  = (6766^3)

And all variations of the the Multiples. I only did one variation of each before because honestly, five seemed a bit unfair.  = 2(6766^3) + 2(6766^4) + 2(6766^5)

3(6766^2) + (6766^3) + 2(6766^3) + 2(6766^4) + 2(6766^5) = 

137,336,268 + 309,739,063,096 + 619,478,126,192 + 4,191,389,001,815,072 + 28,358,937,986,280,780,000 = 28,363,130,304,637,120,628

Over 28 Quintillion in Cybertronian Only Relationships. If I really wanted to be unfair, then I would throw in Gestalt Bonds, which can range from 2 to 6 individuals. Occasionally there are more than six, but that’s such a statistical rarity that I’m excluding.

But hey, since I’m here = (6766^2)+(6766^3)+(6766^4)+(6766^5)+(6766^6)

That is…

45,778,756 + 309,739,063,096 + 2,095,694,500,907,536 + 14,179,468,993,140,390,000 + 9,593,828,720,758,787,000,000 = 9,608,010,285,756,213,139,388

…or 9.6 Sextillion in Gestalt Bonds alone.

This brings the total to 9,636,373,416,060,850,260,016 and does not include Symbionts (who can have symbiotic bonds with eighteen or possibly more cassettes), Splitsparks (one spark split into two individuals), Triple Changers (one spark, multiple forms and multiple personalities, or Multi-Changers (one spark, more than 3 forms and possibly more than 3 personalities).

This is one Universal Stream.

There are 54 Quadrillion Universal Streams.

I had to use google’s calculator because mine wouldn’t cooperate but that gives us this number here = 520,364,160,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000

Wikipedia tells me that this number is approximately 520 Tredecillion. Not as nice sounding as Quintillion or Sextillion, I’ll admit. But it’s further down the list and therefore larger, so I will put up with how dumb it sounds.

We only reach 1.03 Tredecillion if we add in Triple Changers. It’d be more if we applied every single bonding type to each personality, but I’m pretty sure that may cause some spark strain in the long run and be somewhat physically unhealthy.

I’m also not going to even attempt to calculate the possibilities of Triple Changers in conjunction with Gestalt Bonds because let’s face it, that would be a very ridiculous number, accompanied with the even more ridiculous imagery of Astrotrain and Blitzwing in an orgy with the Stunticons.

If there isn’t a fic of that already, there will be within the next five days.

As for Symbionts and Multi-Changers, there is not enough caffeine in the universe to challenge the headache that will bring me. I also forgot about Binary Bonding and again, that’d probably bring me more headache than can actually be cured. Still left out Humans and Non-Cybertronian Aliens.

Peter Parker idolising Iron Man before Civil War (Manip AU)

From watching Tony’s first press conference with awe to worrying about his idol during the Battle of New York, Peter has always loved Iron Man.

Commander Sinead Shepard : Colonist | Vanguard | Spectre

“Stars are not small or gentle. They are writhing and dying and burning. They are not here to be pretty. I am trying to learn from them.” — Caitlyn Siehl, “Sky Poem”

After reading chapter 200

You see Lavi like this

And realize he’s still nowhere to be seen in chapter 203

Then you read chapter 207 and notice Lavi’s silhouette

But nothing after

Two years after, you start wondering if he’s still alive

Think about calling the police

Then it’s mentioned that Bookman doesn’t have a successor anymore

And after 6 years and 19 chapters… Still not a single clue

some dadzawas from the past month