A Compilation of Miscellaneous Thoughts.

Down the Rabbit Hole We Go

We talked over coffee once, wait… no we didn’t, but we were supposed to.

As I sat there nursing a bitter brown cup of joe, fulfilled yet empty, accompanied by you through text but at the same time all alone, that vacant space you left across the table became my battle ground.

I’m the girl who talks to you in the living room while your girlfriend gets ready for your date

I’m the girl you date in between the one #1 and the one #2

I’m the girl who wears make up every other day drinks black coffee and forgets her lunch at home

I hang out with the guys I hang out with the girls Sometimes it’s just me

I listen to sad songs, tell terrible jokes, and make you smile.

You don’t worry when it comes to me.

I always say hello when you arrive I seldom say goodbye when I leave I’ll see you tomorrow anyways

Sometimes I’ll get upset and cry when you’re not looking but I’ll reasonably, honestly, go back to our ordinary days where you’re okay and I’m okay

No, I’m not the girl you think of when you think of the word “love”

But I see love and I feel love so I write every day making it real

You stood in the street in front of my house

‘What are you doing here?’ I asked Only, you weren’t looking at me In my driveway, was her. Then I woke up.

The next day she told me you two were dating now.

The dreams always came as a surprise. I guess you had been standing in the dark corners of my mind ever since we broke up and now, she would come too.

Another night, she hid in my home, crying to me as I held her ’I know, I know’ You would call, she would tell me she wasn’t here.

A month later, you came to me shaking for advice how to not hurt her. She would call, you would say you weren’t here.  

In the world where my eyes are open, I would call her. She would tell me everything is fine.

Then one night, you trapped me in a closet. And even though I tried to go, you grabbed my hand, and asked me to wait, for just a moment.

That was the last time I dreamed of the two of you. For the best I suppose.