𝚂𝙴𝙽𝙳 💬 𝙵𝙾𝚁 𝙼𝙴 𝚃𝙾 𝙼𝙰𝙺𝙴 𝚈𝙾𝚄 𝙰 𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚁𝚃𝙴𝚁 𝙱𝙰𝚂𝙴𝙳 𝙾𝙽 𝚁𝙿 𝙿𝚁𝙾𝙼𝙿𝚃𝚂. / 𝙸𝙽𝙱𝙾𝚇 𝙿𝚁𝙾𝙼𝙿𝚃𝚂.
@serpentynes / baltasar fuentes.
𝚁𝙴𝚂𝙾𝙻𝚅𝙴 𝙱𝙾𝚁𝙽 𝙵𝚁𝙾𝙼 𝙰𝙽 𝙾𝙿𝙴𝙽 𝚆𝙾𝚄𝙽𝙳; agony has claimed his heart and festered in the days since he was abruptly discarded as ‘nothing’ by the one he had thought to find a home in. Yet drowning in DESPAIR has been the easy part, heartbreak a great swell of water ready to swallow him whole - it is the doubts, the confusion, the ‘why’s that have picked at his mind over and over, like vultures feasting on carrion, that have been the strongest source of TORMENT. The more he fixates on it - over and over and over again - the less sense it makes; how love given and returned could crumble to dust, be dismissed so callously and swiftly after souls had been laid bare. The latest in a string of sleepless nights has seen a bitter resolve take hold of him, guiding limbs and thoughts alike in his journey back to the place where heart had been broken. There’s a pallor to skin and dark circles under weary eyes that allude to the exhaustion he feels, but jaw is set and rigid in DETERMINATION as the doors to Bal’s study are thrown open from a mere flick of his wrist, irises flaring a resentful red in the process.
“ You’re full of shit. ” His sudden arrival is punctuated with blunt sentiment, a wealth of hurt and confusion simmering so close to the surface and ready to erupt. A SHARP ACHE in the chest rises when gaze finds the face he adores so wholly, causes throat to constrict and words to become brittle and tight - but still he persists. “ The things you said… that this was just sex, that I’m… I’m NOTHING to you… They’re lies. They have to be. I don’t know why you’ve done this, but I don’t believe you. ” It takes no time at all for him to march round the other’s desk, finger jabbing into chest with demanding bitterness before grip then curls imploringly upon the lapel of expensive suit, as if ANCHORING himself to Bal might be enough to undo the chasm forged between them ( and beneath all this indignation is a desperation to understand where something so perfect could have gone so wrong. ) “ What are you keeping from me ? Spill. ”
in a matter of days the player embodies the pawn. ravana’s taste of victory has driven them to hunger for more, quickly becoming ravenous for it. restfulness is a distant memory now. the short bliss felt within lover’s arms is what powers him forward, even as exhaustion plagues being. elbows rest upon the desk before him. fingers gripping onto pages from a grimoire, which give instructions and ingredients for a spell on how to take a greater demon’s power to make it your own. the success rate of such a spell was low for obvious reasons. it was exceedingly dangerous and in order to perform it there needed to be a big sacrifice. even he, who takes any opportunity to gain and expand his own power, had not considered taking such a drastic step. it is what made ravana so much more terrifying. they had nothing to lose.
door makes a loud bang as it connects to the wall, causing his form to jump. normally, he was carefully composed, even when caught off guard. reactions were always minimal so that they could not be used against him. after limited hours of sleep for so long, it was growing hard to keep everything so in check. a growl begins to form in the hollow of throat. he plans to tell off the demons that are meant to be standing watch, but it dies the second that felix’s face comes into view.
spell is hidden, subtly shoved underneath frivolous paperwork for the garden. chest restricts upon hearing and seeing the other, felix’s voice like a drug that he’s been depriving himself of for far too long. his achilles heel returned. as much as he wants to bar the other from leaving again, fear becomes ice in his veins. if ravana knew ... expression becomes bored, emotionless despite heart going into a frenzy beneath. touch does not help to quell relentless feelings, even if it is done in anger. like a snake, fingers coil and then strike, wrapping around the other’s wrist tightly, pulling felix’s hand away from his chest. “ you’re certainly bold. coming in here after i told you to leave and never come back. “ every fiber of being screams not to let go, but he does, rather heatedly by shoving the other’s arm. figure rises from the seat it had occupied. breath nearly catching as felix’s scent fills nostrils. oh, how he wanted to get drunk off of it.
“ whether you believe me or not is irrelevant. the truth still stands, you mean nothing to me. i can send it in a letter if you’d like. perhaps seeing it spelled out will help your fickle brain process the words. “ eyes roll as he moves past the other towards mini bar, indulging in a drink without offering the other any. felix wouldn’t be here long. he couldn’t be here if ravana returned. “ you’ve gotten paranoid in your old age. i’m not hiding anything from you. in fact, it’s pretty pathetic that you have to invent this whole story in your head. if your intentions today were to provide me with a good laugh, congratulations. “