smoke weed don't eat

I know it's been 84 years since I've been on this blog but I've honestly just been chilling on my NSFT blog @cenobitefurby, if y'all wanna follow me there. There's Some depraved shit but like the actual fucked up thoughts and feelings are probably gonna be staying here. I guess the reason I haven't been on here in a while is mostly cause 1) i've been super busy, and 2) i've actually been kind of happier? I'm still getting fucked by my ED but it's not quite as hard as usual. Like, I have partners now?? I don't remember if we talked about it here yet but they're amazing people so I've been really distracted from my ED cause like...... Uh... Having someone who's hot and also nonbinary calling me a good boy while rearranging my guts is going to make it difficult for me to think I'm inherently ugly and unlovable y'know??

I hit 172.4 lbs earlier on yesterday morning. Maybe I actually will be in the 160's in February

You wanna see me listen to that album? Wanna see me listen to it again?

I love a band that has lore Like not band drama between like other bands or something but like there's a story that goes with their music. Starset is just a full on music demonstration that's a space opera. Sleep Token's lore is that the band members met a deity in a dream that manifested as Vessel, their lead vocalist. I know under the mask Vessel is probably just some dude but I never want to know who the dude is cause this feels magical. Meanwhile you have bands like Lorna Shore that don't have a specific lore but each album has a story to tell and you can just sit there and think about it for hours and hours on end. I can really just sit here and talk about bands I like and just like tell the stories they give me. Or like come up with a story on the fly to an album. I wish I could just beam my daydreams out onto a projector while the music video my brain creates plays cause there's so much footage in here