selfies for my mental health

well, i havent really left, but im not involving myself in the community anymore. i havent for a few months.

when i first joined the bpd community on this site and made this blog, it was shortly after my then-fp left me with a letter saying she didnt wanna be friends anymore, and shortly after that i got my official bpd diagnosis.

i was lost, scared, and confused. i was alone. my fp left me and i had nowhere else to go.

so i joined the bpd community.

it was accepting beyond words. seriously. the community two years ago made me feel accepted and “normal” and it made me feel less alone in the things i was feeling. 

but now…

it just makes me feel gross. the mental illness community as a whole now is just… disgusting, honestly. anti-recovery. so so so much negativity and abusive behavior and pushing it on their mental illnesses.

it isnt okay. and i dont want to be a part of this anymore because ive come so far and associating with these sort of people will either make me relapse or make my recovery come to a stop.

you all know what im talking about but if you need clarification ill pull up some examples of shit ive seen on bpd tumblr as of late that have really unsettled me.

so yeah.

this blog will still be up as a source for good bpd resources (check my /tagged/ref) and if i need to rant about bpd specific things, but i no longer will be answering asks about bpd/giving advice and i no longer will be actively participating in the community.

though its been like that for about a year now.

once again i guess if you guys have any questions feel free to ask me in a dm or an ask or something. idk. 

if you wanna follow me on my main:

http://zensorbs.tumblr.com/

im active daily there.