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5 table spoons oats

Whole fat milk

1 tablespoon peanut butter, blend

Wanna be my little secret?

Very open minded, love to please. I’d enjoy exploring all those icky thoughts running through your head. Feel free to send me a message if you’re feeling needy, or just want to chat.

As far as my kinks go, they are quite broad - cheating kink, breeding, public play, overstimulation, CNC, somno, age gaps and age play, ddlg, toys, impact, so so many more.

I’ll leave this here while I post and reblog things that set my mind wandering.

I feel so fucked up.

Yes, I love my boyfriend. He's really a great person, he loves me, thinks about me, cares about me....

I'm so thankful for him because he's always there when I need someone.

Since yesterday I have a person in my mind. I feel so guilty about it because it's so fucked up.

I think about this older man that I talked to last summer. Specifically his affection.

No I'm not in love and no he wasn't in love with me but I feel like I'm missing his affection towards me. I miss that sedate affection. I was so fucking scared because the relationship between us was so wrong and the reason wasn't the age gap.

Although, that scary feeling is pulling me towards him. I want to talk to him, I want to witness his actions, I want to hear his desires for me. I want to know him even though that's wrong.

Again, I know it's not love, trust me i know it.

But I can't stop feeling like I'm betraying my bf! I promised him that I won't cheat on him. I want to have a future with him but right now the things that I'm doing is so fucking mad.

Patience and love.

It takes time to take the first scary step, and thats okay. As you go about your life, every day the desire to get therapy will grow. Deep down you’ll keep thinking about it, mulling over how beneficial it could be for you. Kind of like an itch in your head that can only be scratched with a certain tool. Little by little that desire can grow and get big enough that the fear seems tiny in comparison! This can take time, especially if you’ve only just started seriously contemplating reaching out.

This pairs well with the love. You must realize that getting therapy is an act of love. An act of self care. It’s telling current you that future you matters just as much and you are willing to do anything for them. So they have the potential for a happier tomorrow.

Realize that for some, therapy is scary because it’s an act of love, and perhaps you don’t think you deserve those. But you do. You deserve the comfort and healing of therapy. You deserve to be listened to. You deserve to be examined. You deserve therapy.

3 months of letting my food actually digest