I wanted to talk about this since some time ago, please listen, this is VERY IMPORTANT for the parappa fandom, i don't want anyone else to suffer such experience, i don't want them to suffer just like i did.
You may know this person, as Rayne, or Yoko, or Spencer, or Berri, also can be recognized as rayneboww or something like that, you see..
I met him in the Parappa modding server, we talked more and more, and it looked like we were good friends, until he started getting obsessive with me, being emotionally dependant on me, making me feel so much pressure, like his life was on my hands, he liked to make me drawings, compliment me and everything, yeah i guess that seems normal.. he also vented a LOT to me, like i couldn't even have a good time without having to take care of him, one of the things he told me did hit hard.. and it doesnt even have value later, but let me say it:
"You are the only thing keeping me alive"
Do you know how much pressure it is to get told something like that?? later it went worse and worse.. he asked to be his girlfriend, and.. since there was so much pressure, and i didn't want to make him 🔑s, so i had to say yes, and again.. i had to take care of him, i couldn't wake up late, because i had to text him, i had to wake up anxious, wondering if is he still alive, and okay, i couldn't even go outside without Rayne already saying "I miss you, don't go" or him already getting a mental breakdown, do you know how hard it is.. to instead of trying to stay alive, you have to take care of someone else in internet? His problems... basically they were too much for me to handle, that made me lose hunger (eat less), and have panic attacks, basically.. sufferment, looks like he had trust issues, because he always wondered if did i really... love him, or anything like that, and i always had to answer.. at some point it became worse, well.. i need to tell that he joined Clubfun, and also joined the group Clubcake, so he was with me and my friends, his problems were so much for me that i had to vent to other friends (tysm for listening to me, friends), because venting to Rayne basically was either.. basic support like "you're gonna be fine!! *that fuckass song*" and "No gubby don't blame yourself!!" Or him talking about his problems again, and i had to comfort him.. when i was the one looking for comfort.
One day, Rayne started posting in his stories, texts related to suicide, and.. basically dark things, making me think he was gonna uuhh.. commit, i texted him quickly and quickly, and only... "Seen", that made me get even more scared, i was shaking and panicking, i had to text my other friend so he could ask Rayne about what happened and if he was ok, nothing either, eventually, Rayne answered, and he calmly said that he was fine, and that "i shouldn't worry!!! ^_^" just.. useless things, i got so mad at him, because of all the fear i felt, just to him to almost not care, i left him on seen and blah blah, later i was in vc with clubcake, having fun, and later i see Rayne leaving clubfun, and blocking everyone, also he was supposedly gonna abandon social media, i was so scared.. but at the same time i felt some kind of Freedom, i was finally free.. or thats what at least i though of, because later, he texted me again, saying shi like im sorry, and more, basically this
After that, i had the chance of breaking up with him, and i did, we supposedly stayed as friends, but the next day... he already got another girlfriend, instead of having time for himself, he couldn't be alone, and got someone INSTANTLY, i woke up in the morning, and instantly he had another initial in his description, basically replacing that missing girlfriend that broke up with him for obvious reasons, for someone else, remember when i said that he complimented me and said lots of shit like "you are the most important person for me", well.. by just seeing how i got replaced so easily, these words were BULLSHIT, and guess what he answered!! "You are the one who broke up with me btw", and you know?? there was a reason for that!! why would i break up for nothing?? he indeed hurted me, but that is not even the whole story.
Later, Rayne started to get obsessed with my other friend, by matching pfps, buying him a profile decoration, always desperately looking for him, depending on him basically, my friend couldn't even go to his bass lessons without Rayne disliking that, Rayne always wanted to talk to him for some reason, until i talked about my concern about that with Fritas, and i agreed with her to tell my friend about it, i talked to my friend, and basically.. i saved him, i opened his eyes, and made him realize that Rayne was doing the same to him than what he did to me, so my friend started to panic because of Rayne too, had panic attacks, and eventually talked to Rayne about the obsession, and guess what Rayne tried to do.. he tried to escape the conversation, but he couldn't, my friend kept talking about it with him, and Rayne promised to "stop acting like that", later since everything was awkward.. we started to ignore Rayne, because we were not comfortable with him, until he felt like everyone "hated him", said some words and left, tbh we all celebrated, but some days later, we saw someone join the server, ujlfan33 (he faked a screenshot that rayne supposedly sent him de4th thr3ats, said slurs, etc) and for some reason.. ujlfan33 and rayne were friends?? so this person joined to ask about everythin etc, later we saw words from Rayne, basically... bullshit, even i think ujlfan33 was concerned about what Rayne did, and... ujlfan33 got banned from the server.
Let me tell a detail, we had as a JOKE, the server name being "Anti kamirappa server", but we did NOT do anything to kamirappa, we only had normal day-by-day conversations.
Guess what rayne did since he left!!! Told kamirappa about the server being "a server against him", and dmed him, im not sure about what did they talk about, but eventually i had to stop whatever Rayne wanted to happen to us, and talked to Kamirappa, i told him that the server was a joke, and showed lots of proof about how obsessive was Rayne, he kicked him out of clubfun, and got MAD, he changed his main acc to a different one (that i already know about, because it used to be his alt and that he joined it to the server) and changed his profile to a drawing of my friend, with the text "FUCK KAMIRAPPA", + as a nick "Your favorite."
After that.. we thought we were fully free from him, but look.. he spreaded rumors about Clubcake, supposedly yapping to the server Milkcan Studios that we "harassed and bullied him", when we NEVER did that, we were always comforting him and shit like that, so i talked to the owner of Milkcan studios, and cleared things out, looks like the server didn't want to "take a side", so he could only i guess talk to rayne, or i don't know.. im not in that server anymore, i also saw that Rayne was stalking Zero, rayne at some point said that he was "Going to change and become a better person", but.. i dont think he is doing that.
Block him, if you see things like the name Rayne or rayneboww, block him, DO NOT GET NEAR HIM, he might hurt you, please spread awareness parappa fandom, please...
Note: it hurted a lot to see these screenshots, making me remember how he was, and how fooled i was with him, and we are planning something else.
