the binch who stole christmas

Please please please please!! Let 2018 be the year that we learn

• How to express negativity and vent without letting it consume you

• That if once in awhile, if you accidentally relapse and let negativity consume you then it’ll be okay, it happens to the best of us, you don’t have to beat yourself up about it.

• Emotions are okay to have. Jealousy, anger, guilt, shame, betrayal. It’s okay to feel those whether or not they make sense to the situation. No, jealousy doesn’t make you inherently abusive. If you don’t use these emotions to hurt others or yourself, it’s fine and healthy. There’s no wrong way to feel.

• It’s also okay to feel good emotions! You know, I felt happy for the entire day on Christmas? That doesn’t take away from the fact that I only feel happiness for split seconds before going back to numbness every other day. It doesn’t take away that I’m depressed. If you feel peaceful, relaxed, pleasant then don’t worry it doesn’t mean you’re faking. Your illness is still valid, your experience is still valid. Enjoy the times you feel nice! It’s okay!

Let’s not let 2018 turn into the year where everyone has the mentality that recovery happens when you pretend to be happy when you’re not. Let’s not let 2018 turn into the year where the mentality is “everyone can recover and if they say they can’t then they just aren’t trying, everyone needs to have the same path as me!”.