Lesbian-life

So what happens next...

😍😍 @cassiewrites86 @themtwoandmemakes3

So, we had a situation of not being able to stay in the house we were in because of there being 3 of us. Which was annoying but we all saw it as an opportunity of a fresh start and a new beginning. A house that we had all picked together. Our little home. And it couldn't of gone more perfect. It was hard work moving but we did it and we're moved into our new place. And I've been sat at my desk this morning just being happy and thinking of how lucky I am to have both of my beautiful amazing girlfriends. I'm so happy right now. We have been through a tough beginning with ups and downs. But here's to our happy ending. I love you both more than you will ever realise. @themtwoandmemakes3 @cassiewrites86 💜💙💗

So today I went to see my mum for the first time after I told her about the triad relationship. Just so people know my mum is happy aslong as I am happy. I said from the start that I don't expect my family to understand the relationship. Just aslong as they know I'm happy and and this is what is going on in my life. Well I went to my mums and there was the 21 questions going on. Which is fine. But I knew she wasn't going to get it no matter how much I tried to explain it. I am I love with 2 people. I asked her if she has ever been in love with 2 people and she said yes. And I replied with well you had to choose right? She nodded. Well I didn't choose one person. I decided to be with them both. Why do you have to choose if everyone involved is happy? And she hit the nail on the head "because that's what is expected" exactly. That is what is expected you have to choose to be with one person. You have to choose to be with the opposite sex you have to do what everyone else is doing. After the conversation she still didn't understand. But she's been living the way that is expected for longer than me so I suppose it is harder to understand. It got heated. There were some raised voices. And I was ready to cry and leave. But I didn't I stayed and we continued to talk. So once again, I'll tell people I don't expect people to understand. How can you if you have never been there. How can you if you have never felt the joys of love and support from more than one person. I just want everyone to know I'm happy and I've made my decision. Just know that I'm me and I will always be me. The person you know and love. I just have lots of love to give and I have two amazing people to give it to. I love my family and my girls very much and I'm happy and content why would I change that because that's what other people say you have to do? Nope not me sorry world 😘

Feelings, you spend the whole of your life learning what's wrong and right. You follow those rules and the get older and keep following the rules. Now I'm in a poly triad. And I'm trying my best to de-program my brain into feeling guilty for not following those rules that were taught to me from a young age. I broke the rules once by becoming a lesbian 10 years later thats all natural to me and I'm fine with it. I love both of my girls very much. But I feel guilt not because it's not okay what we're doing (when a third of us isn't around) because I know on all sides that everything were doing is fine. The same if I wasnt there what they get upto is all okay. But there is something deep inside of me feeling like someone is missing out. Is there anyone else that gets this? Is there anything that can help? I have done the usual talks and communication thing and they work for a time and then it starts all over again. Any advise or just knowing I'm not the only one would help. Thank you 😘

Me and Bean were leaving her house this morning after spending the weekend and I turned the car on and westlife - how am I supposed to leave you now came on at these exact lyrics and we just cried! It was horrible and heartbreaking! Can't wait until she moves in and we don't have to feel this again!!!

I'm in a triad (I have 2 girlfriends) god damn there has been some times we have had to have long conversations and communicate as much as humanly possible. But as soon as the conversation is done and we have worked through it together. Everything just goes like we had that conversation way in the past. Things have happened quick but mainly because it's all so natural. I'm a bit of a control freak. Once and ex started leaving stuff at my house and I shit myself and ended it. But right now I'm practically packing up one third of my wonderful amazing triad and moving her in (I already live with the other wonderful third) and as I'm unpacking her stuff and moving things around. Everything just fits. You know sometimes when you have a new partner move in and your like ermmm... Don't think your putting that anywhere in my house?? We there's non of that. While I'm sitting in her room helping pack her stuff I'm thinking in my head oooo... I know where that would look nice or that matches this and this would look great here. And this is all very strange to me. A good kind of strange of course, but strange. All we need now is her to be with us permanently and everything will fall lovely into place. <3