Unbearable

Why does it matter?

Am I a wimp? Or a loser?

It wasn’t that bad.

Other people probably had it worse.

I don’t want to make others uncomfortable.

What does it matter now? It can’t happen again, I’m not a child.

Am I stupid? Shut up, it doesn’t matter.

Others might blame me, boys like it anyway.

Push it out of my mind.

Push it out of my mind.

Push it out of my mind.

Stop crying.

Stop. Stop. Stop

STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP

STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP

I’m 28 now, and just now accepting that I was a victim of child predators, grooming, sexual misconduct, and CAM from the age of 10 on..

I didn’t every tell anyone, cause I didn’t wanna get in trouble. And no one ever stopped it, cause no one ever knew. I didn’t understand how much I was getting hurt.