MELKORCULT

[Rewatches LOTR to remind myself there is some good worth fighting for].

these days it’s a flex to be able to say that you enjoy reading long-form fiction, and that’s honestly terrifying. i meet infinitely more people who claim they can’t read works longer than 10k than i meet people who say they can and do. this post is not about the time commitment but about the attention span, the ability to stay with something for a while and not lose the thread and not lose your focus so much you have to give up or stop deriving enjoyment or meaning from it. listen, I have unmedicated ADHD too, I have way too high a screen time, i get it. but the human experience, and the stories we tell, cannot all be kept short and easily digestible. so many threads that you spin will only start taking shape over time, over the course of a hundred thousand words, the course of several books. we need to stop accepting this new limitation and fight it instead. there’s so much to lose and so much to miss out on, and i worry about our future.

thinking something about annatar as a creation of sauron’s, crafted and tested and prototyped like any other work. cyborg annatar, if you will—a piece pulled from here, a piece from there; smile and arms not his own, eyes from an earlier model. his body is perfect and not quite right because being annatar is not quite right. he is every dead dissected thrall and in angband there are neatly numbered files of notes and sketches for his hair, his teeth, how he would walk, the exact cadence of his voice. a thousand calculations and years of blood went into the curve of his cheek; even his imperfections are precise, minute, terrible: at once the machine and the ghost living in it.

[louder than everyone] MAN I THINK IT DEPENDS!

everyone talks about how strong and great Aragorn was for refusing the ring when Frodo offered it to him as if this man has not spent his entire life dodging leadership and responsibilities like bullets in the matrix 🙄

yeah sorry for giving you those weird new kinks. do you want me to make it worse

I know for a fact other dimensions and realities exist because that’s where some of you people are watching tv

sorry for acting gross perverted obsessed & deranged. it’s cause i am gross perverted obsessed & deranged

i’ll be real, kitten, daddy needs multiple wealthy and powerful folks to die in a painful, drawn-out, and generationally humiliating manner

guy whos incompatible with life itself