𝑮𝑶 𝑭𝑬𝑹𝑨𝑳

                               𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐢 𝐚𝐛𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐝; 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐢 𝐝𝐞𝐯𝐨𝐮𝐫                                𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐠𝐮𝐢𝐥𝐭;          𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐜𝐡 𝐢𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐬𝐨 𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐫𝐭

                                                   ind. selective sandor clegane

HONEYMOON.

we both know that it's not fashionable to love me.

say you want me too.

truly there's nobody for you but me.

our honeymoon...

we make the rules.

we both know the history of violence that surrounds you.

i'm not scared.

there's nothing to lose now that i've found you.

there are violets in your eyes.

fire surrounds you.

there are roses in-between my thighs.

everything you do is elusive.

you're dreaming away your life.

MUSIC TO WATCH BOYS TO.

i do what you want.

i like you a lot.

i see you're going.

i was sent to destroy.

it never felt that right to me.

i love to love you.

lies can buy eternity.

i live to love you.

nothing gold can stay — like love or lemonade.

it's all a game to me anyway.

TERRENCE LOVES YOU.

you are what you are.

i lost myself when i lost you.

i don't matter to anyone.

i won't change you for anything.

i'll never dare change you to what you are not.

i'll let you be bad.

can you hear me?

GOD KNOWS I TRIED.

let there be light.

god knows i tried.

i've got nothing much to live for ever since i found my fame.

god knows i begged, borrowed, & cried.

light up my life.

i feel free when i see no one & nobody knows my name.

god knows i lost.

HIGH BY THE BEACH.

i know you know how i feel.

loving you is hard, being here is harder.

it's so surreal.

i don't want to do this anymore.

i can't survive if this is all that's real.

all i wanna do is get high by the beach.

the truth is: i never bought into your bullshit.

i know you don't understand.

now you're just another one of my problems.

we won't survive.

i'll do it on my own.

i don't need your money to get me what i want.

everyone can start again — not through love, but through revenge.

through the fire, we're born again.

peace by vengeance brings the end.

FREAK.

that's the way i feel for you.

if time stood still, i'd take this moment & make it last forever.

your halo's full of fire.

i'm rising up.

if you wanna leave, come to california.

be a freak like me too.

screw your anonymity.

loving me is all you need.

we could slow dance to rock music, kiss while we do it...

life makes sense when i'm with you.

you're cold as ice.

you're so amazing in every way.

i don't wanna fight.

if you stay, i'll stay.

ART DECO.

you're not mean.

you're just born to be seen.

you just can't win.

you're looking to score.

you want more.

got things that have yet to be seen.

a little party never hurt no one.

we were born to be free.

RELIGION.

everything is fine now.

for you, there's only love.

let sleeping dogs lay.

leave it all behind.

let the ocean wash away.

everything's bright now.

i need your love.

when i'm down on my knees, you're how i pray.

you're my religion.

i can't envision that for a minute.

no need to survive now.

SALVATORE.

everything looks better from above.

ciao, amore.

i adore you.

all the lights are sparkling for you, it seems.

i've been waiting for you all this time.

can't you see you're meant for me?

i've been cold without you.

catch me if you can.

salvatore can wait.

now it's time to eat soft ice cream.

THE BLACKEST DAY.

carry me home.

i have heavy heartstrings.

i don't really wanna break up.

it's not easy for me to talk about.

it's hard to express; i can't explain.

it's been the blackest day.

don't wanna talk about the things to come.

all i hear is billie holiday. it's all i play.

i'm looking for love in all the wrong places.

there's nothing for us to talk about.

now that he's gone, i can't feel nothing.

you should've known better.

i got you where i want you.

it's not one of those phases i’m going through.

i'm on my own again.

24.

there's only twenty-four hours in a day, & half as many ways for you to lie to me.

my little love.

be careful of the company you keep.

there's only 24 hours & that's not enough to lie like you lie or love like you love.

my lying love.

be careful of the ones you choose to leave.

you're hard to touch.

give me your heat.

you're hard to reach.

give me your diamonds.

you count to three while they're all dying.

SWAN SONG.

i will never sing again.

it'll be our swan song.

you won't work another day.

put your white tennis shoes on & follow me.

nothing could stop the two of us.

i'm gonna follow you.

why work so hard when you could just be free?

my sweet.

you've been gone so long, you missed everything.

let's just get lost.

dive in, dive deep.

do you like where you've been? where you're going to?

say goodnight to the life in the world we live.

DON'T LET ME BE MISUNDERSTOOD.

you understand me now.

don't you know no one alive can always be an angel?

if i seem edgy, i want you to know: i never mean to take it out on you.

i'm just a soul whose intentions are good.

you know sometimes, i'm just so carefree.

it seems that all i have is worry.

please, don't let me be misunderstood.

life has its problems.

'cause i love you.

i'm just human — don't you know i have faults like anyone?

sometimes i find myself alone regretting some little foolish thing, some simple thing that i've done.

(  dialogue  prompts  taken  from  nosferatu  (2024),  directed  by  robert  eggers.  feel  free  to  edit  and  change  as  you  seem  fit.  ) 

❛ come to me. ❜

❛ a guardian angel. a spirit of comfort. spirit of any celestial sphere. anything. hear my call. ❜

❛ you wakened me from an eternity of darkness. ❜

❛ you are not for the living. you are not for human kind. ❜

❛ and shall you be one with me ever-eternally? ❜

❛ come here. there’s nothing to be afraid of. ❜

❛ i wish i could stay, my love. ❜

❛ why have you killed these beautiful flowers? ❜

❛ i must tell you my dream. ❜

❛ i’d never been so happy as that moment… as i held hands with death. ❜

❛ i wish you to have all you deserve. ❜

❛ you mustn’t leave. i love you too much. ❜

❛ i will stay with you until you are fast asleep. ❜

❛ uh, forgive me. i only wish to stay one night. ❜

❛ by god’s name, never speak of that castle. ❜

❛ i banish you, i banish you with garlic. ❜

❛ beware of his shadow. ❜

❛ the shadow covers you in a nightmare. ❜

❛ you are late. the midnight hour has passed. ❜

❛ i wish you to do as i request. ❜

❛ i will be addressed as the honor of my blood demands it.❜

❛ speak not of it again! ❜

❛ take heed what you do. ❜

❛ i might ease your wound. ❜

❛ come by the fire. ❜

❛ your face shows you unwell. ❜

❛ do you ever feel at times as if you were not… as if you were not a person? ❜

❛ look at the sky. look at the sea. does it never call to you, urge you? ❜

❛ you are fortunate in your love. ❜

❛ now are we neighbors. ❜

❛ it is late. you must wish to retire. ❜

❛ i have been enduring the most irregular dreams. i fear i am taken ill. ❜

❛ it is a black omen to journey in poor health. you will remain and well rest yourself. ❜

❛ dream of me. only me. ❜

❛ oh, he’s coming to me. ❜

❛ i cannot resist you, my love. ❜

❛ i am no one. i am his servant. ❜

❛ look, this is a pretty one. his lordship likes the pretty ones… ❜

❛ you are lost in his shadow. ❜

❛ soon i will no longer be a shadow to you. ❜

❛ soon our flesh shall embrace and we shall be as one. ❜

❛ i have not failed your lordship! ❜

❛ embrace me, my boy. i am so rejoiced to see you. ❜

❛ my dear creature, yes, i am he, and i am hither come to help you. ❜

❛ my dreams grow darker. ❜

❛ does evil come from within us or from beyond? ❜

❛ i shall persist to join you every night… first in sleep, then in your arms. ❜

❛ everything will be mixed with abomination, and you’ll be knee-deep in blood. ❜

❛ you are promised to me! ❜

❛ i will end this plague. this devil. ❜

❛ he hasn’t found you. ❜

❛ i feared i’d never see you again. ❜

❛ you shall crave of me nothing. ❜

❛ the bells of dawn shall toll in despair of my coming. and i shall taste of you. ❜

❛ pray, forgive me for all the troubles i have caused you. ❜

❛ i am only glad you have become yourself again. ❜

❛ may i… stay with you tonight? ❜

❛ this creature is a force more powerful than evil. it is death itself. ❜

❛ i have seen things in this world that would’ve made isaac newton crawl back into his mother’s womb. ❜

❛ i have wrestled with the devil as jacob wrestled the angel in peniel. ❜

❛ if we are to tame darkness, we must first face that it exists. ❜

❛ i have felt you crawling like a serpent in my body. ❜

❛ love is inferior to you. ❜

❛ i told you, you are not of humankind. ❜

❛ i am an appetite. nothing more. ❜

❛ i lay within the darkest pit. till you did wake me, enchantress, and stirred me from my grave. ❜

❛ you are my affliction. ❜

❛ i care nothing of your afflictions. ❜

❛ yet even now we are fated. ❜

❛ your passion is bound to me. ❜

❛ you cannot love. ❜

❛ yet i cannot be sated without you. ❜

❛ remember how once we were? ❜

❛ i abhor you. ❜

❛ i will leave you three nights. tonight was the first. ❜

❛ tonight you denied yourself, and thereby, you suffer me to vanish up the lives of those you love. ❜

❛ you revel in my torture. ❜

❛ upon the third night, you will submit, or he you call your husband shall perish by my hand. ❜

❛ till you bid me come shall you watch the world become as naught. ❜

❛ tell me, what is this insufferable darkness? ❜

❛ nothing you can say will shake me, for there is a devil in this world, and i have met him. ❜

❛ i’ve brought this evil upon us. ❜

❛ i sought company. i sought… tenderness, and i called out. ❜

❛ at first, it was sweet. i had never known such bliss. yet it turned to torture. ❜

❛ it was you that gave me the courage to be free of my shame. ❜

❛ he took me as his lover then, and now he has come back. ❜

❛ all my sleeping thoughts are of him every night. ❜

❛ don’t touch me! i am not to be touched. ❜

❛ i’ll be good. i promise. ❜

❛ you could never please me as he could. ❜

❛ yes! take me! ❜

❛ kiss me. kiss my heart. ❜

❛ let him see. let him see our love. ❜

❛ without you, i will become a demon. ❜

❛ you’re safe with me. ❜

❛ keep away from me. i am unclean. ❜

❛ he will murder you if i do not go to him. ❜

❛ kill him i will. he shall never harm you again. ❜

❛ i can weep no longer, for i have no more tears to shed. ❜

❛ the grim reaper wields his heavy scythe with every change of wind. ❜

❛ the monster left you to the wolves, yet you prevailed. ❜

❛ his pull to me is so powerful, so terrible, yet my spirit cannot be evil as his. ❜

❛ we must know evil to be able to destroy it. ❜

❛ you are our salvation. ❜

❛ i bid you, come to me. ❜

     She had been stepping out for a moment for cooler air and a moment for someone not to be clamoring for her attention when they nearly collided. He was the last person she had expected to run into. She had seen him always around the edges of the crowd, or caught a glimpse of him retreating further into the shadows. Yet surprising as it was, she found herself not at all minding. It was almost a refreshing change of pace, considering she had been caught in this very spot before by some far more unpleasant and unwanted.

     Any other man wouldn’t have hesitated at the chance, yet there is conflict within him, she reads it clearly as he looks from her to the spot of winter greenery that hangs above them, then back to her. She is just about to speak, offer him an out should he wish it, not expecting him to hold traditions that were not his to begin with. Though he acts and so the words die on her lips.

     The warmth of his hand is felt more than the touch itself, his touch more cautious than certain. The kiss is a bit stiffer than others she has received, yet simple and didn’t dance along the line of too much. It was nice, is what she would say should anyone ask her about it later.

𝐇𝐈𝐒 𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐔𝐋𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐈𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 has , along with lowering his inhibitions , caused him to expect the worst. or perhaps it is just his own nature? or perhaps her lips were so soft under his own that he is willing to go along with however the wind blows.

❝ wouldn't mind the distraction. ❞ voice is gruff , tone uncaring. practiced , almost. the offer intrigues him — curiosity drives him to accept where he usually would not. he offers his arm , fighting tooth and nail against the urge to roll his eyes as he does so. never the gentleman , never the saint.

feet stop as they near the gardens. sense of self reclaiming him — or perhaps the brisk evening air is fixing him all on its own. ❝ if you're doing me the kindness of berating me in private , save your breath. ❞ a line of defense , maybe. falling back on old habits , maybe. every road leads back to the same beginnings. he cannot grow , so easily , out of solid stone. still unsure of her. unable to read her face and the tone of her voice. a slight frown forms on his lips.