Lone Wolf

It's freedom.

Freedom to be seen, to have your struggles listened to, not just heard. People will treat you delicately, love you more, treat every moment they have with you like precious gold. The feeling of being lightweight, like you are no longer a burden. All the problems you have, the heavy weight of life becomes feather-like, and suddenly, nothing can touch you.

Nothing would dare touch you, after all, they don't want to accidentally break this fragile being.

They'll nurture you, worry over you, and love you unconditionally, because they know if they don't, it's game over.

What I Lost by Alexandra Ballard

The Art of Starving by Sam J. Miller

Wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson

Quiet in the Corner by Walt Gleeson

Elena Vanishing by Elena Dunkle

Paperweight by Meg Haston

How To Disappear Completely By Kelsey Osgood

Tiny Pretty Things by Sona Charaipotra

MASSIVE by JULIA BELL

I’ve seen a lot of posts on my dash tonight about users who are threatening suicide, with other Tumblr members posting in effort to try to get ahold of them. I think you all should see this:

IF THERE IS EVER A TUMBLR USER WHO HAS POSTED A GOOD-BYE MESSAGE, SUICIDE NOTE, VIDEO, OR ANYTHING OF THE SORT, PLEASE FOLLOW THIS POST.

1. Scroll to the top of your dashboard.

2. See the circular question mark icon at the top? It’s the third one over from your home symbol. Click on that, and a screen similar to the one in the picture will come up.

3. Where you can type in questions, the box with the magnifying glass at the top, type in the word “suicide.”

4. Click on the first link that shows up. It should say, “Pass the URL of the blog on to us.”

5. Type in the user’s URL and tell Tumblr admin that the user is contemplating suicide and has posted a message indicating that they are going through with it or will be attempting. Hit send! Tumblr administration will perform a number of actions to contact the user and take the necessary steps to prevent the suicide.

TUMBLR: THIS COULD SAVE A USER’S LIFE. PLEASE DO NOT IGNORE SUICIDE THREATS.

Reblog this to keep other users aware. Suicide isn’t a joke, and neither is someone’s life. If you didn’t know this, someone else may not, either. Pass it on.

To look back at when I'm thinking of quitting

Because I need this

5/29/23

Tomorrow I’m going to see if I can find my old scale at my parents house. I haven’t checked my weight in months bc I haven’t had access to my scale. I know that my weight is going to be in the 200’s range, but gods help me if it somehow got above 250. If I actually let myself get that fat, I don’t even know what I’m going to do.

I haven’t checked my weight in months, and I’m gonna check tomorrow, and I’m freaking terrified of what it’s going to say.

5/29/23

Tomorrow I’m going to see if I can find my old scale at my parents house. I haven’t checked my weight in months bc I haven’t had access to my scale. I know that my weight is going to be in the 200’s range, but gods help me if it somehow got above 250. If I actually let myself get that fat, I don’t even know what I’m going to do.

I haven’t checked my weight in months, and I’m gonna check tomorrow, and I’m freaking terrified of what it’s going to say.

I can't wait to look like this

Ok, so I got back into ed stuff like a month ago, and I haven’t binged once. This is (my take on) how to stop binging for good:

High restriction — Eat above 1000 cals when you’re exercising, it doesn’t matter how many cals you eat if you burn more.

Have at least one metabolism day a week — I eat around 1500 cals on saturday + sunday.

Don’t exercise every single day — Take at least 2 days to rest, especially the day(s) before you weigh yourself.

Don’t weigh yourself too often — I only weigh myself on saturday and wednesday. Seeing a bigger change in your weight can motivate you a lot more.

Drink enough water — Water really does keep you full and prevents bloating.

Try to avoid sodium — This will make you bloated and temporarily heavier.

Be kind to yourself — If you want to eat an entire cake, try eating a low cal meal before and then eat a tiny bit of cake. Cutting things out will only make you want them more.

DON’T COMPARE YOURSELF TO OTHER PEOPLE !!