The Falling Redemption

I don't care what we talk about, I'm pretty adaptable to most situations.

me: my man u r not ready for this conversation

All i know is that we are going to visit a “haunted” forest in my area. So maybe ill die haha. We shall see.

Anxiety is the.ost annoying thing in my life. One day i am so happy and nothing can bring ne down. But then all yhe sudden BAM. I'm on the floor staring at my knife thinking how much better off everyone else would be. I can even see the blood that hasn't yet spilled from my wrists on the floor. I want to be alone. But i have friends that stop me from doing that. 2 in particular. Ines and my newer friend Jasmine. Ines is the greatest person ive ever encountered. Jasmine so far is basically in second. Both have no idea that they have saved me from doing some really dumb things. The fact that they saved me, makes me havebstrong feelings for them. So is it real love i feel for them? Yes and no. I have to tell my head everyday that they are friends. So stop thinking of them romantically. But it ia so hard to. Then j tell myself that and then u feel i am not good enough for them and i fall back into an anxious depression again. Then here come my two heros, and here i fall for them again. It is so Dumb. I just wish it would stop.