Nurses Report.

Someday i want to meet someone who will save me from the monsters i see, and sadly i want them to see it to. Its a lonely feeling seeing things other people don't. Running from monsters that can turn invisible being choked by something with no fingers. Someone has control of my destiny and i hate it. I want to fight against it and take full control of my own life. Even if that means ending it. I just want peace.. Just peace

Watched porn, nothin happens for me. Think of you, instant lady boner... Wtf brain, wtf . Did i tell you that you could develop feels? No, no i didn't.

My vagina hurts... That is all.

So I think my medicine is making me think differently. Like recently I've been really concerned about my weight, like I really feel like crap after I eat. Its not like nausea. Its in my head. The medicine has been making me lose weight 13lbs in 2 weeks taking me from 212lbs to 199.6 I haven't weighed under the 200s in years. I will feel sick but I don't want go puke so I'd rather just not eat. I'm becoming addicted to the weight loss.

So I've been on a low carb diet for a couple of weeks now and I've already lost 13lbs I'm proud of me but my mom is complaining that i never eat I'm eating something every couple of hours she is just not here to see it. It is frustrating when people are telling me to eat more when I'm eating so often.

Down 13 lbs! Back in the 190s again!

Woo I've lost 8lbs since starting my new anti depressant 4 days ago! I guess that's what happens when you aren't eating out of sadness.

So this month i have been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, insulin resistance, and tested positive for lupus or sclerosis. At least its starting to show its not all in my head. Take that haters. I'm gonna take a nap now.