because dreaming costs money, my dear

Alison Mosshart

by Warsan Shire

Where did you get those big eyes?

My mother.

And where did you get those lips?

My mother.

And the loneliness?

My mother.

And that broken heart?

My mother.

And the absence, where did you get that?

me:

1.. Do you have a crush at the moment?

Yes! I think I do. With the cute (well at least I think he is cute. He’s cute in my head) gas station boy I talk to once a week. Sometimes twice, if I’m lucky. Anyway, he’s really nice. And probably the only person that talks to me without that pity voice.

2.. Have you ever been deeply in love?

When I was about 9, I was so so deeply in love with Cameron Boyce from the Descendants. I watched the movies about 200 times each and wanted to be Jane so that he would ask me to the dance. I read pretty much any article with him in it. I was heartbroken when I found out he was dating another celebrity and he’d moved on from our relationship. lol.

4.. Have you ever changed for someone?

I don’t think I know enough people to have consciously changed myself for anyone. I guess I hold back certain aspects of myself for my parents’ sake. If I had the proper support to go out and be me I do think I would be a bit different than I am right now.

8.. Would you date someone who’s well known for cheating?

This question is so conceptual to me. First I’d have to imagine that I could ever date anyone, ever. Then I’d have to think that someone would actually find me interesting and or attractive enough to date, and then this person could possibly be a well known cheater. What are the chances, honestly? Like whatever my answer is now is so theoretical it would never apply to a real life setting.

9.. What’s the most important part of a relationship?

To be able to spend time with each other, I guess. The only relationship I have to model after is my parents’ and I don’t know if they’re very much in love. And all the other relationship I know about are like… stuff I see in movies and TV, which I am pretty certain are not good representations. 

14.. What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?

Well “kids” shouldn’t have sex. According to my mom, you shouldn’t even have sex until you’re married. According to Leah though, she said everyone at her school was having sex by the time they were like 16. So I guess I should start having sex any day now. 

20.. Are you currently in a relationship?

LOOOOOL what? I’m probably gonna be living in this house until I’m 40 and then when my parents are dead they’ll probably move me to some crippled people home so. No relationships for me.

24.. Do you think love can last forever?

It depends on who you are I think. I’m sure my sister and brother might get the chance to find a love that will last forever. People like me, though. I don’t think so.

26.. Would you break up with someone your parents didn’t approve of?

How am I even gonna get out of this house to find someone to date that my parents wouldn’t approve of?

27.. If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be?

Don’t even dream about it, bub. Those who haven’t seen the sun don’t know that their world is dark.