keep living large scrappy

the truth is if you're writing poetry just keep writing it no matter what people say because someone is going to say something SO mean no matter WHAT you write, and what you've written will still be 100% more impactful to the world than whatever they say about it. i recently saw my own like 7 year old tweet pop up on pinterest and it remains true

I was scared to direct the sex scenes in the movie because I had never directed them before. My perspective on sex, especially before transition, was that I had deeply buried stuff that I was scared to show people or even myself, and so I just avoided it. I wanted to apologise for having a sexuality. It came to a point when I realized that I’m inviting these actors to perform this, and I felt that impulse of ‘this is ugly’ and ‘this is manipulative’. I’m gonna just let them lead.  I went out to dinner with my partner, and I was talking about this anxiety. She was like, ‘The film is talking about dissociation during sex, and you are dissociating from directing your sex scenes.’ I realized that this is literally my job: to look this directly in the eye, instead of through my fingers. I’m proud of the way I grew as an artist in this movie. The sex scenes themselves are the emotional core of the film.

This person put it into perspective in a way that made me stop and sit down with it for a bit. Because, yeah. Exactly.