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We have got to stop framing our oppression in ways that promote the idea that other people cannot relate to our struggles. Not only does it isolate comrades in the struggle, it actively diminishes recognition of other struggles--often including those even more horrific than what we are at risk of. And this happens especially between Gay and Black struggles.

"when have straight people ever had to check what states were safe for them?" Sundown towns are still a thing. Starlight tours. What states have abortion access? What states have open carry? What states have stand your ground? What states have 3-strike rules? Women, people of color, disabled people, immigrants, and more have had to be abundantly cautious where they travel to. Straight trans people have much more travel risk right now than gay cis people.

It's a new iteration of the same tired question: "imagine if straight people weren't allowed to marry" interracial marriage in the US is younger than my parents. We disgrace people of color by forgetting their history and contemporary struggles, and we abandon queer people of color, Black queer people, by segmenting their overlapping fights.

1: "npd abuse" "BPD abuse" "cluster b abuse"

2: using "do you lack empathy" as an insult

3: "oh you have BPD? My friend has NPD so I think you'll get along!!"

4: "you and your partner work so well because you have BPD and they have NPD"

5: people who DON'T have BPD calling it "beautiful princess disorder"

6: "I want a BPD girl to be obsessed with me so bad!!"

7: non cluster b people using the terms "psychopath" and "sociopath" ESPECIALLY on other people who don't have a disorder.

8: using "narcissist" to describe someone who's just self-centered

9: "you have ASPD? You're probably gonna become a serial killer in the future lol" (actual thing I have been told. Multiple times. By several people.)

please hear me out

expressing nonhumanity is (or at the very least can be) a very alternative, counter culture move. normative society limits people's self-expression, and one of the many things it prohibits is being animalistic. normative society puts humans on a pedestal and does everything it can to separate them from nature. being alterhuman is fundamentally going against that system by blurring those very lines it constructed

now, for involuntary alterhumans, expressing oneself is often a need, not a want

but there really are just mfs out there who choose to be unapologetically feral, not because they feel it in their core, necessarily, but because they want to

they actively aid the broader alterhuman community in propagating nonhuman self-expression and help us challenge the system, not because it's their only option, but because they saw it as an option and thought it was interesting enough to dedicate themselves to it

and that's so fucking punk!!!

we should be more thankful for our otherlinker, otherpaw, furry, and all our siblings in adjacent communities for popularizing our way of living, not because they needed to, but because they wanted to

Fuck people who say that hyperandrogenism or hypoestrogenism caused by PCOS "isn't intersex"

Fuck people who say that a 'male' with hyperandrogenism isnt intersex, or a 'female' with hyperestrogenism "isn't intersex."

Fuck people who say that hypoandrogenism or hypoestrogenism "isn't intersex."

Fuck people who say that the agenital spectrum or people with absent/small/underdeveloped reproductive organs/gonads "aren't intersex."

Fuck people who say that duplicated or extra primary sex traits "aren't intersex."

Fuck people who say that Turner syndrome (or any other chromosomal variation) "isn't intersex."

Anyone with naturally developed genital, reproductive, hormonal, or chromosomal variations is intersex.

Intersex is a sociopolitical identity, not just a diagnosis. Doctors and the community disagree with each other on what it means to be intersex. Doctors are far behind and taught to be intersexist. They are taught to diagnose any sex variation as a disorder, deformity, or defect, rather than diagnosing it as "intersex."

hey, if you as a transandrophobe would like to know why trans men/transmascs use transandrophobia or transandromisia to discuss their oppression, "transphobia" is too vague a word for the specifics of certain transphobia that only trans men and transmascs face. "misogyny" often does not encompass the full experience of the oppression trans men and transmascs are subject to, especially when their masculinity is used against them in the form of malgendering. hope this helps

They have a Global Device Identifier (GDID) Tracker that functions as a fingerprint for your PC that can surpass VPNs, proxy servers and countries. Although it can't survive a clean reinstall of Windows (it can survive updates), because Microsoft forces you to go to the internet and log in into a Microsoft account, they will be able to get to you.

Microsoft kept it secret and it was only found out when the FBI tracked a hacker thanks to the information Microsoft gave them.

You should be paying attention to this, and possibly consider moving away from Windows. If a government, especially the US government, doesn't like you for some reason, this could be seriously concerning.

This article specifically notes:

For journalism, activism, or domestic abuse situations, skip Windows and use Linux routed through Tor instead of a commercial VPN. A GDID doesn’t care which VPN you use, only that it’s still the same Windows installation.

Other important quotes:

What has researchers uneasy is everything else the case reveals. Costin Raiu, a well-known malware researcher, asked on the Three Buddy Problem podcast how much of this exists on other platforms, and whether it is linked more permanently to hardware. Matthew Hickey, another security researcher, called Windows “surveillance software”.

Two things back that up:

There’s no consent screen. A GDID gets assigned when you sign into a Microsoft Account. Apple’s advertising identifier needs an App Tracking Transparency prompt and a visible reset; Android’s works the same way. GDID has neither, and a Windows reinstall only gets you a new number Microsoft can still get back to the same account.

Then there’s activation. Massgrave, the group behind Microsoft Activation Scripts, notes that Windows setup sends hardware info to Microsoft and gets identifiers back, the same tokens later used for Store access and licensing: “It’s impossible to prevent Windows from getting a GDID without breaking activation and UWP app[s].” Anyone who lost a license after swapping a motherboard has already met a smaller version of this.

Here's the complaint filed to the court, the primary source for the case mentioned in the article. You can find mentions of GDID on page 30 of the document or 34 of the PDF.

I also made a PDF version!!

Then maybe...

Maybe...

I see much less of this than I thought I would in Tumblr ASPD spaces, but...

Physical boredom. It does not feel like you're bored mentally, it feels like your entire fucking being is boredom. It's understimulation to an extreme, and comes from lack of emotional substance in day-to-day life. Ever since I was a child, everything about interaction with the world was hooked onto the material and the physical.

Emotions that don't feel like they matter. We do feel emotions in spikes at points, but they fade very quick. This impairs emotional memory, too. Fucks up reflection. Good things feel like they last shorter. Oftentimes when a good thing ends, it feels like it sucks extra hard because it's so abrupt.

Inconsistency. The fact that emotional involvement is so fleeting often has us jumping into commitments because we feel like surely this time we're gonna engage long-term. And then it's gone. And we seem like liars, like we lied about how we care, or how much something interests us.

Irritation, so much irritation. When I'm "flatlining" it could very well be because of ambient anger. And when people approach me with anything, I just feel annoyed, further. I feel zero interest in them. I just want to do my thing and I'm irritated that I'm getting so little emotional feedback from literally anything I'm doing. This compounds irritation into a loop. And we stay in the loop of dissatisfaction. Of "eh". The understimulation + irritation feels like they should cancel out, but they do not.

Sleep problems. We're already understimulated so much, that going to sleep feels like we're committing to even less stimulation. So we stay up. Sometimes we're just not sleepy for seemingly a dozen hours past sleep time. Who knows what the fuck that is.

Trouble reacting to our own emotional/sensory cues. Sometimes this is the reason why we're not going to bed. We're tired but we ignore it for some reason. Some of us, including myself, will just hold piss for like 2 hours straight. Some of us ignore cold, hunger, pain, numbness in limbs that fell asleep from us sitting in the same position for hours.

Financial irresponsibility. We're not very risk-averse. We spend money on things that give us stimulation, some kind of distraction from the noisy void of engagement we live in. This causes us to blow through our savings quick. Not everyone, but me for sure.

Substance abuse. Over 80% of people with ASPD have substance abuse issues. I imagine it's stimulation-driven, and also an attempt to find external self-regulation. I heavily, heavily abused meth, heroin and ketamine intravenously prior to my psychosis. But mostly meth.

I made a pride flag!!

I wanted to make something that represents both multigender/nonbinary identity and attraction, as well as the intersect between sapphic (wlw) and achillean (mlm) identities.

As a genderfluid person, I've often felt that while I am both sapphic and acchilean and find joy in that, I tend to not feel the most comfortable in either space, as I often worry I'll be reduced down to only one or the other. So I wanted a flag that acknowledges that duality instead of pushing it down!

(I've also included the ring of the intersex flag to acknowledge those in wlw/mlm spaces who don't fit neatly into the binary of male or female sex, as they're often similarly excluded or ignored in these conversations and I think solidarity is important!)