I want to write in a language that no body understands, that comes from how inscure I became, I have always abandoned myself but I realized that I even lost the few things that I have always kept to keep me going, things like hope and daydreaming, listening to music and talking to myself, I became a big ego that once i lost the source that feeds it, I completely disappeared, I lost my voice and the ability to love and laugh, now I am full of fears doubts and became very stubborn and judgmental, I cut my relationship with almost everyone because I thought that I dont need them in my life and that everyone is bad, I've met the person that Ive always dreamt to be with, and i found out how hard it is for me to believe in love again, I am writing here as a try to remind myself that I am where I need to be exactly, and I have what I need to have excatly to start again, and I have the time, to reborn again, and to raise up myself again, and to live freely as I always wanted, I have nothing to hold me rather than myself, and I want to hold myself hands and walk to freedom, hold the people that love me, I want to make the world my playground, and trust myself, i know that I could be whatever I want to be.