i said 'explain physics to me like youre in love with me' and after a while of quiet he went 'everything sings'. so i get it now

i've been so loved all my life, from so many directions, it's important that i remember and shine light on that more than all the experiences that made me feel unsafe, hated, and less. i've been so loved. violence and fear has walked with me at times, but love never left my side.

been thinking a lot about anticipatory grief lately. i love you so much that i know losing you will devastate me. i haven't lost you yet but i already miss you. we still have time, but it won't be enough. i think about what i would say at your funeral, and say some of it to you now cause i need you to know how loved you are before you go. you will go where i cannot follow, but you will never really leave me. it won't make it hurt less but it is a part of healing somehow.

En otro universo llamaste esta noche.

En otro universo nunca coincidimos y fue mejor así

En otro universo besas mi espalda

En otro universo cuidamos el uno del otro

En otro universo ella soy yo

En otro universo no estoy aquí pensándote

En otro universo me recuesto en tu pecho y me haces mimitos

En otro universo besas desesperadamente mi cuello

En otro universo me pierdo entre tus brazos

En otro universo tenemos una vida juntos

En otro universo no renunciaste a mi

En otro universo no fuiste tan cruel

En otro universo si vos venis por mi, yo me voy contigo

En otro universo no nos destruimos