iâm so excited your inbox is open!!đđcan i request an arthur x fem!reader where heâs insisting heâs âan ugly, old outlawâ and all that bs and she gets really emotional and gives this speech on how handsome (adorable) and loyal and caring he is? basically just tooth-rotting fluffđđlove your work!!đ¤
I hope I ticked all the boxes for this one, lol. But it definitely turned out very fluffy (which is good, because I live for fluff! They are my favorite to write, especially with Arthur). Enjoy!Â
You stand on the edge of Horseshoe Overlook, repeater in hand, waiting for an improbable attack. Of course, you canât be entirely sure there wonât be one. Arthur mentioned a couple days ago running into some Pinkertons while he was out fishing with Jack. Something tells you that if they found this place, theyâd have no problems marching in.Â
An hour later, the sunâs beginning its slow descent into the sky and you hear something: a horse coming down the path. Just as you lean around a tree to see who it is, Arthur comes into view.Â
âOh hey, Arthur!â you say excitedly. Not only does he carry heavy weight in camp, heâs one of the nicest men youâve ever met (despite being an outlaw), and heâs also the man youâre in love with. You havenât had the courage to tell him this, the thought alone terrifies you.Â
He gives you an adorable âgunâ finger salute as he trots past, but you notice his eyes donât crinkle the way they do when he smiles, almost like heâs faking it. He goes on towards the camp and you follow him, wondering if somethingâs wrong.Â
When you get to camp, you ask Karen to take guard duty for now, explaining youâll make up for it later. She accepts, saying you owe her a whiskey, to which you agree. Arthur dismounts his horse, feeding her a treat. You hear him say, ârest now, girl. You did good.â God, heâs so cute the way he talks to his horse.Â
He continues on towards his tent and young Jack crosses his path as he walks. âHiya, Uncle Arthur!âÂ
âHey there, Jack. You keepinâ safe?â Arthurâs been worried about him ever since he ran into the Pinkertons. Of course, Arthurâs always been protective.Â
âYou still reading with Hosea?âÂ
âYeah! He read me a story about a prince! I did a page all by myself!âÂ
âThatâs excellent, son! Good for you!âÂ
Jack skips off and Arthur continues on towards his tented wagon, his shoulders rolling as he walks. You melt at the exchange he had with Jack. He is the most adorable, gentle man youâve met. How is it that heâs a wanted man?Â
Arthur shuffles around his wagon a bit, adjusting some things on his little table. Then he grabs the flaps of the canvas and pulls them down, clearly wanting some privacy.Â
Silently, you go over to his tent and peak in. The sight breaks your heart. Heâs sitting on the cot, hunched over, his hands clasped together as his elbows rest on his thighs. You can tell heâs upset about something.Â
âMr. Morgan?â you ask.Â
He looks up and clears his face. âOh, hey there, Y/N. What can I do for ya?âÂ
âNothing. I just wanted to check on you. I was⌠I guess worried. You okay?âÂ
He smiles a little, huffing a bit. âOh Iâm doinâ just fine.âÂ
You can tell heâs lying, and youâre nervous to stay any longer. Itâs clear he wants to be alone. However, you swallow your fear and walk into the tent.Â
âCan I ask whatâs wrong, Mr. Morgan? Whenever I have something weighing heavy on my mind, I find itâs helpful to tell someone.âÂ
âOh trust me, no one wants to hear about my problems. Iâm just⌠just a sad, miserable olâ outlaw.âÂ
Your heart feels like itâs going to break. How can he think such awful things about himself when every time you see him, heâs doing something good to those around him? Bringing Mary-Beth a pen, reading stories to Jack, giving that one-armed man in Valentine money. Every time youâre with him, he proves the exact opposite of what heâs saying now.
âYou⌠donât really think thatâs true, do you, Mr. Morgan?âÂ
âOh trust me, I ainât sayinâ bad enough about myself. Iâm⌠a no-good killer, a fighter. And uh, just a bad man.âÂ
A tear slides down your cheek and you go sit down next to him. âMr. Morgan, forgive me, but thatâs not what I see. Every time youâre around, I see you helping folk, making people smile. I see you doing too much good to believe that a bad man is all you are.âÂ
âYou donât know me very well, Y/N. Hell, you only been with us a few months. Wait a few years, youâll be sayinâ somethinâ different.âÂ
âI donât think so. If anything, Iâll probably be sayinâ even nicer things about you. And honestly, Mr. Morgan, Iâve never lied to you. I ainât startinâ now.âÂ
âTrust me, you wonât. No one does, everyone who spends any length of time with me knows how horrible I am.âÂ
âIâve spent plenty of time with you,â you say. âI donât think youâre horrible. Sure, youâve made some bad choices, but who hasnât? I⌠Iâve made choices that I regret too. But you canât look at the world with people split in two based on good and bad. People are complicated. Youâre complicated. Thatâs how the world is, and you ainât doinâ yourself any favors by seeing it that way.âÂ
He sighs heavily, looking away from you. He doesnât speak for a few moments and when he finally does open his mouth, youâre sure heâs about to tell you to leave him alone.Â
âTo be honest, Y/N, I really am a bad man. The only thing Iâm good for is fightinâ. All I ever been good at.âÂ
âMr. Morgan, can I ask who told you this?âÂ
âNo one told me, Y/N. I⌠I always known. And the other night, robbinâ that train full oâ city folk. Well, I robbed and beaten plenty of people before, they was really no different. But⌠I was over near Strawberry earlier. Some guy challenged me to a race. Guess he just bought a new horse, wanted to show off. Anyways, olâ Artemis and I gave him a run for his money. I won, of course.â He scratches his chin. âWhen that other bastard got there, he was real angry. So angry he shot his horse in the head, so I shot him. Donât quite know why I did neither. WhenâŚ. When I shot him, I realized I felt nothinâ. Not joy, not regret. Just nothinâ.âÂ
âMaybe because there was nothing to feel, Mr. Morgan. After all, a man who can so easily shoot his new horse he was so proud of moments ago cannot be much of a man at all. Perhaps⌠perhaps you killing him was a good thing.âÂ
âHow do you mean?â he asks. He finally turns to you, his blue eyes searching yours.Â
âWell, if he can so easily shoot a horse in that fashion, something tells me he doesnât know how to rein in his anger, that he lets it get the better of him. Who knows? Maybe he was constantly hurting his wife or kids if he had them. Maybe you killing them will send them relief, freedom. Thatâs the way I have to see the world, Mr. Morgan, that our bad deeds have a positive effect somewhere in the world.âÂ
Arthur grunts a bit. âMaybe. But⌠but Iâm still nothinâ more than a fighter.âÂ
âNo youâre not. Forgive me, Mr. Morgan, but Iâve been watching you probably more than you think. Youâre a good man, a wanderer, a hunter. An artist too I bet.âÂ
âHow do you figure that?â He cocks his eyebrow a bit, staring at you from the side of his eye. Part of you thinks heâs on the verge of smiling, which encourages you.Â
âIâve seen you sitting on the edge of camp, writing and doodling in that journal of yours. John told me Dutch taught the two of you to draw, but it didnât take with him.âÂ
âHmm, a lot of things didnât take with that boy.âÂ
You giggle, but donât really want to lead this conversation into a heated discussion about John Marston and his flaws. âI bet youâre good though. Could⌠I mean, would you hate me for asking if I could see your drawings?âÂ
You are extremely doubtful that heâd give you that privilege. After all, you and Mary-Beth talked about journaling and she mentioned how Arthur is notorious for it, but how no one has ever seen the inside of his. However, Arthur surprises you by sighing heavily and taking his journal out. He flips through it quickly, finding a page that has a drawing of a large wolf on it. He hands you the book, though he seems nervous.Â
Gently, you take it from him and inspect the drawing. Itâs beautiful, professional even. You can so easily see the textures of the wolfâs fur, the bristles of the pines behind it. Itâd be impossible to not admire the strokes put down, each one with their own intention and purpose.Â
âMr. Morgan, this is incredible. I knew you were an artist, but I didnât think you were this good.âÂ
âOh nonsense. Anyone can draw like this. Hell, I bet you ainât that bad of an artist yourself.âÂ
Itâs your turn to raise your brow. âYou wanna bet? Give me your pencil.âÂ
He hands it to you and, in the lower right corner, you draw a small version of his wolf, which is far more than laughable. Youâve never been very good at drawing, but even this version is pathetic. After a few minutes, you hand him back his journal.Â
âThere. Now your wolf has a badly deformed companion.âÂ
Arthur takes one look at it and then he lets out a laugh. âI like it,â he says after a moment, his eyes meeting yours. This time, his eyes crinkle.Â
You canât help but giggle. âIâm glad you like it, Mr. Morgan.âÂ
Still grinning, he straightens up a bit. âWhy you always callinâ me Mr. Morgan? You can call me Arthur on occasion, you know.âÂ
âOh I⌠I know,â you say, looking down at your lap, your cheeks burning. âI⌠I donât know why I do.âÂ
He admires your features for a moment. Arthur knows youâre sweet on him. He clued into it pretty quick when he first asked you to call him by his first name weeks ago and you refused. Then he heard Tilly and Mary-Beth joking about how they knew. He also noticed you did things for him no one else did: bringing him coffee in the morning, offering to clean his guns, how he was the only person you asked to teach you how to play poker and black jack. Other small things you did only for him. It didnât take long for him to realize he felt something for you too.
He finds your behavior now endearing and youâve helped cheer him up immensely. He grabs your hand and lifts it, placing a soft kiss to the back of it, which causes you to look up at him.Â
âThank you, Y/N,â he says.Â
Youâre blushing hard again. âYouâre welcome. Arthur.âÂ
Just as heâs about to lean over to try and place a kiss to your lips, Grimshawâs shrill voice carries across camp.Â
âWhere the hell is Y/N?! That damn girl, always disappearing! I swear when I find herâŚâÂ
âShit,â you say and quickly yank your hands out of Arthurâs grasp and then darting outside to subdue Grimshaw.Â
Arthur chuckles, his heart much lighter than it was before. He looks down at his journal, finding your poor rendition of a wolf. Little do you know that it brings him great comfort and always will. In the future, when things go bad, he opens to this page just to look at it, to remember the things you said. Itâs a moment heâll never be able to forget.Â