The Life of Sally

So it's been almost 2 weeks since my last update. I started writing one the other day but didn't get to finish. Anyway here's a catch up. I started synarel and I've got to say I really don't like it. Well more the way my body reacts. The 3 days with synarel and Provera I curled into a ball every night waiting for it to be over. The cramps, bloating and nausea was horrible. Once I had finished up the provera I thought things would be better. I was wrong. I continued with the bloating, cramps and waves of nausea then was able to add muscle pains to the list. It felt like I had done a hard workout, my muscle were so sore. I spoke to my nurse about it when I went in for bloods and she asked how it was all going. She said I was probably one of the lucky 1% or so that get these symptoms. Most people just get headaches. Anyway just struggled on with all for the cause. Fast forward to Friday, 3 days ago. I am finally the human pin cushion. So we head in to see the nurse on Friday with our cooler bag full of drugs for a demonstration on how to inject it. It wasn't a demonstration so much. Just her watching Will give me a needle making sure he was doing it right. I'm pretty sure sitting in the chair seeing Will with a needle he is about it stab me with was one of the most nerve racking times of my life. I have a pretty big fear of needles, let alone having someone who has never give an injection before waiting to jab me. The nurse tried to calm me by telling me the needle is so small that you will hardly feel it. All I can say is OUCH!!!! So he jammed the needle through my skin then as he is pushing the button to dispense the drug pushed it further into me. It was worse than some of the blood test I have had. After it was done the nurse and Will joked about how there was spare needles and he should use them to practice on me. I knew they were joking but my fear of needles and having extra hormones in my body, I had to work very hard to hold back the tears. Then comes day 2 on gonal f injections. I took a bit to ready myself. And... It was better. It will never be great because it's a needle but it was a massive improvement. I compliment Will on his job today. Turns out he had practiced yesterday with a pin and an orange. I thought it was sweet he was practicing to try and make it better for me. Today was day 3 and we are getting into a routine. I'm hoping that all goes well and I only have a week of injections left.

The weekend after our nurses appointment we were able to get away for a long weekend to one of my favourite places. We went down to visit my grandparent down the coast. They are affectionately known as Gin and Da. Names that came from my brother when he was learning to talk. It was so good to get away and not have to think about anything. My grandparent were so excited to have is down and Layla even told Gin, my grandma, that she wants to live down there. So we are driving down and stop at one of the towns on the way that has markets on. I called them to let them know where we are and asked if their was anything we can bring them. Gin asked if we could grab a hot water bottle as they had forgotten to get it earlier. So it all good, we grab one from the chemist and continue on our way. We arrive and all seem well in the world. Anyway we unpack the car and go upstair to catch up. Will hands over the hot water bottle and Gin is insisting on giving him money. "No don't worry about any money, we can buy you a hot water bottle". They keep on insisting and we continue to say no until my grandmother comes over with an envelope and tells us here's you money. Will handed my the envelope and I started reading what was written: To our dearest Sally, Will and Layla, We hope the enclosed will help you achieve the family you wish for. All our love and best wishes for a good result Gin and Da Xxxxxxx ooooooo I could hardly hold back the tears reading it. Opening it up I found they had given us enough money to complete a cycle. Words just wouldn't come out. I manage to blubber out a massive thank you to them both giving them a big hug and kiss but that's all I could manage to stop myself from becoming a big sopping mess. This is one of the best present I have ever received. Not because it was a massive amount of money, but it was because of the love and support they have shown us throughout this journey. My grandmother told me she knew how much we want this baby and this was their way of help make that wish come true. They told us they also didn't want us to start off on the back foot when we did eventually have the next baby. I have always had a lot of love for my grandparents but this just left me speechless!

So we are now a week and a half on from our nurses appointment. It all went well, we sign the forms and we went through everything and all seems good. However when we were chatting to the nurse it came up about how my left ovary was difficult to get a good clear picture of on the ultrasound. This can become a problem for the egg collection. We discussed what would happen if they were unable to get to it. Turns out they may need to go through my abdomen to collect the eggs of unable to collect them normally. That had me freaking out a little bit. Anyway my new cycle started and I called them to book in for IVF. The sent me out my information pack and I now have a start date to start provera, 30th of June. That is less then 2 weeks away. Things are starting to feel very real.