lordsaintbirthday

mailman brought me a beautiful gift

from Junky, William S. Burroughs

i have zero interest in the minsung aspect except from a purely psycholoanalytical standpoint 🫶🏻 (see tweet that was something like *pick me monkey* i prefer wire mother) (i can elaborate) (but i don’t think anyone wants that). he is the eponymous “ashamed codependent” per my caption because the masochism of wanting lee minho is neither completely processed nor fleshed out in his mind. he does not understand the status quo, blithely hopes for change, and aspires to be the one to bring about that change. he is to be pitied. the “unashamed codependent” is chan who is much more used to the status quo, helps maintain it, and despises it all in one breath. the third kind of codependent is the “mindful codependent”, someone who is aware of the status quo, propagates it, and adores it for what it is. this is, of course, felix ❤️

i haven’t been able to get much sleep lately. i dream of me pregnant with children that are never born, my water endlessly breaking, rewinding itself into my body, flooding my brain. sometimes i wake up and i feel like a mother. it is a terrible feeling. i am filled with love.

from The Body Artist, Don Delillo

people are reading that????? uhh I have a draft but it's incomplete because I don't think anyone except me gives a fuck about pacrim here lmao

dennis cooper

anne carson - plainwater