𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚝𝚘𝚘

This is the state I've been in for a long time. But when I become mentally exhausted from all the pretending, that's when you see it too. It's getting bad again for YOU.

Because for me, this is something I have to deal with every day. Every hour. Every moment.

And get this. When you experienced this trauma, no matter how long it happened or how many times, your brain instantaneously made judgments about the world, your sense of self, and others. This is why you're paranoid. Why you trust no one. Why you perceive things to exist that aren't true in reality. It's why people say you're crazy, overdramatic, or too emotional.

people how you pulled

yourself out of the

ocean,

When you could not

survived not just childhood, but large

chunks of their lives by focusing

almost exclusively on other peoples'

wants and needs.

And who, now, are virtual strangers

to their OWN wants and needs.

Even when it has been through the worst,

It pulls it's self up and marches on,

Swaying with all the moments that linger around it's mind,

Floating through the good and bad times alike,

Healing itself and inspiring others,

It has never been a quitter,