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I've been investing to this neighbor/classmar of mine nung jhs since then, for years already.

Tapos ngayon biglang walang uncertainty na mababalik ung 50k ko.

Lord, 3 months kong sahod yun, pinaghirapan ko yun. Hindi ganun kadali makaipon at makakuha ng 50k, Lord.

Nagmsmakaawa ako sainyo Lord sana mabalik ung pera ko. Birth month ko pa man din ngayon.

i always dreamed of better things, but when better things come, i want the best.

I've never been contented.

I've always felt like everything i have is not enough, that someone always had better.

i maybe jealous, but I'm also inspired of how they do that. cause i feel like i also have the capability and talent naman but why is it that na hindi ko pa rin nakukuha yung gusto ko?

i want to be one of the biggest, the top tiktok affiliate earning 6 digits a month.

i want to earn money that high so I'd stop working na sa corporate world and just film videos, make edits and just do what i love, which is to sell.

i want to focus on a business where i can earn more and be more in control of my time.

but why does it feel like whenever i achieve something, it's still nothing compared to what others have?

you might tell me that it's because I compare. but i don't think that comparison is something you cannot do.

how i wish I was stronger, greater and smarter so that I'll know the strategies and techniques.

just now, I hope Lord that you grant me knowledge and wisdom na makuha lahat ng gusto ko sa buhay (mostly money wise, not because I'm evil but because I just want the best for my family :--(()

Lord, please guide me, protect me and bless me. I lift everything into your name, Lord.

To more viral videos, more shop ads, more boosted videos for my accounts.

i used to write here asking God na isang hero product lang and HELLO?!!! YES MERON NG HERO PRODUCT! at yes isa nga 😭 pero Lord pahirit pa pleaseeee damihan nyo pa po viral videos ko and hero products ko para makauwi na sila mama and papa and masustain ko na sils :((

i know this is too much to ask but nothing is impossible with you Lord, i know one day makakamit ko rin ang 6 digits per month sa tiktok. I know you will bless me Lord

I lift everything into your name. Lahat ng to ay mangyayari dahil pinagdasal ko.

Really having hard relationship problems rn.

Am I being too much again? for wanting too much more than what he has?

I feel really sad with what he has but I'm happy with our relationship not until we talked today and I noticed the changes already.

From someone who told me na consistent sya, to now becoming consistent in ways I expected naman like what happened sa exes ko but still, umasa ako.

-he's as good as them before na di nagagalit sa akin, di ako sinasagot sagot at d hinahayaan lang everytime may away.

-Di pumapayag na umalis ako sa relationship kasi alam nyang galit lang ako pero mahal ko pa rin sya

People really get do tired no? Siguro kapagod pagod nga talaga u g ugali ko and ako rin talaga reason bat sila napapagod.

what fears me rn is not because baka ihurt nya sarili nya kundi mas nangingubabaw na yung "baka maging katulad rin sya, nila" kasi pattern nya eh.

trauma nako sa bnibigay lahat ng gusto ko tapos biglang magbabago pakikitungo sakin and all along, biglang isusumbat lahat ng time na binigay sakin.

di ko na maintindihan sarili ko, ung relationship namin. gusto kong ipaglaban pa, ipaglaban nya rin, pero wala. whenever we talk, it just leads to goodbye. never ko na narinig sakanya na sana ayusin natin to. sasabihin nya lang alam mong ayaw kita iwan kasi mahal kita, pero pag naguusap naman kami hindi naman naaayos at d rin lumalabas sa kanya yon.

i feel so tired of wanting too much for my self, for being like this. wala ba talagang makakaintinfi sa kin na gusto ko more than what I have now? is it wrong to aim for more?

yung feeling na feeling ko ako magbubuhat saming dalawa para umangat kami pareho. kasi kung di ko gagawin, pano kami uusad?

gusto ko ng someone na icacarry ako &, isusupport ko nalang. pero wala, dito ako nalang palagi yung naglelead. gusto ko sko naman yung ilead.

nakakatamad na magdate ng tamad at aasa sa lahat ng sasabihin ko bago gawin :))

i get it, maeffort ka, mabait ka, pero sapat ba yun para sating dalawa? i want the best for us. the best for myself.

I felt being micromanaged, everyday nagsesend ako ng accomplishment reports and this has been running for over 1 month na.

i get it na baka nga para makita if kaya ko pa related sa engagement and all but ???! ung feeling ko parang wala ng tiwala sa mga task na ginagawa ko everyday😔

nkaakpaagod na iprove everyday ung sarili ko na sobrang accomplished ko na as if fault kong binawasan ung tasks ko.

i was so active at tiktok affiliate right now, a lot of people has been progressing sa vlogging nila, affiliate and all, which arethe things i hope na ako rin.

im tryingg the best i can to be one of the successful one, but iniisip ko, impatient lang ba ko? di ko ba deserve ng good things kaya ganito?

lord please. isang viral lang para magkahero.productsa tiktok affiliate.

alam kong andito kovng hinihiling na lagi nyo po tinutupad Lord pero let this be one too Lord. let me be successful in this path.

Let me give my parents the life they deserve

Please Lord.

today i did something really Terrible to my bf who did not nothing but to make me happy.

for the past weeks, there are already plans for the both of us by our families - his kuya's bday and church outing. since my parents are here, my prio is to be with my fam.

but God allowed us to be together. di sila natuloy and kami rin (muntikan) due to humabol lang kami.

pero ayun, i attended their gathering and i was shocked when he hesitated that he don't wanna go with us sa church outing. i got so mad and said ill words, shouted and cursed s lot.

this is even the first time i blocked him out of the number times we fought cause I was so hurt and that was the most evil thing i ever did to him.

i was so hurt because i hurt him. Lord, I'm sorry for this. I promised to love him with gentleness and kindness yet I suck. hindi ko napapanindigan yung sinabi ko when we first started.

maybe, I qm really the problem between us and I was thinking if worth it pa bang magstay ako sa relationship namin cause all I do to him is just hurt him and magsisi afterwards

i dont mean it but my actions were really not valid despite gano kavalid nararamdaman ko. i tell him a lot of ill things but the truth is ako yun. i am so bad. Please forgive me Lord.

kunt meron man saming nagsusuck, ako yun. deserve ko karmahin wa lahat ng pinagagagawa ko sakanya.

Lord, i pray for the best and nothing more but for him. Sana ibless nyo po sya ng taongamamahlin sya the way he deserves it, kasi hindi ako yun, sobrang gago ko.

I tweeted Lord, you make everything possible. 🌅 before i Slept yesterday.

Guess what?

Tumawag yung thunderbird stating na nakuha na namin yung phone ng bf kooooo!😭😭😭

AAAAA, maraming salmat Lord. The best ka talaga! Sobrang impossible na pero u can really make all things possible.

Hi, It's been a long time since I posted here.

Life update: I already have a bf, and fun fact, it's my bestie Ced.

unfortunately today, he lost his phone in Thunderbird Casino. he was tired all day yet he still wanted to spend time with me and my fam (since my parents are here in PH ulit yay!!)

but unfortunately someone got it and stole it and we're unable to find it now.

i feel sad and i kept blaming myself as to why this happened.

Lord, please. I know you're just preparing him for something better. He wasn't accepted as media analyst on worketics rn, he is a resignee, actually planned to pract driving later but due to this instance, we'll first prioritize his lost phone.