淑仪

Okay so this is just my own personal opinion, analyzing and observation and its honestly a little ridiculous and its also SPECULATION so please don’t take any of this as the truth.. . And also don’t shoot me, please.

But for some reason I’ve always felt like ksoo has always struggled with his self esteem or image? It seems as though every time his appearance comes up he says that he doesn’t think he is handsome or cool and has never felt this way since he was born, and just feels like he is average in looks even after people constantly reassure him that he looks nice. And then I finally found the 10asia interview where he mentioned experiencing painful heartbreak and blamed himself for being too clingy.. And the whole “fear of being alone forever and trying to ignore it” thing…

So then with this in my (possibly delu) mind I looked at how he is when Jongin is around, how he is happy and smile-y and looks at him with eyes of wonder and amazement and how he constantly is praising him for being handsome and cool and amazing as if he is everything ksoo ever dreamed of being himself…

And then I continue on with my (even deeper delu) mind and look at how Jongin is also always praising ksoo no matter what and reassures him that he is handsome and he loves his voice and he’s not scary or hard to talk to and he’s a great actor and how his dancing improved so much and how his cooking is the best ever… And I’m just like what if Jongin is the first person in ksoo’s life to truly encourage him and believe in him and support him and make him feel cool and then my shipper feelings just turn into 😄😄😄😇😇😍😍🙂🙂☺☺😊😊🙃🙃🙃👬👬👨‍❤️‍👨💖💖💘💘💞💞💞

So then finally I continue on with my possible “delurium” (delusions and delirium lol 😂) and I’m like… What if ksoo has truly fallen in love with Jongin and wants to spend the rest of his life with him and then the dating news coming out made it it a painful reality that it’ll never happen and that’s why they’ve both been looking so miserable lately…

I don’t care about the criticisms or feedback from people who think they know it all!