rescue me, clever boy, and show me the stars.

before I make the final sacrifice: “you say it’s your story, but… it’s my story, too, you know?” [yuna. and guardians.]

01. final fantasy x ost - besaid island [she protects her eyes from the sunlight looking out onto the sea. wakka and tidus are nearby playing in the water, their laughter drifting over to her. the boys come running towards her and try to drag her into the water. and she laughs and it feels like home. not bevelle or anywhere else she’s been the first years of her life. this feels like home.] 02. maroon 5 - come away to the water come away, little lamb, come away to the slaughter [it is a strange feeling stepping on the c s winno and turning to look at the island for what she thinks for the very last time. it feels like departure and goodbye and excitement and nostalgia. and quite a bit like beginning.] 03. florence and the machine - rabbit heart (raise it up) here i am, a rabbit hearted girl, frozen in the lights, it seems i’ve made the final sacrifice [it’s not she’s not scared. she is. she really really is. but somehow she knows this is what she’s been walking towards her whole life and this is it. try hard or die trying. die trying or die succeeding.] 04. bastille - icarus you’re putting up your armour when you leave, you leave because you’re certain of who you want to be [she appreciates wakka and lulu telling her no when she presents her idea of becoming a summoner to them. she appreciates rikku trying to stop her and tidus saying „you can’t do this“ over and over again. she really does. but it’s only good that somewhen they stop. because she won’t and she’d rather have them protecting her and with her than to go through this alone.] 05. birdy - people help the people god knows what is hiding in this world of little consequence, behind the tears, inside the lies, a thousand slowly dying sunsets [she is off to beat sin. off to save spira. off to grant them another ten years of calm. not for her, but all for the people. if they don’t even really see her, don’t know she’s saving them and she’d be long gone to see them finally value her. it doesn’t matter. they deserve it.] 06. evanescence - hello if i smile and don’t believe, soon i know i’ll wake from this dream, don’t try to fix me i’m not broken [she’s sick of people patronizing her and telling her what to do. she knows pretty well what she’s doing and it’s not crying for help. it’s fulfilling her destiny, sacrificing herself for her friends and everyone. it’s smiling and breaking herself a bit more everytime she pretends and protects them from further harm.] 07. austin wintory - i was born for this [she tries to keep it all in her memories. every place they pass. she stops and lets her gaze wander the lands, stores it all away in her mind. sometimes it’s the first time, she’s the first time in her life in the macalania woods and she knows it is a bit sadness but a lot of something else she can’t quite name that makes her stop everytime and say goodbye to all those places.] 08. anastacia - sick and tired my dreams of fairytales and fantasies were torn apart, oh, I lost my peace of mind somewhere along the way, I knew there’d come a time you’d hear me say I’m sick and tired of always being sick and tired [she sometimes finds herself silently asking into the silence if it’s alright to just put up against the whole order and damn it all or if she might’ve just lost her mind. but when they’re standing on top of the towers in bevelle and she jumps, she recognizes it’s not her but them who’ve lost their sanity to false prayers. she just might not be the little girl she was anymore.] 09. arthur beatrice - midland purge me now, cleanse my skull from all the things that i have been told [of course she’s bothered almost everyone’s calling her and her friends heretics and traitors. but to be honest with herself, it more feels like a really heavy boulder got moved off her shoulders. they will not flee. they will fight and continue on as they damn well please. not for yevon, but for spira.] 10. bastille - get home we are the last people standing at the end of the night, we are the greatest pretenders in the cold morning light [they pass so so many memorials and monuments. she begins to feel like they’re the last people standing tall against all the cruelity in this world.] 11. fever ray - keep the streets empty for me a lot of hope in an one man tent, there’s no room for innocence, so take me home before the storm, velvet moths will keep us warm  [she looks around and beams at every single one of them. there’s wakka and lulu, there’s tidus, there’s sir auron, there’s rikku and there’s kimahri. everyone who swore to protect her on their pilgrimage with their lives. she doesn’t know all of them for already as long as she wishes to. and as she calls „everyone! let’s go!“ and follows behind the people she holds most dear in the world, she has never been happier.] 12. final fantasy x ost - to zanarkand (piano) [as they get closer to zanarkand, everyone gets quieter. talks less, thinks more, she can feel their stares at her bare back. as they get to zanarkand, there is no talking. just them and the ruins and her.]

but somehow she knows this is what she’s been walking towards her whole life and this is it.

she’s sick of people patronizing her and telling her what to do. she knows pretty well what she’s doing and it’s not crying for help.

Yes.

Map Of The Problematique - Muse

All About Us - t.A.T.u

Riot Van - Arctic Monkeys

Implosions - Agent Fresco

Electra Heart - Marina & The Diamonds

(I had so many good song ideas for this from like the Beatles and Eminem and RHCP but these go kind of well together, I spent like 20 minutes on this uvu)

love, hunt me down: “you were there too, fang. same side. all of us. together to the end.” [fang / light]

01. two steps from hell: united we stand, divided we fall [lightning] it’s not too long you find each other back to back and surrounded by sanctum soldiers. two strangers who barely know each other but it still feels more familiar than it ever has with anybody else. senses focussed sharp on battle, you vaguely registers the heat radiating off the other body next to you, tightening the grip on her gunblade. „ready when you are, sunshine.“ you know you kinda should be confused about the petname, but you can’t bring yourself to care. 02. fall out boy: alone together i don’t know where you going but do you got room for one more troubled soul? [lightning] it’s just one more night that feels like you’re just straying the closed off and dark town and aren’t getting any closer to finishing this damn thing, to getting serah back, when suddenly her voice breaks the silence. „did she like the stars?“ you slow your movements and look at her. „serah, of course, who else“, she says. „yeah, she does. especially the fireworks.“ „vanille, too. didn’t get so many fireworks round on gran pulse, still dragged me out every other bright and clear night.“ you look up at the clear sky, a smile tugging at the corner of your mouth. 03. breaking benjamin: give me a sign and i can see you starting to break, i’ll keep you alive if you show me the way, forever and ever the scars will remain [fang] it’s like she has a sixth sense for it. everytime the wheels in your mind start turning and you realize how fucked up all of this is. vanille is slowly going cie’th and you feel like you’re doing nothing to help her. but she notices. somehow, she notices every single time you’re starting to crumble and builds you back up before you can even think of breaking down. and somehow, she even cares. 04. florence + the machine: kiss with a fist love sticks, sweat drips, break the lock if it don’t fit vanille frowns as the tall man flopps down next to her with an heavy sigh. „what is it this time“, she mumbles not even looking up from the flower she was currently plucking leaves from in her lap. „i don’t even know anymore.“ she throws the flower onto the grass and looks at him. „ugh, they’re just…“, sazh waves his hands about until he points an accusing finger in direction of their campfire. „they’re doing it. again.“ vanille looks over to the fire where lightning and fang are obviously arguing; over the food, the fire, lightning’s hairstyle, she doesn’t even know anymore. „let ‘em“, she smiles. sazh groans in frustration. „freaking old bickering couple, they are.“ „that, indeed.“ 05. florence + the machine: hardest of hearts darling heart, i loved you from the start, but that’s no excuse for the state i’m in [fang] „you mean, right from the beginning?“ while you’re wiping tears from your face, a sigh escapes your lips as how thick she’s being. „yeah.“ „palumpolum, then?“ „that’s what i kinda mean with beginning, yeah.“ „why didn’t you say?“ you snort lightly. „we were kinda busy, weren’t we.“ „huh, guess we were.“ you can’t see it, but you can hear in her voice she’s crying. because she knows it doesn’t matter now. because it’s almost over now anyway. and she doesn’t know what you’re planning to do, but she knows that it’s nothing good because she just knows. and you both know that you’ve been a fool and didn’t get it out earlier. and you both know that there isn’t gonna be an happy ending for such tales. 06. daughter: touch love, hunt me down, i can’t stand to be so dead behind the eyes, and feed me, spark me up, the creature in my bloodstream chews me up [fang] it really feels like a dead town, with everybody of your little band fast asleep in the rotten buildings and you sitting on the last stairs leading up to the desterted schoolhouse. you can hear the cie’th you haven’t had the strength to finish off anymore still stumbling in the distance, forever lost. you’re wondering just how much you really have in common with those poor lost souls when you hear the stairs creaking softly and recognize her presence. she silently sits down next to you, nudges your shoulder. you don’t say a thing because you know you don’t need to. you just drop your head in the nape of her neck and when she presses a kiss to the crown of your hair you let go of a breath you didn’t know you’ve been holding. 07. lamb: gorecki if i should die this very moment i wouldn’t fear, for i’ve never known completeness like being here [lightning] your heart is full of regrets every single time you visit the temple they built round the crystal pillar. but this time when you close your eyes and lay your hand on the cold surface of the crystal figurines, your fingertips touch warm skin instead. 08. 2cellos feat. naya rivera: supermassive black hole i thought i was a fool for no one, but oh baby, i’m a fool for you [lightning] you’re just walking down the stairs to get breakfast when you see it. „fang, what are you doing?“ „good morning to you too, sunshine. i’m watching tv.“ „no, it’s 8am in the morning, you’re in our livingroom on our couch and in your underwear.“ „and i’m watching tv.“ „why?“ „because i’m lazy.“ „i meant why are you in your underwear.“ „because i showered and i’m lazy.“ „would you put some clothes on?“ „do you really want me to?“ you huff and disappear into the kitchen to finally get that breakfast. it’s 8.15 when you return with coffee and squeeze in next to her, she naturally puts her head into your lap. „it is vanille’s couch, too, y’know.“ „oh i’m sure, she wouldn’t mind.“ you sip at your coffee and just roll your eyes. „wanna bet on it?“ 09. ida maria: i like you so much better when you’re naked cause i like you so much better when you’re naked and i like me so much better when you’re naked [lightning] it’s one of those nights when serah and snow get together all of you and drag you into one of these cocktailbars down at the beach. you were just following serah and vanille’s conversation sipping at your drink when that song comes up in the background. across the table, your eyes find hers immediately and it’s almost funny how her whole face lits up and you know exactly what’s going on in that thick head of hers. „no“, you interrupt when she opens her mouth to say something. „don’t even think about it.“ „eh, what’s it with you two again“, sazh calls over sitting next to fang. she says nothing then, just raises an eyebrow at you. and for your liking, grins a bit too smugly. 10. ellie goulding: burn cause we got the fire and we’re burning one hell of a something, they, they gonna see us from outer space, outer space, light it up, like we’re the stars of the human race [fang] it almost feels surreal with everyone sitting in the big hall down, pleasantly stuffed with food and drinks and serah and snow – now a married couple – opening with the first dance. „i’d never thought i’d… actually be happy for them“, she mumbles next to you as the first song comes to an end. she even smiles at them kissing again when the music turns to something more upbeat and you can’t help smiling with her. „come on, sunshine, let’s join the happy couple, eh?“ 11. msmr: btsk i found you in pieces, you'd been torn apart, a million one reasons to end before you start, but deep down i knew, no matter what in the end, it'd be me and you [lightning] you snuggle closer to get back just a bit of the sheets she has such a strong grip on in her sleep and earn grumbled nonsense. in life it seems, it all comes down to the wrong and right decisions. giving in to her and being brave enough to love her was definitely one of the better ones.