#placebo

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secret vacation with your situationship

(title is a song by Placebo) (beach episode)

It’s actually pretty sweet they’re lowk in love, I felt soft idk I’m sorry.

alcohol but nothing extreme, heavy makeout and sex in a public space, very affectionate, confessions in bed, it’s their first time together, Gerard is a sweetheart

Gerard and you weren’t a secret for a while now. Awkward glances at school, catching each other’s eye while walking at the mall, he with his brother and you with your friends and family. Trying to make you look out your window at the middle of the night when he was desperate to see you.

Everything he did made your stomach swoon. And still, everyone were against it.

Gerard was a few years older than you, just finished college, while you were only getting started. It wasn’t a big deal, in your opinion. But people seemed to think differently than you. Especially your father. Every time he caught a glimpse of Gerard and he was already mumbling all about those punks that contribute nothing to society.

You felt bad, offering Gerard nothing but an apologetic look as you disappeared from sight.

This week was going to be different, though.

You planned it all. Leaving first thing in the morning, the end of the school year. Lying to your dad you’re going to a camping site with your friends, packing light and hopping to Gerard’s van and not leaving it for days. Your nerves were buzzing. It was going to be everything you hoped for.

And sure enough, the big day arrived. 6 am sharp and your phone buzzed with a text from Gerard, notifying you he was outside. You hurriedly brushed your hair again, making sure you look decent as you threw your backpack on your shoulder, leaving the house less than 5 minutes later.

And there he was. Oily black hair tugged behind his ear, stupid big glasses plastered to his pale face, and a cheeky grin that he always wore while looking at you. You couldn’t help but smile as you approached the car, throwing your bag on the backseat as you closed the door after you. “Hey, sugar.” He immediately kissed the side of your head, his hand finding its spot on your bare thigh. It was a hot summer day, and you wore as little clothes as you were able to.

You smiled and leaned closer to him, watching as he got the van started, your house disappearing from sight. “I can’t believe we’re actually doing that..” you mumbled excitedly, smiling bigger at the sound of Gerard giggling from your words. “Can’t believe I get to do it with you.” He replied, his bitten nails scratching your thigh gently, making you sink further into your sit.

The drive went by fast. Gerard burned a CD especially for the both of you, a perfect mix of the music you fancied so you won’t have to fight over aux. the sound of him chewing gum mixed with the heavy guitars and vocals was weirdly calming, and soon enough you fell asleep, allowing him to reach your destination in comfortable silence. Gerard woke you up with some pecks to your face, his hot breath making you giggle as you opened your eyes, opening your arms for him to pull you further against him. He chuckled pressed to your neck, the hard material of his glasses digging into your jaw. “Mornin’ sleepy head.” He mumbled, pulling away to look at you, his usual smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth.

You tugged a piece of hair behind his ear, kissing his lips softly. “Sorry. Didn’t get much sleep last night.” You said with a smile, moving his sunglasses to the top of his head so you’ll be able to see his eyes. His smirk turned to a smile as he tilted his head, pulling you to his lap with a small huff. You giggled, letting your hands rest on his shoulders as you stared down at him, loving the view. Gerard was so pretty. You couldn’t believe you weren’t able to see it until not too long ago. His brown roots started to show, giving his pale face a nice hallow that went stupidly well with his green eyes. You nibbled on your lower lip as you leaned down to capture his lips in a kiss again, pushing your tongue into his mouth this time.

Gerard greeted it with great pleasure, his hands finding your lower back, fucked up nails scratching against your soft skin as he rubbed his tongue against yours, his chapped lips moving against you in a perfect rhythm. You hummed against his lips, and he swallowed it with a groan of his own. After a long minute that felt like a hour you broke it, a small string of saliva connecting the both of you until you wiped your mouth with the back of your hand, only then staring out the window at the spot he drove to.

It was beautiful. A campground by the sea, something Gerard would never consider stepping a foot in unless you asked him to. You straightened your back, still sitting on his lap as you took it all in, smiling with your hands on his chest. “Like what you see, honey?” He asked, following your eyes with his, his hands stroking your hips gently, grounding you like he always did. You hummed and nodded, finally turning your face back towards him, only to see he was already staring up at you. “Can’t believe I’m going to see you touching sand.” You joked, coaxing a throaty chuckle out of him, that only made you smile harder. “Don’t get used to it. Yer lucky you’re cute.” Gerard noted, giving your ass a small slap that made you roll your eyes jokingly. His hands already traveled upward in an attempt to pull you for another kiss, but you quickly hopped back to your sit, laughing at his groan.

“Cmon. I wanna see if you’re able to tan.” You said with a giggle, already opening the car door and hopping towards his just in time to see him jump to the ground. “Yer dreamin.” He said, hands already tugged down in his pockets as he made his way towards the trunk, shaking his head as he opened it. “Come ooonnn! don’t be a dick. I’m not gonna be there alone.” You continued, watching Gerard picking up a rolled blanket and a bag that sounded like it was filled to the brim with bottles of beer. He smiled and rolled his eyes, making sure you were following him as he made his way towards the beach.

“I’m not removing my shirt.” He announced while putting the blanket on the awfully white sand, lifting his gaze just in time to see you remove your clothes, exposing your swimsuit. Gerard grinned, licking his teeth and running his fingers through his hair as he approached you. “Looking damn fine, sugar.” You rolled your eyes at how cheesy he sounded, but couldn’t help but smile at the feeling of his hands on your waist as he ogled at your exposed form. “You sure know your way with words.” You teased, taking a step back to remove your pants. He chuckled, allowing you to do as you pleased as long as he got to watch. “What? Can’t a man flatter his girl?” He added, and you couldn’t help the twist that hurt your stomach at his words. his girl. You never fully agreed on being a thing. The topic was never brought up. You nibbled on your lower lip, pushing those thoughts down. “Of course he can.” You replied with a smile, hands on your hips as you felt the breeze on your skin, laughing at the irony of him being fully dressed in black at a place like this.

“What’s so funny?” He asked with a giggle, bending down to open his bag, already taking out two bottles of beer out of it. “Nothing. You’re actually plan on staying like that?” You asked, watching him opening the bottles and handing you one. You took a sip as he replied. “What? I thought you like my vampiric look.” He joked, taking a big sip as you giggled, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand.

“Guess I’ll go to the water all by myself.” You continued, your voice slightly teasing as you stretched, enjoying the heat on your exposed legs and torso. Gerard couldn’t help but stare, his words getting caught in his throat as you straightened your back, running your fingers through your hair as you turned to look at him, a knowing smirk on your face. “Or.. you can join me? Just for a bit?” You tried again, resting your hands on your hips, giggling as Gerard hurriedly removed his shirt, exposing his pale chest. “I’m so going to regret this.” He mumbled, already hissing at the feeling of the sun on his skin. You rolled your eyes, leaning to give his cheek a big kiss before heading towards the water. “grumpy.”

Gerard followed you, can’t help the way his eyes dragged on your form as you walked ahead of him, the way your hips swayed going straight to his head. You hissed at the feeling of the cold water against your legs, taking another moment to adjust before stepping further into the water. Gerard stopped a step away from you. “See? It’s evil. I don’t get you.” He shouted as you walked further away from him, chuckling at his words. “Shut up Gee, get your ass here!” You replied with a giggle, the lower half of your body already well adjusted to the temperature.

He cursed under his breath as he kept walking after you, hissing and whining about the water, mumbling to himself, looking like a cat that was forced to take a shower. You watched him with a ridiculously big smile as he approached you, already waiting with your arms stretched. Gerard finally made it, immediately collapsing with his head against your neck, his hands finding their spot on your hips as he breathed heavily like he just finished a long run. “Yer such a drama queen..” you whispered, face pressed to his hair, your fingers scratching his scalp gently. He grunted, pulling away from you after a long moment, his stupid sunglasses still resting on his pointy nose.

You laughed at the sight, running your fingers through his hair. “Look at ya now. Not touching sand alright.” You teased, your cheeks already hurting from smiling nonstop. Gerard couldn’t help the grin on his face as he pulled your hips to his, making you huff. “You can be very persuasive, sugar.” You rolled your eyes at his flirtatious tone, smiling nonetheless. His eyes dropped to your lips, and back to your eyes. It was funny, how not smooth he was. “Yer such a flirt.” You replied, your voice coming out a little quieter than you intended. Gerard leaned closer, his breath hitting your face as he spoke. “Got a problem with it?” You shook your head, opening your mouth to reply, but he didn’t let you- already pressing his chapped lips to your soft ones.

Your eyes widened for a second before you gave in, allowing your arms to rest around his neck as he kissed you, tilting his head to make it deeper. His fingers dug into the flesh of your ass, holding you as close as he could to him. After long minutes, he started grinding his hips upwards, the thin layer of the swimsuit not masking the feeling of his hardening cock rubbing against you. You whimpered into his mouth, breaking the kiss. “I still wanna tan.” You mumbled, voice a little breathless, a giggle escaping your lips at the dramatic roll of his eyes you got in return. “Didn’t know it’s more important than me.” Gerard said with a pout, rolling his hips once more. You smiled, your teeth digging into your lower lip, hands resting on his chest, that already started to redden.

“Y’know it’s not true.” You replied, already making your way towards the beach, hearing him hurrying after you. “Do I?” He yelled as you stepped onto the sand, drying your hair a little as he approached, finally pushing his glasses to the top of his head. His face was all scrunched up as he watched you, the sun hurting his eyes. You giggled at the sight, laying down on the blanket with a huff, already handing him his bottle of beer as he sat down. “My kind of girl.” He mumbled out before taking a big sip, digging in his bag for his cigarettes. It took another moment and a bunch of curses, but he eventually handed you one, waiting for you to place it between your lips before lighting it for you and the one he had for himself.

You took a long inhale, fixing your swimsuit on your body as the sun boiled you alive. Gerard was hugging his knees, looking around at the empty beach for a minute before turning his gaze back to you. “Is this gonna take a while?” He asked, downing whatever was left in his bottle before throwing it aside. You rolled your eyes, covering your face from the sun as you stared up at him. “If you’re going to be annoying about this, you can wait in the van.” You answered, all annoyed, before closing your eyes again. He huffed, digging in his bag for another bottle. You smiled to yourself, he actually was a grumpy cat. “..or, you can just join me. I promise it’s not that bad.” You tried again. Gerard rested his head on your chest, his arm thrown on your stomach. The awkward tan you’re going to get is going to be a problem for future you, he was being too sweet right now.

You fingers found his hair again, wet this time, ruffling it like he was your dog. You smiled to yourself at the thought, taking a deep inhale of your cigarette, ashing it to the side. Gerard allowed himself to bury his face further between your boobs, his other hand resting on the string that ties the bottom part of the swimsuit onto your body. You blushed, your face somehow getting hotter than it was thanks to the sun. You and Gerard already did a lot of things together. Mostly sucking each other off, making out for hours, but not sex, and never in a public space. You couldn’t help but feel intrigued. The beach was indeed very empty, and you decided to see where Gerard was going with this.

Almost like he was reading your mind, he started to gently kiss the area between your breasts, slowly lifting himself until he was on all fours above you, both of his hands on your exposed lower stomach, making you shift under him. He looked up at you for a second, the sight sending a jolt right through your core. His hair was disheveled from the water and the sun, glasses that fell to the tip of his nose, green eyes staring down at you, mouth slightly open from pressing kisses onto your torso. A small smirk tugged at the corner of his lips as he watched your embarrassed expression. “Hottest thing I’ve seen, baby.” He whispered, leaning down again. You bit your lower lip as you felt his hand climbing upwards towards your chest. “Can I?” He asked, and you immediately nodded, slightly arching to the feeling of his hand cupping your boob. He smiled, his thumb flicking your nipple, making you sigh and relax in his hands.

Gerard smiled against your warm skin, his fingers stroking your bare stomach until they got to the string of your panties, just holding them as he planted kisses on your exposed flesh. His other hand kept massaging your boobs, his semi getting harder at the soft sounds that escaped your mouth. He moved further down, kissing dangerously close to your core before looking up at you, his gaze catching yours. “Gonna let me make you feel good, babe?” He asked, throwing his sunglasses to the blanket right beside you. You moved to lean on your elbows, staring down at him as you nodded. “Please..” you breathed out, and Gerard didn’t need to hear anything else. He looked around one more time, making sure that no one approached as he removed your panties, untying them and letting the soaked material stay beside you. He inhaled sharply at the sight of you, his tongue darting out to wet his lips before he started to plant kisses around your inner thighs. “Missed you..” he mumbled, both of his hands now tugging at your plush thighs, making your head dizzy.

You bucked your hips upwards, wanting him to give you more. Anything at all. You loved how soft Gerard could be with you, how worshipful. Gerard smiled against your skin, his eyes burning as he looked up at you. “I know, honey.” He practically whispered, before finally kissing your sensitive clit. The touch was so gentle, but it was enough to make a soft moan escape your mouth. You needed him since the moment you saw him hours ago. Gerard sighed in return, pressing his pink tongue against the bundle of nerves in soft little movements, making your thighs clench around his head as pleasure started to swim through your body. He moaned at that, his hands pushing your thighs further close together, the feeling of suffocation making his dick harder. He kept licking at you, heightening your pleasure until it was all you felt. The sun blinded you as you opened your eyes to look down at his messy hair between your legs, high pitched moans escaping your parted lips as you reached your high. Your thighs shook around Gerard’s head as you came all over his face, getting sensitive from the feeling of him moaning against you.

After a long minute, he finally pulled back and looked up at you, licking his lips before wiping them with the back of his hands. He sat up, the tent between his legs looking almost painful. You breathed heavily, managing to compose yourself before pulling him to a kiss, your lips crashing against his with a soft whine as your fingers dug into his chest, trying to pull him closer, needing him in every way possible. Gerard felt the exact same way. He pushed his tongue into your mouth, one of his hands on your breast and the other on your hips, holding your body in place under him, bucking his hips into nothing, desperate to feel any kind of pleasure he could get. You knew what he needed, and you wanted to give that to him. You brought your hand to the front of his swimming shorts, feeling the shape of his hard cock against your palm. He inhaled sharply, letting his head fall and rest against your neck, nibbling at your jaw for a second. “Please..” it was his turn to beg, huffing softly against your skin as he rolled his hips, rubbing his clothed dick against your hand desperately.

You smiled, running your fingers down his back as you bit your lower lip. You felt so empty and so needy. You needed him too. “Get those off..” you mumbled, watching him as he hurried to do as he was told, almost falling on his face from how quickly he moved. You chuckled, your eyes dropping to his pink tip as it hit his lower stomach with a wet sound. You licked your lips, your head getting clouded with lust at the sight, mouth dropping open in a silent plea. Gerard wrapped his long fingers around his cock, his shoulders shaking with every movement, his tongue resting on his lower lip as he stared down at you hungrily. “h-how do you need me, sugar?” He breathed out, rubbing his tip with his thumb, making soft sighs and moans escape his parted lips. You almost whined at his question, prompting yourself on your elbows again as you stared at his pale torso, decorated with dark hairs that reached all the way down to his crotch. You bit your lower lip, your hips moving without you noticing. “n-need you inside, please..” you breathed out, catching Gerard off guard. His hand stopped at the base of his cock, staring down at you hungrily.

“you sure? We don’t have to, sugar.” He sounded out of breath, like it took everything in him to say it, but it still made your heart warm. You smiled softly, nodding, bringing one of your hands to his cock, making him moan. “I want to, Gee. Please.” You whispered, pulling him closer to your wet heat while staring into his eyes. Gerard’s pupils were blown wide as he cupped your cheek, pulling you into a deep kiss while rubbing his tip against your folds, moaning into each other mouths. You eventually parted, breathing heavily with your foreheads resting together. “t-thank you, sugar. Fuck- yer so perfect..” he choked out, starting to push his tip into your tight pussy. He threw his head back, moving his hands to your hips to ground himself as he bottomed out. His Adam’s apple bobbed as he tried to compose himself, shakily moaning and twitching with his fingers digging into your flesh, enjoying the feeling of you wrapped around him like a perfect sleeve.

“Been dreamin’ of this.. holy shit, yer fuckin amazing..” Gerard blabbered out, a small giggle escaping his throat at the pure ecstasy he felt.- the realization of the space you two were in making him choke, looking around for a moment before staring back down at you with a noise that didn’t sound like less than a growl.

“y-you like this, huh?” He breathed out, his voice suddenly raspier as he started to slowly move inside of you, making your eyes roll back as you nodded frantically. “Bet you do, baby. My dirty fuckin girl- l-lovin it when I use her in public like that. Shit.. fuckin made f’me..” Gerard moaned, his pace rising as he spoke, his tip hitting that spot inside you that made your entire body shake with it, your head getting flooded with nothing but pleasure. “Yer fuckin beautiful, baby, oh god.. m-my beautiful girl..” he breathed out, his green eyes burning holes into you as he drank the sight of you up. All laid out for him, body arching as your cunt swallowed him over and over again, the sight only making Gerard moan louder, his hands stroking every piece of skin he could reach.

The view above you was no less than enchanting. Gerard’s hair was a mess, moving at the pace of his thrusts, forcing him to tug a piece behind his ear every other moment. His pink chapped lips were open, tongue resting on his lower lip, sweat dripping from his forehead all the way down to his neck- the sun making his look shiny. His words got to your head. His girl. His beautiful girl. You inhaled sharply, letting out a soft moan of his name as his cock hit you deep over and over again.

Gerard moaned in return, grabbing both of your legs and pressing the back of your knees to his chest, making the thrusts hit even deeper. Your eyes rolled back as he spoke, your brain barely processing anything he was saying, turning to mush from everything you felt. “That’s it, baby.. say my name, s-say my fuckin name..” he practically whined out, fingers digging into your thighs as he drilled himself into you, pupils so big his eyes looked almost black. You arched your back, fingers digging into the blanket under you as you choked on pleasure and heightened emotions. Tears threatened to fall from your eyes as you stared up at him, forcing yourself to move your head to the side and break the intense gaze.

Gerard noticed immediately. Of course he did. He slowed his thrusts down to gentle movements, allowing your legs to drop from his torso and back to the comfort of the blanket. His hands found your waist, gently caressing you as he spoke. “Yer in pain? Is everythin alright?” He asked, whispering as he pressed kisses to the side of your face. You immediately nodded, cursing yourself for ruining the mood like that. Gerard wasn’t a fool, though. You spent enough time together for him to know when something was wrong. “Cmon. You can tell me, sugar.” He stopped moving completely, one of his hands moving to scratch your scalp before moving your head so you’ll be looking at him again. He frowned, noticing your eyes being shiny from tears. You nibbled on your lower lip, feeling nothing but helplessness as you looked up at him.

Gerard immediately wore a worried expression as he stared down at you, tilting his head to the side, checking his surroundings for a moment before looking back at you. “Say the word and I’ll stop. Last thing I want is to hurt you, babe.” He added after another long moment of silence. When you didn’t reply, he already started to drag his hips back to pull out, before you wrapped your ankles around him, making him stop in his tracks. He looked down at you with a confused expression, begging you to explain with his eyes. You let out a big breath you didn’t know you were holding, closing your eyes for a second before opening your mouth to speak.

“Gerard I-“ you stopped yourself, seeing too much emotions in his eyes for you to keep going. “Forget it.. can we keep going? Please?” You tried, already regretting your actions, hating yourself for making stuff weird. Gerard shook his head, eyes shaky as he watched you. “Please, y/n. What is it?” He tried again, moving from knee to knee as he spoke, feeling him still buried inside made you giggle, and the way Gerard’s face lit up at the sound made you slightly more comfortable. “I guess, I know it’s stupid, please don’t make fun of me or anything- but I’ve been thinking about it, and I-“ he stopped you with a kiss to your lips, making you pout, feeling stupid. “I like you too.” He said, making a stupid smile climb to your face. “You do?” You asked, voice way too shy than what you intended it to be. Gerard chuckled, running his fingers through his hair as he straightened himself again, nodding. “I do. Shit.. I really do.” He smiled, leaning down to kiss you again.

You kissed back just as urgently, deepening it and adding tongue almost immediately, not wanting to ruin the moment with any stupid words. You moved your hips a little, thanking any god that was listening when Gerard got the clue and started moving again. His thrusts were slower, deeper, like he was pouring emotions at every movement of his hips and right into the core of you. You sighed calmly, wrapping your arms around his neck and digging your fingers into his scalp as he fucked you, legs wrapped around his hips for support. Gerard moaned into your neck, kissing it softly, letting out an occasional groan as your pussy clenched around him.

“Yer everything,, everything I need, baby..” he mumbled out, his pace quickening as he got closer and closer to his peak. You whined, arching further against him, encouraging him to cum. “n-need you Gee, cmon.. let me feel you..” you breathed out, moaning into his hair as he pulled out, spraying cum all over your stomach as he panted heavily above you, holding the base of his cock. The both of you breathed heavily in a comfortable silence for another moment, before he quickly got up, offering you a hand. You were confused but you took it, letting out a surprised giggle as he pulled you up, his arm around your waist for support as you made your way to the water, your legs all shaky.

Gerard smiled, walking into the sea and pushing you in once you were deep enough. He chuckled loudly, all high pitched and smiley as you cursed him. He dove in right after, pulling you into a hug, silencing you with kisses. “Had to get you cleaned up somehow, sugar.” He finally explained, laughing at the roll of your eyes. “So..” he said, dragging the ‘o’ as you stared at him, smiling at the way his hair stuck to his neck. “So?” You asked, bringing your hands to his torso. “Can I call you my girlfriend now? Or is that too weird these days. I don’t really know.” Gerard asked, voice confident, but he was clearly fidgety. You giggled, pressing a big kiss to his lips.

“You can call me your girlfriend, Gee.” You replied, smiling at the way he smiled against your lips.

“So as your boyfriend.. can we never go to the beach again?” He tried, and immediately got pushed into the water.