man get out!

sorry like one day i’ll just shut my stupid mouth about ep 2 bathroom scene but i think jacob tierney should win every award there is for wow, genetic. like i remember watching that and thinking huh that’s such a specific word for him to choose for that scene like out of all the more complex english words that ilya could say there that would impress/endear/surprise shane, jacob picked “genetic.” and the way it lingers in the air for a few moments after shane whispers it and the cut to ilya suppressing any emotion he’s ever had is so poignant and makes that little word feel so significant and i think ohhhh ok.. that’s truly The Thesis of the story: they’re both constantly thinking and silently pleading there are parts of me that have been there since the beginning and i can’t change them. the color of my hair and my eyes the family i was born into the freckles and moles on my skin the ambition and the aggression and the athleticism the faulty wiring in my brain the things i desire the kind of people i love the person i am in love with. it’s all ingrained and innate and i can hide and bury and shield it all but i can’t change any of it, i really did try i tried really hard but i just can’t help it it’s genetic. wow. genetic…….