this is everything i didn't say.

— @sixwordssayitall

I honestly asked my friend this same question just hours ago as I was clueless myself but thinking about it now I think it’s when for the first time after what seemed like a dreadful year (or life), you look forward to waking every morning knowing he (let’s use he as it’s me talking) will be there for you. I think it’s just plain seeing him and being happy that’s he’s around. It’s being happy just by hearing his voice. No matter how bad your day is, one message from him would make your entire day. It’s when he makes you want to write long letters and huge poems. It’s not all about “lust”- it’s more of the intimate relationship you have together. It’s when the simplest of things count. It’s when you start to mature and start to plan something with him for the future. It’s when he makes you want to start fixing your life. It’s when he’s always in your head 3 pm or 3 am. It’s when you can’t stop talking or thinking about him. It’s when you just really always miss him even if he’s right beside you. It’s the “I used to like green eyes but now blue eyes are my favorite”. It’s when all love and cheesy stuff just apply for him. It’s when you begin to see nothing but him and you value him like you value yourself. It’s not the “heart pounding, hands sweating” feeling but more of the “I feel home” feeling. It’s more of like talking to yourself- being yourself with someone without worries. It’s when you begin to really trust him with everything and that includes your happiness. It’s when he’s your happiness. It’s when subconsciously you change for the better. It’s when you once again start opening up after a long time. It’s when you are denying it at most cause you are afraid of how strong you feel and last I think while you’re reading this- there’s someone in your head right now and you’re just contemplating whether you’re in love with him or not but hey the fact that he or she is the person (out of billions of people) in your mind while you read this must say a lot.

And you move forward because you won’t find the right person for you while you’re holding onto the wrong one.

I don’t wanna ruin you.

I bet this is just a ploy. You’re probably not even really here.

I think that’s love // Deeply Feeling Series  (via promisesofamazing)

I just want to let you know that it is going to get better. It will. I know it feels like the end of the world right now, and I know you’re in pain. I know what it’s like to feel like that. But I promise you you’re going to reach a point in your life and you’ll find someone who loves you - truly loves you, and you’ll never have to doubt it for a second. You’ll go days without crying, and forget about all the days you were sobbing on your bedroom floor, feeling helpless and lonely. I want you to know that it is okay if you don’t feel okay right now. We all have bad days, and even if this feels like a bad life - it’s not. You’ve got so much to live for. You’ve got more places to travel to, and new people to meet. You have languages to learn and food to try. You have so much left to experience. And if you just hang in for a little while longer, everything will be okay in the end. You can do this.

brain: destroy

me, rollin up to my therapist’s office and collapsing in relief: what is UP my homeboy I fuckin missed you,, hope ur ready to hear some Bull Shit that fuckin happened to me this week

actual parents of depressed kids: look i get you’re sad but someones gotta do the goddamn dishes stop being lazy get up. why didn’t you go to school today, what’s wrong with you, you’re such a burden on this family.

My real live therapist whom I adore: Natalie, that is the DUMBEST thing I’ve ever heard.

My therapist Brian who I love to death: Jack, I think your first problem is you stay up too late looking at memes, so let’s try taking a nap

My therapist: *laughs awkwardly*

my current therapist ian, in our very first appointment: do you like star wars? anxiety is like the force, it can consume you, or you can learn to keep it in balance… you’re my padawan now

I’ll add more tomorrow after I see her again.