My Thought Bubble

//social anxiety

He knows he's being ridiculous. Walls, it's just a street full of people around you, and in the center of a Trost market. Of course you're going to be just two in a sea of people. But that's just the problem.

Levi gets an instinctive feeling to shake your arm away and take up vigil at your back—he's already glancing over his own. He's not claustrophobic, but he feels like he scarcely has room to breathe. No matter how much any one of these people cares about personal space, an arm or a shoulder will brush against him ever so often as they pass. You gave him a confused glance to his scowl, and he just muttered, "They're getting their disgusting germs on me."

You put your arm around him, in all the same places he was being touched. You smiled. "There. Better?"

"...Maybe."

But every individual turns faceless in a crowd. No one is not a threat. The Underground markets are leaps and bounds different than any place Above, but old habits die hard. His eyes dart from person to person, as if any of them may turn around and bite his head off.

Navigating around a couple and their son, you point out a stall that interests you, and in the chaos, he has to shove harder than necessary to catch up. He seizes your hand—again, too rough; he knows and can't help it—and glances around again.

"Stay close."

With a frown, you turn towards him, like two unmoving fish in a racing current, and turn his cheek to grab his attention. "Levi, are you afraid—"

"There's too many to track their movements, that's all," he's quick to say.

You shake your head. "But you don't have to do that! It's okay: after this, we can leave."

His lips press. "If you want to."

You give his hand a comforting squeeze, and kiss him quickly on the lips. "Don't worry, I'll stay close. I’m not going anywhere.”

Warnings: nightmares

Levi always seemed cold and heartless, but there was a side of him no one really got to see. The only time anyone got to see this side of him was when they were balancing on the line of life and death.

Levi never liked it when people saw him so vulnerable and caring because he always thought it would ruin his reputation and people would stop respecting him. But there are very very rare occasions when Levi pulls out his caring and compassionate side to a cadet who was not dying. Tonight just so happened to be one of those nights.

The short corporal noticed her absence almost immediately. It wasn’t because he saw that Y/N’s seat was empty at the table her friends sat at. It wasn’t even because he asked around for her. It was simple, really. On his way to the mess hall he heard Mikasa, Eren, and Armin talking about her condition. 

“She hasn’t left her room since chores,” Armin said to his friends. “I’m really worried about her.”

“Do you know what’s wrong Mikasa?” Eren asked the female. It made sense; Mikasa did share a cabin with the girl in question. Mikasa looked between her two friends before answering.

“She’s just overworking herself,” Mikasa answered. “More than she should, if I’m honest. But I haven’t seen her any more today than the both of you have. She won’t let us anywhere near her and when we try to talk to her, she doesn’t answer.” Levi had heard enough. Once he was done eating, he would go make sure Y/N wasn’t dead.

She didn’t come to dinner and the more Levi thought about it, she hadn’t come down for lunch either. He made his way to the female cabin, a small piece of bread tucked away in his hand. He knocked on the door loudly.

“Cadet L/N,” he called through the door. “May I come in?” There was no response. Frustrated, Levi threw open the door. “When I call for you Cadet you better—” Levi started to scold before he cut himself off. He didn’t know why, but he couldn’t finish his sentence. Y/N lay on the bed in the corner of the room, whimpering softly. As he got closer, Levi could see tear stains across her face. “Cadet?” He gently placed the piece of bread on the small rotting bookshelf beside the bed before pulling a chair away from a nearby desk. Levi sat down in the chair beside Y/N’s bed, watching her carefully. He knew that you should never wake someone from a nightmare because that could do more harm than good. So instead of waking the girl up he took her hand and held it gently.

As Levi waited for Y/N’s nightmare to pass, it only grew worse. She started to mumble inaudible words and move around. She started to cry harder and her breathing began to go irregular. Out of nowhere Y/N screamed, high pitched voice piercing the silence of the night. Levi jumped out of his seat at the noise then tried to get the girl to calm down. He pinned down the wrist of the hand he had been holding. She had started to thrash around, posing as a threat to both herself and Levi.

“Cadet!” Levi said sternly. He climbed onto the bed, trying to get over Y/N’s legs. “Wake up!” He managed to straddle her, pinning her wrists down with his hands and keeping her legs still with his knees, digging them into her thighs. “Y/N!”

With a gasp Y/N’s eyes snapped open, fear evident in her eyes. She made eye contact with Levi almost immediately. 

“C-C-Captain,” she choked through her tears. Levi’s eyes softened as he moved off of her legs but he kept his grip on her wrists. 

“Yes,” he said calmly. “It’s me, I’m here now.” He slowly released Y/N and she quickly wrapped her arms around his neck, sobbing into his chest. It took him by surprise at first, then he also wrapped his arms around her, holding her steady. He rested his chin on her shoulder. “Breathe Cadet.” Levi ran one hand up and down her back as the other combed through her hair. “You are going to hyperventilate if we don’t get your breathing under control.” Nothing you were trying was able to calm you down. If anything, it made matters worse.

“W-Where’s Petra?” she choked again. “A-And the squad?” Levi’s breath hitched as he very quickly realized what was going on. Levi gripped you tight and squeezed his eyes shut.

“Oh Cadet,” he breathed quietly. “Breathe. You need to breathe.” His attempts failed at calming down Y/N, so Levi gently pulled her head to rest right above his heart, taking large and exaggerated deep breaths. “Breathe with me.”

It took a few moments for Levi to give up, smashing his lips against hers. Breathing out, he forced air into Y/N’s lungs. She gasped before coughing and breathing on her own.

“Captain?!” she exclaimed. Levi wiped the tears from her face with his thumbs, sighing. 

“There you are,” he smiled softly. “You were stuck in a nightmare for a moment. You’re alright now.”

“W-What?” she muttered, confused, Levi pulled her back into a tight hug. She stayed still for a moment before hugging Levi loosely. Silence sat between the two of them for a moment. “Captain?” she questioned quietly into his shoulder. “Why are you here?”

“I overheard your friends talking about how they were worried about you before dinner,” Levi answered. “And then I noticed that you weren’t at dinner or lunch.” He suddenly remembered the piece of bread sitting next to the bed. He slowly leaned forward as not to startle Y/N, gently picking up the piece of bread. “Here.”

She lifted her head to see what was in his hand as he gave the bread to her. “What’s this for?”

“To eat, brat,” he said quietly. He didn’t mean it as an insult and she knew that. “Did you not hear what I just said?” She took the bread and took small bites of it.

“Thank you,” she whispered once she was finished. Levi noticed the confused look on her face and he furrowed his brows.

“What’s wrong?” he asked.

“Why am I so shaky?” she questioned, lifting a hand to show Levi how bad it was shakin. He took her hand in his.

“You had a nightmare,” he said softly. “Do you remember what it was about?” She shook her head slowly, looking into Levi’s eyes. He sighed, tightening his grip on her hand.  “It was of the night our squad died.” Y/N’s eyes filled with tears almost immediately. “No, no, don’t cry,” Levi rushed. “There’s no need to cry.”

“How did you know?” she whispered. “About my dream?”

“For a moment after I woke you up you were still out of it. You were asking where Petra and the squad was.” Y/N lowered her head.

“I’m sorry.”

“What for?”

“Causing you all of this trouble,” she whispered again. Levi placed a hand under her chin, lifting her face. He could see tears making their way down her face again.

“Don’t ever apologize for something you didn’t have a say in,” he said sternly. “That’s an order, understand?”

“Yes sir.” Levi nodded in approval.

“Good, now come here.” Levi pulled Y/N yet again into another hug. He lifted her up as he adjusted himself, leaning against the wall at the head of the bed. Levi gently placed Y/N on his lap and held her.

“Captain?” she called quietly. 

“Levi.”

“I’m sorry?”

“Call me Levi,” the man corrected.

“Levi,” the word felt foriegn coming from her mouth, “why are you doing this for me? If it were anyone else you would leave them be.”

Levi sighed. “When you are a part of a squadron, you become family. We’ve spent so much time with each other and the rest of the squad that we’ve become a family. Now, it’s just us and family has to stick together.”

Y/N had never heard her corporal be so open with his emotions and thoughts before. It was almost as if she didn’t hear him speak in the first place she was so shocked.

“Get some rest. I’ll leave you be.” Y/N quickly latched on to Levi’s arm as he tried to lace her on the bed. Levi looked at her, confused. “What is it Y/N?”

She looked away. “Please don’t leave.” Her words were nearly inaudible. “I don’t want to sleep alone.” The man’s eyes softened. He knew it would be wrong sleeping with one of his cadets, even if nothing was going on. But the way Y/N looked so distressed, he couldn’t say no.

Levi sighed, “Can you walk?” Y/N stood up slowly, nodding. “Come with me then.” The girl grabbed her green cloak, wrapping it around her body as she followed Levi into the hallway.

“Where are we going?” she asked quietly, jogging to catch up with her captain, now walking beside him.

“To my quarters,” he answered. The two walked in silence until they reached the man’s office. Levi led Y/N through his office into his bedroom. She looked around, taking in her surroundings. The room smelled of lemons and was unbelievably clean. As she looked around the room Levi pulled off his jacket and straps. He then walked over to his dresser and pulled out a pair of grey sweatpants and a tank top. Levi quickly changed as Y/N looked at the books on Levi’s bookshelf.

“Do you like to read, Captain?” Y/N asked quietly, turning to the man.

“I try to read when I have time,” he answered. “Now, lay down.” Levi pulled back the blankets on his bed as she slowly walked over to the bed. Levi got in and pulled her down beside him.  “Now go back to bed. You’re going to need your rest for tomorrow’s training.” Y/N pulled the covers up to her chin, looking into Levi’s eyes.

“Thank you,” she whispered, eyes starting to slip shut. Levi smiled softly, pulling the hood off of her head. He also removed the cloak from her and hung it on the bedpost. Sitting up, Levi leaned against the headboard and picked up a book from his nightstand.

After reading for almost an hour Levi decided to try to get some sleep. He preferred to sleep in a chair but for the sake of Y/N he stayed in the bed. He laid flat on his back, closing his eyes. He stayed like that for a few minutes before he felt a weight on his chest. Eyes shooting open, Levi looked down to see a H/C head resting on his chest. He huffed, wrapping his arms around the figure.

(this ask is from february—i am so sorry lmao)

"This is actually surprisingly light."

"Yeah, well. We don't all carry rocks in our bags, you know," Levi huffs. He's unsure if the wind blowing in your hair serves to make him more irritated or simply to make you look prettier. A bit of both, he decides.

"I don't carry"—You toss your own bag over your shoulder and cringe at the pressure—"rocks."

"Oh, sorry," he drawls, long and sarcastic on purpose, "just two laptops instead of one."

For obvious reasons, you don't really have a great response to a very true accusation, especially not when your back is probably straining from the pressure of holding two bags, so you settle with the childish route. "I'm not the one who broke my arm."

A stupid mistake during practice (not his mistake, but fucking Nile's, who should learn to watch where he's fucking going) isn't supposed to make him incapable of carrying his own messenger bag to class, but here he is.

If you're going to be childish, then he feels it gives him a right to copy your behavior. Doing a quick look-around to make sure no one is watching, he scowls his usual scowl but with a more pitiful twist. The kicked boyfriend look always works on you, and this time is no different.

"Aww." You set the bags down and wrap your arms around his neck, planting a quick peck on his lips. "Here, I have something for you." As soon as you place the object on top of his head, Levi knows what it is. He jerks his head sharply, letting the sunglasses fall over his eyes.

"See? Now you don't have to worry about losing you cool guy persona."

He hides a smile against your cheek. "Definitely what I was worried about most. I mean, if the sunglasses don't do the trick, all the doodles you did on the cast should definitely sell it." Giving it another look, with his good arm wrapped around your back, he scoffs amusedly. "Didn't even leave room for anyone else to sign, huh?"

Your head tilts, and your eyes glint mischievously. "And now no one else is going to ask to do it in the first place."

"I'm going to marry you one day," Levi declares, exceptionally grateful. The grin that breaks out on your face is no less brightened by the shades on his face.

"I'm counting down the days." Then you pick up the two bags once more, a little more strength in your arms. "Shall we get to class?"

Ref migo_mir

you are a dreamer. you live for the in-between moments of working quietly. you and a cup of tea always agree. you are an optimist with a broken wing. you believe there are always good things on the horizon. you notice little details. you don’t take smiles for granted. you find comfort in the smell of lavender.

december you are well versed in reflection. you want to better yourself every day. you love to cook for other people when you get the chance. you have a delightful smile that people remember. your kindness inspires kindness. you have an immense capacity for love. you are a daydreamer. you cry when you listen to your old music. you are filled with magic.

june

sunny june, you offer respite to tired and weary travelers. you offer a bright and welcoming adventure to anyone who knows you. you are full of new horizons and rebirth. you have a childlike wonder that makes the world beautiful. people are drawn to your potential and pleasantly surprised by your hidden introspective mind. you adore art museums and have a love of things that grow.

october

you have an electricity that cannot be found elsewhere. your vivacious energy sparks happiness in others. you dazzle others effortlessly and you still manage humility. you are a hardy and steady friend and lover. you are artistic and sensual. you connect deeply with art in museums and wont leave a piece until you’re sure you’ve taken all from it that you can. you are a lover.

(I guess this is my month then?)

tagging: @aslantes @daoreogirl @postwarlevi

February

your mind is always moving. fast-paced february is full of action and intent. you will put in the work to achieve your goals. you are observant of your surroundings. you value your alone time. you love to hold hands. you are a romantic. you love cozy things. people admire your spirit.

Well I was not expecting that because I don’t like change and don’t have any goals for now but I still like the way it’s describing me :) It was very fun to do !

I love doing these!!

Summary: Reader was dared to lay next to the sleeping Commander. Reader goes through with it once no on else is around. Erwin enjoyed it and they even confess their feelings for each other. 

Warning: None

Author Note: Saw the official art of Erwin sleeping. Thought it was cute and wanted to try writing a fanfic based off of it 😊

Word Count: 1,003

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Post war! Levi x Reader (mentioned), Levi's daughter

Warnings : SPOILERS FROM CH 139, talk of injuries, fluffy

Summary : Post War Levi Ackerman is a broken man, luckily his daughter is there to comfort him.

A/N: in my head it was ten times better :( but it's been sitting in my drafts for weeks and nothing else came to mind, maybe I've reread it too many times. Hope you like it! As always, feedbacks, likes and reblogs are appreciated and English is not my first language so forgive me for any mistakes! 💗

Yesterday,on a sunny and warm morning, the lovely Mrs Rose told her pupils about emotions. Even though for an almost four-years old Kuchel Ackerman was a very smart kid, she knitted her eyebrows together and raised her tiny hand to ask for another explanation. Unlike her friends she liked school because, there,she was able to learn so many wonderful things, which made her Daddy so proud of her, smooching kisses on her chubby cheeks.

Mrs Rose had smiled fondly at the raven-head and small child and showed the class some drawings,asking them what they felt while watching those pictures.Kuchel answered everything with a high pitched voice and her mind started bursting with ideas when the chubby and lovely teacher had told them to draw an emotion as homework for the next day.

The kid was over the moon, literally walking ten feet from air and happily jumping when her Dad came home from work, a gigantic smile plastered on her face as she was already sure that he would hug and tell her how good and clever she was.

But it didn't go that way.

Thank you! Here we go! Whoa just under 1k words :D

Seriously none of the cadets even realize he's dating anyone for months because, well, it's not their business! Erwin knows and knows who it is and that's about it...

The cadets joke about finding their grumpy Captain someone to help lighten him up and it's Jean who realizes that Levi really hasn't been all that bad lately. So they all set out to investigate why!

After lots of little side missions being spies and questions and being annoying Levi finally cracks.

"You pain in the asses! Why do you care who I'm dating?!"

And there's a collective gasp because he just admitted it! He huffs and sighs in defeat as they all clamor and Erwin isn't far away and gives a small chuckle and comes over to intervene.

"Wait, you knew?! Who is it?" Eren is shocked because no one knew!

"Not for me to say. Leave the Captain alone." Erwin insists as he all but pushes everyone away from Levi.

"Levi, you can't hide it much longer. Everyone is bound to find out when she starts showing." Erwin says of you, Levis wife who is in early stages of pregnancy.

Kitty fits

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A small little fluff involving some ooc ish levi.

Modern au.

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It was 12:30 am and Levi was certain he wasn’t going to get much if any sleep. He was a known insomniac but the few hours of rest he could get evaded him tonight. He desperately tried to get sleep as he also tried to ignore the feeling of his fiancée’s pleading eyes on his face.

He knew what she wanted.

“Baby… can we please go to sleep.” He mumbled.

She pouted and sat up to guilt him even further.

“But ice cream…”

Of course that’s what she wanted. They usually had some in their freezer but he had forgotten to buy more this week. Nonetheless, he did not want to get up to buy some.

“It’s midnight. We can’t get ice cream right now.” Levi rolled over onto his stomach to try ignoring her sad eyes.

“But I want ice cream.”

She placed her upper half on his back and began poking his shoulders. Damn she was crafty.

“I’m not getting you ice cream.”

His resolve was evident.

~~Twenty minutes later~~

Levi grumbled as he walked through the too bright frozen aisle, right behind his lover.

“I hate you so much.”

“Come on love!” She smiled and grabbed his hand, skipping to her favorite flavor. Her sweet demeanor breaking his grumpiness and making him laugh briefly.

She stopped in front of the ice cream cakes and turned toward him.

“Do you want cake?”

“I want sleep.”

“Hmmm.. I think you want cake.”

“No-“ Levi couldn’t help his chuckles as she grabbed the cake and her favorite ice cream.

By the time they made it back home, Levi was too tired and too in love to still put up a grumpy face. Waiting for her to put away the treats after she sampled her favorite.

Once that was done, he picked her up bridal style and carried her back to bed. Cuddling each other to sweet sleep.