βInconvenient Pregnancy
After many years of dating you find out you're pregnant, and happy to tell your boyfriend but it seems like he isn't as happy.
Warnings: Angst, hurt/comfort, pregnancy, miscommunication, misunderstanding, harassment, sexual assault implied.
You and Satoru have been dating for 6 years, and for those years everything was doing perfectly; you barely argued, even when you were busy you would understand each other and leave space if needed.
The subject of marriage and parenthood was talked about from time to time, Satoru said he wanted to marry you, and be a father.
He never added 'with you' alongside 'be a father' which is something you never even noticed but came to think about after taking several pregnancy test.
The answer was clear, every test showed two lines, you were pregnant and you were happy, you were gonna have a baby with the man you loved so much, what's there to not be happy about?
If only it was the same for Satoru.
βI want to be a fatherβ
Those words kept repeating in your mind as you watched Satoru analyze the pregnancy test for longer than he should.
The moment you showed him the pregnancy test his smile vanished in a blink of an eye.
βIs there something wrongβ Your lower lip was trembling from holding back the tears and your words came out shaky. βNo.. it's just that.. uhm I thought we were gonna wait until marriage you know?β
Your fingers started playing with each other to calm your racing heart, it wasn't your fault, wasn't it? It was an incident, you told him you weren't on the pill but had unprotected sex anyways.
βYeah I didn't know I was pregnant but I kept feeling nauseous and took a few tests, we didn't use protection last time, remember?β
Satoru placed the test down on the table, taking a deep breath. βYeah yeah, I remember.. of course I doβ
You never cried harder in your life before, you didn't wanna listen to another word coming out of his mouth and left before the conversation could take a worse turn.
But be said he wanted to be a father, then why did he act that way.
Or maybe.. that's why he never said he wanted to be a father with you.
Because he didn't wanna live that life with you, he didn't wanna build a family with you.
The cold water runned down the faucet, the jet strong enough to spray drops on your shirt. You've been crying in front of the bathroom mirror for who knows how long, wetting your face over and over again until you were sure your skin was as dry as a desert.
Who could've known such a perfect relationship would've ended this way?
Now every single word that came out his mouth before today seemed fake to you, every 'I love you' seemed like a way to shut you up.
What are you gonna do now? You're pregnant and the man who was supposed to raise the baby with you doesn't want it.
There was a knock on Shoko's office door. βCome inβ the door swung open, a tired looking Satoru stepping inside.
There was smoke floating in the room along with a heavy smell of alcohol. βWhat's wrong?β Shoko asked, not bothering to look at him while smoking her 16th cigarette of the day.
βHey Shoko, I need to talk to you about something because I think I really fucked up this time.β by his words it didn't take Shoko long to realize the reason he was so unusually calm was because of you.
There was a moment of silence where Satoru just replayed the moment in his mind, the pregnancy test, your face, the moment you rushed away from him without letting him say another word.
βThis morning she handed me a pregnancy test and it was positive, she looked so happy and was talking about how great we'd be as parents...β
Shoko put out the cigarette in the ashtray, blowing out one last smoke. βMhm and you don't want a kid?β
βNo no! I do want a child, I want a family and I want all of that with her!β He took a deep breath, two fingers massaging his nose bridge. βI don't know what got into me but at that moment I started thinking about what we are, you know, sorcerers and about everything that's happening, the curses and everything else, I made some lame excuse about waiting until marriage but I think that was her last straw.β
Shoko sighed, keeping her eyes fixed on the ceiling. βYeah you're right, you fucked up but you should talk to herβ
βI wanted to explain but she walked away without letting me speakβ This situation was bad, really bad, just because of his stupid thoughts he might not only lose his future child but his future wife as well.
βI'm totally on her side, I mean think of it like you're her, you just found out you're pregnant, are happy about it and when you tell your loving boyfriend he looks disappointed and unhappy, she's having a harder time than you so I suggest you find a solution quicklyβ
It's been 2 weeks since the last time you spoke with Satoru, as soon as he left to Jujutsu Tech you packed up your things and drove away in search of a hotel, you hoped it was enough to make it clear you didn't wanna see him again.
It's true, you didn't really know why Satoru acted that way, if he really meant to act that way but you didn't wanna know, he should've had another reaction to such an important new. As much as you loved Satoru you weren't gonna give up your baby because he didn't want to have one.
If he wasn't gonna help you raise it then you will raise it on your own, it's been your dream since you were a teenager to have a child.
But pregnancy was harder than you thought, the constant nausea and craving were hell, and you were only two months pregnant.
The TV was on, with some cartoon on air you didn't recognize.
You were on your knees on the bathroom floor, vomiting again, for the 4th time this day.
As if this whole constant vomiting thing wasn't enough you were hungry, really hungry, you haven't eaten all day and along with the cravings it wasn't the ideal.
No matter how bad you were feeling you had to go to the convenience store, it was just a few blocks away but you could barely walk.
Your pregnancy was being brutal and of course to your unending unfortunate you could barely use your cursed techniques and anything related to that, in other words you were weak and defenseless.
You didn't even bother to turn off the TV or the lights, just exiting your hotel room and trying to even reach the store.
It was close to midnight, the air was fresh, almost too cold.
The convenience store's automatic doors opened as soon as you appreached them, the bright lights blinding you, it was quiet with just a few people around.
You wasted no time going to the sweets section, grabbing everything you pleased, after all you had the money to do that.
The cashier seemed as tired as you were but because of the exhausting work hours, still she forced a smile on her face.
βThanks for shopping with us, have a great night.β
You just nodded, you really didn't want to talk, or maybe is because you knew you would vomit if you did.
What seemed like 5 minutes in the store apparently were 20, you really lost track of time.
You began walking back to the hotel room with the remaining forces you had and the ones you saved to eat the food.
You didn't feel his presence immediately but after only a few steps you noticed someone was following you, a man you didn't know.
The air you were trying to breath became thicker, you tried to move your legs faster but you couldn't.
Now you were in between the convenience store and your hotel room, right where nobody was and there was nothing but pitch black.
To him this was like a golden opportunity and like it was served to him in a silver plate he took advantage of it, suddenly grabbing your hand tightly and pinning you roughly against the wall in an alley way.
You tried to break free, to use your cursed technique or even just a bit of cursed energy but you couldn't, your body was too weak at the moment.
To make matters worse, he wasn't just a thief.
His hand lingered down to the waistband of your pants while his eyes stayed fixed on yours.
βL-let me goβ Your voice was barely audible, his other hand grabbing your neck, making it almost impossible to breath.
His thumb made it's way inside the waistband, caressing your skin.
You couldn't help but shut your eyes close and let the tears run down your face..
The sudden loud noise and the absence of his hands on your body made you open your eyes again.
The guy was on the floor, in pain, holding his bleeding head.
βAre you okay?!β That familiar voice.. You turned to look at your side, Satoru was standing close, he wasn't wearing his blindfold; this time you could see his expression clear as glass, he was worried, worried to death.
You couldn't answer just yet, taking a moment to catch your breath and as expected vomit once again.
βSatoru..β His heart was pounding hard and fast seeing your conditions.
The same day you left he knew where you were, but thought it would be better to leave you space then he would settle everything, he decided to come clear things up today but then he saw you leave the hotel room and enter the convenience store.
The moment that filthy guy put his hands on you he was fuming, now that same guy is on the ground crying in pain with a bleeding head.
βI should get you checked, okay?β He grabbed you by the waist, holding you up and in a second you were in Jujutsu Tech infermery, Shoko was already waiting for the two of you.
Before coming to see you he gave her a quick call, knowing you would've definitely needed some medical help.
βLay here, Shoko's gonna heal youβ He layed you down on the bed, your baby bump was a little more visible than two weeks ago.
Shoko flashed you a quick smile before using her reverse cursed technique on you, healing the wounds that man did.
Under Shoko's care, the softness and warm of her hands made you fall asleep.
βHer body is weak at the moment, that's why she couldn't defend herself, I'm sure after waking up she'll be feeling betterβ
Shoko's words didn't even make it inside Satoru's head, his mind was flooded with thoughts about what couldn't have happened to you if he wasn't there in time.
βDon't blame yourself, she's safe nowβ She walked past him, patting his shoulder two times before exiting the room, leaving your sleeping body and him alone.
He was gonna wait, even if you slept for days he was gonna wait by your side and as soon as you wake up he would clear everything.
Hours passed, Satoru was still there, seated besides the bed.
The red marks left on your neck by the man were almost vanished by now.
Your eyes opened slowly, adjusting to the bright light of the room, it took about a minute to understand where you were.
You were so nauseous and exhausted before that you could barely remember what happened.
Your head turned as you heard your name being called, by a voice you clearly recognized.
βHow are you feeling?β His face was just inches away from yours, blindfold off and his eyes couldn't leave you even if death was behind him.
βUh.. I'm feeling betterβ Your voice was hesitant, you blocked him everywhere, left without saying a word. It's weird being in front of him again like this.
βSorry if I caused trouble, I'll get goingβ You tried to stand up from the bed but Satoru immediately grabbed your wrist and layed you back.
βGoing where? Don't you remember what happened? You were assaulted and you think I will let you go back, to what? A shitty hotel room where you can't even take full care of yourself?" His tone raised but you could see the panic in his bright blue eyes.
You sat up, pushing his hand away from your wrist. "I won't give up the baby, Satoru, if you aren't going to take care of it I willβ
Oh right, he almost forgot why you left in the first place.
βWhat are you saying? You didn't even let me explain that dayβ
βThen why did you act like that, you looked and sounded disappointed to have a baby, you always said you wanted to be a father but not with me right? You just didn't want a baby with me!"
Satoru remained silent for a few seconds, there was no concrete explanation for his reaction.
βI- I was being a coward, okay? When you showed me the pregnancy test my mind stopped completely and started thinking about all the bad things that could happen to our baby and to you because of curses, us being sorcerers and instead of talking it out with you I reacted that way, I'm sorry.β
The room fell into a thick silence but that somewhat felt calm and what was needed.
Both your heartbeats filled the silent room.
Hearing his words made you feel less heavy, like you just let go of a weight on your shoulders you didn't know you had.
βSo.. you were just worried? I-I thought you didn't want a baby with me...β
His hand reached your head, and pushed the hair on your face back behind your head then came down to your hand, holding it and interlacing your fingers.
βI always wanted to have a family with you, I'm sorry I made you think that, can we start again from where we left?β
You let out a giggle, something you haven't done in weeks.
Your fingers grip harder onto his as you layed your head on his shoulder.
