♚ princess phoebe ♚

do you ever just sense that you're making someone unhappy

or that you will in their future

and so you just.. want them to pull away and disregard your existence before something comes to that? 

because i felt that

and i wanted it

and in the end we pulled apart, and then things got worse, and now this person is just.. i think.. broken..? and its all my fault

and he loathes me so much and i want to apologize because i never wanted him to be broken i just wanted him to be happy and have a free life where my jealousy wasnt in the way and

he doesnt believe anything i say, not even when i tell him i love him

and i just

i dont know what to do i want to fix him and make him better but he absolutely hates me, especially since im the one who broke him to begin with and

what have i actually done

i dont think i deserve to even continue breathing like what the hell

i literally just ruined someone's life because i didnt even realize how badly they needed me or loved me

i was so caught up in wanting all their attention that i got greedy and wasnt happy enough and i just took my anger and i shoved it down their throat