the heart is a muscle

always nice to have 2+ weeks of an almost nonstop internal monologue of suicidal ideation and self loathing and then log on to tumblr dot com and be blasted with really patronizing posts like “many people dont know this, but its Bad to want to kill yourself…” “you can just Choose not to want to kill yourself…just think of your negative thoughts as a meanie doodoo edgelord internet bully instead 🤪🤪” “ugh so many yucky pathetic losers Toxic Chronically Online people choosing to be depressed instead of Touching Grass. couldnt be me tho #guywhotouchesgrass”

is it too much to ask for every job rejection email to explain in detail why you suck and they hate you? i feel like that would be helpful information

i need to tattoo my therapist saying “you cant positive self talk your way out of clinical depression” on my forehead