Rose and Verse

AB

AB

I stand rejected  yet again  My hope defeated by a pass Why does confidence betray me? It scoffs behind my back  As no’s resound ~ AB

Your voice was a mere ringing in my ear; continuous noise without form or nuance. Your thoughts were an articulation best left in obscurity. At first, the buzz was a bother, a source of isolating turmoil. But, I have since swat it away; replacing the sound with my own voice- my own truth. I can finally hear clearly again. ~ AB

A constant of inconsistency you had become my heart’s shadow, appearing only when the hum of loneliness beckoned. But, see, I don’t mind the murmur-  it’s brought more comfort than your false touch,  or the implications that come with. I am finally ready to be rid of it all. Tonight I say goodbye with the knowledge your fleeting affection  is not a safe net to fall upon; I am better off without it. ~ AB

I’ve yet to let you go  Foolishly Maybe I’ve romanticized us  To the point of holding on  So tightly  I’ve gone numb to anyone else  The idea stuck in my head  we’ll still end up together in the end ~ AB

I try to catch you  Like a snowflake on my tongue  But it melts before I realize I’ve succeeded  So I keep trying To the point of frostbite ~ AB

Yes, waking up to you by my side  is like discovering Santa has come; with cookies half eaten  and a loving handwritten note. But a kiss from you is far better  than any present under the tree. I would take your embrace  over a surprise in my stocking; your voice over any holiday tune. You were all of my wish list-  My favorite gift is you. ~ AB

I don’t need mistletoe as an excuse to kiss you, but it sure would help.  That, or some strong egg nog. ~ AB

Yes, 12 days remain But no true love gave me  Maybe Christmas next year  My wish will come to be  ~ AB

Yeah, I have never been so attracted to a man’s hands ~ AB

The source of sighs  The truth in lies  Hearts beating as drums  Answers unknown  Fear is alone This way something comes  ~ AB 

Sip me down like your Long Island  Your lips are wasted on the rim  My kiss is such a better buzz  ~ AB

You let me go But my hair has tangled in your jacket It’s as tangled as we are in each other  It grasps onto you Begging you to stay Ruining a moment  Reeling you back in  Lest I rip it out  To release me Breaking my ends   Breaking my heart   Like a jerking reminder You’re not actually mine  ~ AB

You have scared me in both ways but specifically the space between my brows Karma for poor decisions made with you Some I resent…others I do not Like the taboo warnings explorers ignore  I looked at that scar and continued down the forbidden path  Only to end up hurt  Or at the very least, empty handed… without the treasure I was hoping to find ~ AB

Snapshots of empty bottles  labels peeled away Him teasing  and a smile on my face ~ AB 

As I kneel down I find my thighs are sore like a mischievous wink  I think of you.  ~ AB