Get used to it.

im gonna be okay. just having a wobble!!!

no but seriously why wouldnt i look for the flowers in the middle of a war... even if going out to look for the flowers will definitely put me in harms way... because the alternative is rotting in a dark, damp basement, wondering and grieving what the outside looked like

no guys im actually gonna be a doctor in 2 weeks... much bigger fish to fry

thank you ayo edebiri for ur broadchurch recommendation

I know I literally said this morning I wasn’t gonna give dating a go but I actually think retreating inwards after this whole realisation would be a worse outcome. Maybe. I don’t know. I think I just know I’m in for a world of pain probably for the rest of my life so I might as well try to do the things I want to do and go after the things I want rather than just live in pain regardless. If that makes sense. Idk.

Anyways I need to go to the beach and touch the sea

Anyways now that I’m out of university the only partying and drinking I’ll do will be at actual events where I want to listen to the music and casual pub and things and I think that will really really help me. Because currently going out and drinking triggers the absolute worst parts of myself.

Thank god I never have to be at uni again and thank god I’m going to working a full time job soon because I’m not even gonna have the time to think and be bothered.