Mind The Gap

falling in love makes me want to eat

& actually its romantic and intimate to have someone in ur life who wants u to eat, who reminds u to eat, who treats u to snacks bc they want u to be happy and full way more than they would ever care about u keeping thin, i think wanting someone to take care of themselves and eat without shame or fear for their appearance is like the worlds closest thing to unconditional love

actually i love growing older and learning how i work as a person like realizing what kinds of fabrics feel best on my skin or what brand of yogurt i like best or how I want to be touched. watching myself change, enjoying brussel sprouts when I used to hate them as a child, understanding why I got angry in that one conversation 10 years ago… there are so many mysteries inside me that i have yet to unravel and there will always be more and sometimes i think maybe its all worth it

dumplings are simply the peak of human intelligence. yeah, you wrap that meat in dough and then you boil it... so simple and yet it's so universal that practically every ethnic group has their own unique kind of dumplings, but they're so similar... genius. brilliant. delicious.

Joan Didion writes, in On Keeping a Notebook, that the purpose of keeping a notebook, or a journal for that matter, isn’t because you simply want keep a personal record of things; but because you want to remember the person you were at that specific moment. we write things down on our notebook/journal/diary (whichever one of those you keep) because we want to remember. we want to remember what specific people meant to us on a particular day or hour. or minute. we want to remember our first impression of something (or of doing that something), possibly of someone, too. sometimes we think we’ll “always remember” important events: “I’ll make a mental note of that” etc etc. but in reality everything is fleeting. so Didion says write it down. keep a journal. that way, people, places, and certain events will always be there in case you ever want to come back to them sometime in the future. but also so that they don’t ever haunt you.