This is my rebuttal. I don't give out my trust lightly or easily it is a long vetted process because I've gone through so much disappointment in my life when dealing with people. In my life I've always played the second fiddle to some bigger main character whether that be the Snake eyes to the Duke or the Man-At-Arms to the He-Man, I have always been the second choice or the backup plan the extra man on the arcade game, the token black dude or the lightskin kid in the crew. The guy who never gets the girl in the end, but has a heart of gold in your 80ties flick. I give all of my love to my people. I will drop everything that I'm doing, look past my own insecurities and problems and fly to people's side listen to what they have to say, cry with them, laugh with them, be with them yet some people feel as if they don't owe back the same energy you put in this is why my handful of friends keeps getting smaller. This is why I don't date anymore this is why I spend most of my time alone because I don't trust anyone anymore that they will treat me with the same respect that I do. I have treated people with all the love in the world try to listen to them never disrespect them only to turn around to have people disrespect me to my face and let their own hubris try to come up with an excuse for it and I'm not going for that anymore. It is a very lonely life but if you don't feel you can put your all into the relationship with me I got nothing for you.`sure we I'll have our own problems but some of us are willing to put our problems to the side for the sake of others for the sake of our people we all go through things it's life. Sure I can be wrong sometimes but I'm willing to say that I'm wrong in apologize for it, some people can't get beyond their own hubris to admit that they hurt people and that they can't say sorry for it because they don't see anything wrong with that they use things such as what they go through as an excuse. The problem is the world does not care about the issues that you're going through the world wants things done when it's time to be done. that's something I've learned that no matter how bad my day is or how good it is for that matter the universe doesn't give a rat's ass things are going to happen exactly the way it wants. I'm done with being the token black guy in the group who has no talking roles like Franklin from Charlie Brown. I'm done with being the lone light skin dude in the group of brothers who only gets to say something silly and then everyone points and laughs, and I'm definitely done with being the brother who plays Norbert and I'm dealing with a woman who bosses me around and treats me like dirt. Unless people want to try and meet me in the middle the way I meet them then I don't need you.
