la lune

it is like not sinking in that i am going to have 2 masters degrees from my dream program/uni, that is genuinely so insane and i can’t believe i did it

genuinely scared out of my mind to professionally catalogue for like what is probably my dream library but i gotta remember that i am a) so qualified and b) competent and want to do a good job so it will all be ok!

pascal repeated the song title “archie, marry me” and hearing him say the words marry me was so romantic and soft and sweet and im so in Love and overcome with that emotion wow 

i had never bathed with anyone else before and it was so lovely and comforting. washing his hair. rubbing soap into his skin. sharing the water. hugging. being completely at ease physically naked in front of someone. god. i love him so much. truly.

im so in love and happy and every good adjective and pascal is amazing and we take care of each other so well and enjoy the world together and have so many plans and it’s just lovely wowowowowow also sex LMAO

im feeling the need to travel and get away from everything and be immersed in another city with things to do

uncontrollable happiness. my heart re-explodes every few seconds. lots of heat. thinking about it and him makes me smile so largely. this is such an intense feeling. 

you know when you meet someone who is not perfect, but so impossibly lovely and human to be around that its as if every atom in your body is reaching out to connect and there is heat and tingles and spasms. that’s where i live.

i am very much in love with a boy

literally what the fuck im never telling anyone anything ever again i feel so open and gross and judged and no one understands and this is stupid bye

what am i doing