robinoxel

General Tags:

#robin!art - All art made my me

#robin!oc -Art and posts about my original characters and story

#robin!answers - Posts regarding Asks!

#fanart for robin - posts regarding fanart for me!

Notable Fandoms/ art:

#Storm Chasers - Original characters and story inspired by storm chasing

#Gachiakuta - Fanart and posts for Gachiakuta

#The Owl House - Fanart and posts for The Owl House

#Demon Slayer - Fanart and posts for Demon Slayer

Drowning in Incompetence ~ Zanka

It just makes me sad that when I start new projects or try to talk about other things, or even express that I want people to be invested in what I am working on now— that people start asking about old things that I have mentioned in the past I have stepped away from.

I'm fighting not to delete my Hadestown fic or art. And I just want people to like that or talk about it. But no one cares about it and it makes me wanna die. Like I put tens of thousands of words into something, hours and months into projects and a lot of people turn away from it.

I appreciate that people loved my presence in a fandom or even old projects. I didn't exactly feel like I was being appreciated there, a lot of things felt really quiet. It just sucks. Cause I am trying to move on, but I felt really burned by that fandom (and a lot of things that happened).

I just wish in general fandom spaces knew how to appreciate creatives while they're actually creating. Cause sometimes when people think no one cares, they step away, and its hard to undo that. Just a thought.

Maybe finishing the hero fic for Loyal. Otherwise it's pretty over. I'll always deeply love the dsmp. I love cdream and cpunz and ctechno and csam so so much. But I'm trying to move forward. Maybe someday it'll change and if it does, it'll be posted on my dsmp alt.

Thanks, Im sorry I've been so whiny. I've been feeling really bad for weeks and I just don't think I can bottle it in anymore. I just.. ugh. Its been a lot lately. Im sorry.

I'm sorry. Yeah I deleted it earlier this year when I turned over fandoms. I knew I wouldn't be able to finish it and started to question if I was comfortable with such an explicit fic being on my main ao3. It also had seemed to have relatively low reception anyways so I let it go to continue on new projects ;-;

I dunno why, but I've been hella struggling mentally.

I feel very lonely online. Like I don't have a lot of people who regularly interact with me or comment on my things and I feel like I talk to a wall sometimes 😭😭😭

I dunno, just sad.

Also kinda weird to put so much into aus that aren't yours? So it feels like no one really cares about what I do. Not even the creator. So I just be alone in my box looking crazy.

I need to make my own au ig lol

I've been mostly offline and generally doing well. But its hard to post and then come back to quiet.

I do appreciate the people who have commented on the fic at least. Thank you.

Art for Chapter Two of "Can't Go Back"

OR, the post Hadestown AU fic no one asked for...

Read "Can't Go Back" here

More info for the AU here

Prequel Comic

Just not having a great time mentally, struggling with myself, my art, insecurity, etc. I've just been so burnt out. I'm trying to write and draw behind the scenes but I either just.. can't or I don't have the time/ availability anymore. It sucks and I'm exhausted.

Anyways, I was supposed to be storm chasing right now and using that week to work more on sasha and that story, but the uh... nearly 9k in vet bills really fucked that up.. hah.