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i'm mostly a death note account, although i sometimes post content for other fandoms. i draw and write mostly meronia (🔄) and mattmello (🔄❌), but i do make content for other rarepairs i like.

i am explicitly profic. i write and draw abusive dynamics, and i also delve into the depths of mental illness in my artworks. my clear boundary is that i do not want antiship interacting with me or my work, it is not for you if you think that way.

my entire account has a severe trigger warning, including things like gore, suicide, and sexual abuse. if you are sensitive to anything extreme, don't follow me as i do not put trigger warnings on my work.

another boundary is that i do not want people dming me, unless it's for something serious. mutuals can dm me if they want, but bare in mind i am level 2 autistic and am terrible at social interaction. i may struggle with dming you back.

my asks are always open as well, if you want to ask me a question or see my take on a headcanon of yours. i really enjoy getting asks ♡

that's all really. just don't be weird to me, please

he was a premie baby, before 37 weeks. it contributed to his short height, how frail he is, and the constant pain he has in his body from low bone density (always sitting down).

'we were flyin' but we'd never get far, don't pretend its such a mystery, think about the place where you first met me'

I mildly dislike fanon matt. this isn't to say that I think it's an invalid way to characterise him, but I feel that it's very lost on people that matt is as true of a victim (and perpetrator) as both mello and near are. I think he must have some sort of cycle of victimhood and malintent, just how the other two do. he isn't exempt from the grooming, which imo I see a lot.

I also feel that matt gets turned into an accessory for mello frequently, either to validate how mello feels or to be the 'balancing force'. this is kinda my biggest pet peeve because again, it forgets how matt was in the exact same situation as mello. sure, we don't know how he left and we don't know why he came back, but he was still very much in the same environment that lead to mello's cycle of abusive behavior, and I wish more people leant onto the genuine abusive characteristics of matt that could be there.

this is why I'll forever say that mellodramattic isn't the healthy ship a lot of people try to say it is (I see this most on tiktok so this isn't really an argument for this platform, but still I think it's a point I want to think about). there could be constant cycles of abuse between the two depending on so many factors, and even them just growing up in the same, very specific environment could be a huge source of codependency.